This was just an idea floating around my head. I really hope you like it because I know I do.
He was my first love, ever, and I didn't want to let him go. But I had to. I can't help but think it was my fault. That I was the cause of his death that day. I still think that. Though I've tried all I could to convince myself otherwise, nothing has worked.
I changed after that day. I did things I'm not proud of. I said my first "I hate you"s to my parents, Charlie and Renee. I tore my family apart. But most of all... I murdered the person inside me. Beating myself to a pulp from guilt. Knowing I could have stopped it. Knowing, if I had, he and I would be perfectly happy right now. And he certainly wouldn't be dead. Unless it was fate.
But how could it be? When he was such an amazing person. Never selfish, always selfless. A straight A student. An amazing athlete. One of the few guys in this world, who actually know how to treat a girl right. How could it be that someone as perfect and amazing as him, only fifteen years old, with a bright future ahead of him, could be taken away form everyone who loved him. Everyone he loved. Is it true? That only the good die young.
I shut myself out from the rest of the world. Barely talking to my own mother, who I've always been so close to. Letting go of my friends, who tried to be there for me, but I didn't let them. I promised myself I would never love again. That he was the only one for me. The only one I wanted.
When I moved to Forks, Washington, I never knew what I was getting myself into. I didn't know my past would be revealed. I definately didn't know I'd find another love. But the one thing I did know... was that I was starting all over. And no matter how many people I met, or how many I hurt, I could never, ever forgive myself for lying to everyone. Hurting his parents and killing him. No one, but me, knows what happened that day. I made up a lie to the cops. Not because I was scared to tell the truth, but because I felt guilty and didn't want to relive the tragic incident. His death is still a mystery. No one knows exactly how it happened. All they know is that he's dead.
To this day I haven't told a soul, that is...until now.
If I get enough reviews I will update soon, but If not then I will mostly focus on my other story Double the Trouble, and then focus on this one. So please review good or bad!!!! Thanks for reading!!!
-xxActressgirlxx