As a child, she never felt loved. She was alone in the world. Her twin sister, Melanie, abandoned her for boarding school. She couldn't handle the stress of her home life. The mother of the twin girls was an absent figure. She was there physically at rare moments. Mentally their mother was gone. She left with the father they once knew. He promised he would return and obviously failed to keep that promise. Sam felt alone.

She had friends. Carly, Freddie, Spencer, and even Gibby were like a family to her, except they couldn't replace her own family. Carly had Spencer, her older brother. Their father was away in the navy overseas. They lived in Bushwell Plaza in the rainy city of Seattle. Sam spent more time in their apartment than she did in the trailer park she lived in. Across the hall from the two siblings she loved was the boy she loved to torture. Their "hate" for each other was complicated. The could go from getting along perfectly to bickering and they would reconcile then acting like nothing happened at all.

That's what happened with their first kiss. They were in an all out prank war until Sam revealed to the world Freddie had never kissed a girl. Sam sees his embarrassment and ultimately realizes that she cares about Freddie's feelings. She might enjoy bullying him from time to time but she hates when anyone else tries to do so. Sam publicly revealed she had not kissed anyone as well and apologize to Freddie. She visited him on his fire escape to apologize to his face. They kissed promising to never speak of it or mention it again. Of course, Carly found out and it was quite hectic. They promised no more secrets between the trio.

Of course, this was another promise that would be broken. Sam had secrets and a lot of them. She had a mentally unstable mother. Her father's identity which she had not ever revealed to her friends would shock them. Her sister was a druggie. That's right. The perfect little princess was on drugs. Why would a perfect little princess go on drugs in the first place? School got harder and more stressful. She felt her only option was to turn to Adderall. She bought it off her roommate that had ADHD. Just like their mother, she found relief from a very unhealthy source. At least she wasn't drinking, that's the difference between Mel and Mommie dearest.

Father's day was yesterday. Sam didn't care. Why would she honor a day dedicated to dads when she didn't have one? He was once an active figure in her life. She used to be a daddy's girl. It's kinda odd that the daughter that was once closest to him now has no relationship with him. Mel is frequently visited by her father at boarding school. Both of them reside in the San Francisco Bay Area. Sam was hurt the most by his disappearance. He never even bothered to reach out to her. She didn't cry because Sam felt he didn't deserve her tears.

She walked to school that Monday morning. It was a long walk and buses wouldn't dare to go down such a dangerous area. She hadn't stayed at Carly's the night before. Her mother was too hungover to take her. Even if she wasn't dunk the night before, she was too lazy to do anything. She's practically a prostitute. She's doesn't stand on a corner but her "boyfriends" pay her bills (barely). Sam barged into Ridgeway High School. It was the last day of senior year.

Sam walked to her locker to get her stuff. She was wearing a yellow T-shirt with gray shorts. She turned her head and looked at her classmates in confusion. They were all staring at her. She wiped her face and looked down at her hand. She realized her face was clean. Why were they looking at her? She looked at their hands and realized they were all holding copies of People Magazine with a familiar face on the cover. Sam didn't know his identity, but she had seen him before.

Her best friend Carly approached her with Freddie following behind. "Why didn't you tell us?" Carly sounded offended.
"What?" Sam was confused. What exactly had she hidden from them? She knew there were a lot of secrets. What had they found out about?
"We know who your Dad is. How could you keep this from me?" They weren't supposed to know.
"How did you find out?" Freddie handed Sam his copy of People Magazine. She looked at the cover again. She finally recognized him. Those chilling blue eyes belonged to her father. She inherited those eyes and the curly hair. Her hair was blonde while his was brown. Freddie turned the page to an article.

Dear Sam,

I have no idea what to say. How can I stress how much I have failed you? I spoke to your sister, Mel. I finally decided to reach out to you. I know better than to call your home. I know your mother would never allow me to speak to you. I can't blame her. I've hurt you so much. Your sister did not have your cell phone number. I needed to do this publicly. I can no longer be idolized by numerous technology enthusiast.

I am no man. I am a failure. I hate myself. I deserve your hate. You have every reason to hate me. I acted irresponsibly and recklessly. Right after graduating college, I met your mother. She was a bartender at a bar and was just as few months older than me. We bonded as I spilled my ambitions for success in the world. She encouraged me to chase my dreams. We lived in California then. I was top of my class at Caltech and I wanted to create my own software company.

Months later we discovered your mother was pregnant. We moved to Seattle to live closer to my mother who was ill. Before the birth of you and your sister, she died. I worked as a web developer for a small restaurant chain in Washington. I grew tired of my lack of progress in achieving my dreams. The woman who encouraged me to follow those dreams was now the reason I couldn't. I resented your mother.

I was a good father for the first six years of your life. Please note the use of past tense.I am well aware that I am an awful father. Everyone lies when they say they don't favor one child over another. Your mom was closer to Melanie. You were my soldier girl. You took interest in sports and technology. You are quite the tech genius and I know you would never admit it. You are way too cool to be considered a nerd.

You probably don't remember my father's death. His suicide destroyed me. I felt so empty and disgusted with myself. How had I not recognized his pain? I was filled with guilt. I turned to alcohol as I sought comfort in my depression. I couldn't handle it anymore so I left. Eleven years ago I abandoned you, Mel, and your mother. I found success in California.

I never married your mom because I didn't truly love her. I love you and your sister. I bumped into Mel when she was on a field trip. We have since reconciled and bonded. My relationship with you is non existent. I would however like to tell you how proud I am of you. I know I harmed you. You turned to violence and getting into trouble to cope. You've grown out of being a bully and are now a beautiful young web show host. I watch iCarly weekly. I have never gotten the courage to contact you until recently. I have left numerous comments on the website though.

I am not asking for forgiveness. I don't deserve it. I am not asking for a relationship. I do want one, but I know I have blown that chance with you. This is not an attempt to clear my conscious. Everyone should know that I am no hero. I am ashamed. The purpose of this letter is to let you know you are loved. I can never understand your struggle. I am truly sorry for the pain I have caused you. I am well aware of my failures as a father. Sam, I wish you all the happiness and success in the world.

Sincerely,
Stephen Robb
CEO of Pear Inc.,

"That son of a bitch," Sam commented as she finished reading the cover story in the magazine. Her two brunette companions stared at her.
"Sam, watch your language." Oh Carly. She's so sweet ans naive. She couldn't possibly understand the things Sam has seen and heard. Her life is too good and perfect. She deserves it for being such an angel.
"You know how I feel about him. You should have told me," Freddie said. He's obviously hurt by Sam's omission. He idolized the man. Freddie was one of the tech enthusiast he spoke of.
"I didn't feel like crushing your nerd dreams. How does he think he has the right to make that public? This isn't anyone's business, but mine." All the looks make sense now. The girl was so unloved by her father, he left her. No he feels empty and ashamed. He wants to fix it all over a decade later.
"You could have trusted us. You must be rich," Carly input. Sweetheart, all because he has money doesn't mean he shared any.
"I am NOT rich. There's a reason neither of you have been to my home. You could never possibly handle it," Sam states before walking away. Her friends are left wondering what else she could be keeping from them. She is a girl of many mysteries.

AN: What else is there? Any ideas for secrets? Review for more!