Author's Note: This is just something random. I was in an angsty poetry mood and I needed to write something. Inspired by Eli in Love Game.
Numb
It's almost a pleasant condition
Like a wave that washes over you and slowly drags you
under
You don't fight it
Why would you?
You can still
Talk
Eat
Sleep
Breathe
Move
Live
You could live
If life were defined by those things
But it's not
To live, you must feel
I can't feel
I can feel
But I'm only limited to one emotion
(Trapped)
I know my emotions are being held captive somewhere
Begging to escape
But they can't be freed
Not while I take these pills
Pills
How can they change how I
Think
Feel
Am?
Small white tablets do big things
I know when they're wearing off
The thoughts
Why was I so stupid?
What did I do wrong?
Where is she now?
How could this happen?
The feelings
Frustration
Desire
Fear
Pain
LOVE
Begin to resurface
To overwhelm me
My hands shake as I untwist the cap
Swallow them quickly
Time to once again become
Numb
Author's Note: Like I said, just something random I needed to get out.