Author's note: This is actually a songfic mixed with some Scully's thoughts concerning Mulder's abduction. So, this definitely takes place during Season 8th 1st episode, when she goes to Mulder's apartment and it's freaking sad. This songfic is based on "All I Wanted" from Paramore, which I think that it's a great song and suits perfectly with the episode. I kind of already felt what Scully did, I mean, not that my ex-boyfriend was abducted or anything, but this "I really miss you and I have no idea where in the planet you are or if I'll ever get to see you again" feeling is terribly awful. This first episode disturbed me a little bit.
I do appreciate any tiny miny review -"I'll beg you nice from my knees".
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Think of me when you're out, when you're out there
I'll beg you nice from my knees
Wherever you are, just please, please think of me, remember me…
If only begging you was enough to get you back to me…
When the world treats you way too fairly
It's a shame I'm a dream
You should know by know that the only truth that we have ever found in this life is that this world is unfair and it takes everything from you. It ripped you away from me. But I do promise that if you come back I'll make my best to simply relieve your pain, so that you can relieve mine.
All I wanted was you
So bad that it hurts inside…I can't barely breathe. This is smothering me.
All I wanted was you
More than anything I have ever wanted...
I think I'll pace YOUR apartment a few times
Hoping that I'm going to find you somehow. Hoping that all of this is just a really unreal nightmare, like the ones that I keep having over and over again. Are you suffering? Are you in pain? I can't stand you suffering, I just keep wondering if you're hurt…I really want to heal your wounds, your heart, to save you from this darkness that you are in and protect you from all of your fears.
And fall asleep on the couch
Your couch…Though it doesn't feel the same without you, the emptiness takes me over, but your scent still lingers on it…and I don't want to waste it. This is the only way where I can feel you, where I'm sure that everything was real, you were real. Maybe when I'll wake up, you'll be here standing right by my side...
And wake up early to black and white re-runs
The only thing that I still own are the memories, memories from the precious days spent with you. I'm able to remember everything, every single detail, every smile, every touch, every fight, our very first kiss. Somehow, these memories are extremely painful right now. I'm really scared of losing you forever...
That escaped from the mouth
All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
I could follow you to the beginning
Like I always did and always will…
And just relive the start
I really wish I could turn back time, to our very first meeting and relive every moment…perhaps I could change this present day.
And maybe then we'll remember to slow down
God knows how many times I tried to slow you down, so that your truth wouldn't swallow you, wouldn't hurt you and take you away from me.
At all of our favorite parts
Any moment with you is my favorite part…
All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
- The End -