Chapter one: Pain
she was alone she had been for a long time now but it dident matter she was used to
it going through school in a haze barely noticing anything at all her mind was lost on
other things she dident know what or why its just the way it had always been alone it
was comferting to her now the darkness her freind untill one day it happened he came
from no where she dident know him had never seen him couldent even see him now cept
for his picture on the computer screen they became freinds oddly enough and after a
year she couldent get enough of him nor could he get enough of her although they had
still yet to meet in real life they were in love that all they knew and it began each
month something differnt making her sad and doubting that someone could love her
nobody loved her she was meant to be alone wasent she? no apparently not she sighed
and before they knew it they decided to try talking in real life so she called him and
it began slowly they got closer and closer learning all they could of each other still
so far away from each other though and then one day when they both couldent stand
it no more they took the next step talking dirty on the phone simple words of pleasure
and lust lead to deep meaningfull things and they were soon both moaning touching
themselfs in eachothers name moaning their need to each other and for the next two
days they did the same unable to stop the now addicting thing untill something happened
his parents they were fighting again she worried she loved him so much and without
thinking she told him so he said it was nothing he was used to this she dident like it
sure she herself had had a dark background but he was supposed to be pure innocent
her angel to save her from the darkness and he was used to something so dark and wrong
it hurt why!? she was worried if and when they met would they ever fight would they
be angry and hate each other he assured her that it wasent goijng to be like it but the
same night she still dwelled on the matter unable to stop her mind as it slowly created
a horrible nightmare she was with him but something was different he was horney and
they had sex dident seem all that bad she loved him it haddent been the first time but
she felt funny she had always been afraid of getting pregnate dethly afraind of it the
meer thought scaring her to no extent thats when she realised what had happened this
time there had been no condome hwe had been in too much of a lustful haze to remember
it she paled no it couldent be but she knew it was possible the worst thing could have just
happened the next few days she prayed and hoped her period would come she hoped it
would show her his seed had not made her pregnate she had not told him not wanting to
worry him but she was scared to death and when suddenly the month was out and she
had not even bled once for one day or one hour she panicked and went to the store while
he was gone and layed in her bed watching in horror as the test said positive she was
crying instantly and still crying and had not moved when he came home hours later a
large wet spot from her tearts stained the bed sheets and he rushed to her afraid she was
hurt his heart beating hard in his chest as he looked at her scarred asking her in a worried
voice she just looked at him and cryed harder he was so confused and then he noticed
something she held in her hand tightly and took it from her his face falling as he realized
what it meant he knew why she was crying and he pulled her close slowly calming her with
soothing words and when finnally she had calmed enough to talk but her words were
slightly slurred and she mumbled them sadly w-why!? her first word baffeled him he
dident even know how to respond to that he starred confused for a while before he felt a
sudden pang of anger over take him but he calmed it holding her close and sobbing
abit i-i dident mean to how could i have known!? he felt helpless like he had failed her like
he had just made the biggest mistake in his life he searched his brain desperately for
anything to say that would make it seem alright but he slowly craked a smile holding
her trembleing frame against him and calmed her more she had to stop he knew what
she was doing she was hurting herself crying to the point of exauhstion and beyond to
cause physicall pain to herself he got her to stop though wispering softly to her and laying
apologetic kisses all over her face he sighed and finnally asked his question deeming her
calm enough to accually think about it and not get more angry love please tell me why
this is bad!? we did it we have something that we both worked together to make living
proof of our love she looked at him horrified what!? she practically screamed no! i did
NOT want this i did not think we needed to prove our love hav i not shown u time and
time again i love u!? why would u need proof of such a thing!? he sighed he should
have watched his wording and suddely the anger returned and he looked at her abit
angrilly do u not want to have my childeren will u not give me something to make me
happy!? she glared at him a deadly glare he swore could kill and it did it killed all
the anger from him and caused all the color to drain from his face and as she spoke her
usually soft sweet voice sounded like a dark menacing growl u think i dont want to make
u happy!? u think i wouldent do anything for u!? i would id die for u id rip my own heart
from my chest and hand it to u on a silver platter but this! this i wont do i will not share
u i refuse to change my life and share my love with and for anyone but u! i have told u
time and time again this this is what scares me this! this is my worst fear and now im done
now i will show u ur worst frear! she calmly stood walking to their small kitchen and
pulled a knife from the drawer he stard at her wide eyed his worst fear th-that meant he
dashed to her and pulled the knife from her sucessfully and paled again as her dark glare
returned her voice harsh and cold whats wrong love frightening to have ur worst fear stare
u in the face is it frightening to know ur going to lose me u know it will happen one way
or another i cant live no more i wont i am not going to suffer alone if i have to have this
child for u and suffer for u then u wil suffer too i will make sure u suffer when its all over
i will die but dont worry u'll have someone here for u u will have this damned creature
growing inside me and every day it will remind u of me every day u will see what u did to
me and every day u will suffer like i am now! he was on his knees crying why!? i love u
he screamed we can fix this u can not have it i dident mean what i said i swear he was
clinging to her desperately tears running down his face uncontrollably.
-written by loves-happy-sadness
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story to chapter two but if not i will stop it here!