Second one-shot for the Songfics challenge in xoxLewrahxox's forum: Mother of Light by Epica.
Bellamort. Exactly 500 words, without the lyrics.
Songfics
Choose a song that you feel related to the Death Eaters and their families, or the HP world in general. Write a 100-word or 500-word drabble inspired by the song. It might be a good idea to provide the lyrics that inspired you.
It always put me on the edge
To think of all the spoiled lives
They are unworthy. I've always known it.
I had to fight – this was always clear, yet I had no clear path. Until I met my Lord.
And every possible hesitation was blown away.
Today I'm one step further
Not sure if I've survived myself
The sacrifice is made. There's no turning back now.
Reality is sometimes stranger than fiction
Whatever happens in my dreams
I know it can't be worse than this
So I prefer to sleep
I close my eyes. There is nothing to see anyway, nothing but grey. I can't shut my ears though, and I still hear the screams. I can't shut my mind. It is invaded by this place, clouds of despair hovering above my head – no relief to be found.
Sleep in Azkaban is short and restless, and one always wakes up screaming. Yet I welcome the slightest oblivion. I am searching I am waiting
Without vision
For the answers in the dirt
Just for nothing
For the day that I'll be heard
I clutch my loyalty as a relief. He will come back, and he will know, he will know what I've suffered for him.
I treasure my pain, for it brings me closer to him. At the worst moments, it's almost as if I could feel him – a light shadow brushing my forehead, a presence. He is everything. He is everywhere. He will rise again.
The world whispers his name to me – yet the world is but a feeble flicker, here in Azkaban. You're the sea in which I'm floating
And I lose myself in you
I am feeling these sensations
I communicate with you
He is under my skin. In my branded arm – in my mind – everywhere, he is everywhere, his spirit invaded me long ago and consumes me whole. He lives within his most faithful servant.
He will come back to me. I am looking I am thinking
Without vision
For a different kind of way
Just for nothing
About that specific day
When the Mark burns, I am ready for him. -----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
You're the night so you're the dark side
Of the day you'll never see
You're the past but everlasting
Can you share one day with me?
He is back. He is here. He rules our world now.
Yet I lost my place besides him. You're the hand that I rejected
But I can't forgive myself
I am selfish and not worthy
To think of, even to die for
I failed him.
Again and again, I listened to wrath, to fear, to my weak and wretched self. A worthless excuse for a protégé. Reality is sometimes stranger than fiction
Whatever happens in my dreams
I know it can't be worse than this
So I prefer to sleep
Despair clouds my mind still. Yet I can't relish in this one. I do not suffer for my cause, for my master. I suffer against them, punished for my pitiful failures. Alone.
Tomorrow, don't know where I'll be
I need some place to go now
So do you know the way I feel
Or shall I give up my belief?
Weak is what I am, and I cannot help it. I cannot cure myself of this love.
If I did, there would be nothing left of me.
You're the lock I've never opened
'Cause I threw away the key
He gave me his truths. Love is weakness. Nothing matters but power.
They went to waste – I never could respect them.
I'm enclosed within my own thoughts
That will never set me free
Obsession. Suffering. Adoration. You're the hand that I rejected You're the question to the answer
But I can't forgive myself
I am selfish and not worthy
To think of, even to die for
And without there'll never be
Any thought in this direction
You've created this in me
He is too great not to be loved. Fate decided that I would be the one to love him. Fate damned me to a fight I would never win. You're the hand that I rejected
But I can't forgive myself
I am selfish and not worthy
To think of, even to die for
Serenity is taking over all I am,
It gives me peace and
All I see are visions of my destiny
Why should I bleed and pay for others' greed?
No strength left anymore. Feeble and weak, I waste away.
Sometimes, I wish I would die by his hand. Yet I don't want him to want me dead.
We consciously sign our own sentence of death
How can you go on, did you forget
What we have learned from the past?
We can't go on killing ourselves
And with us all the rest
Why can't you see, don't you regret?
We gave the world what it deserved, and the world is boiling and burning under our grasp, threatening to break free.
The world is betraying us. Everytime I close my eyes, I feel its wild thrashing. I fear for my Lord.
Reality is sometimes stranger than fiction
Whatever happens in my dreams
I know it can't be worse than this
So I prefer to sleep
A Stunning Spell, as strong as it can be, is no Avada Kedavra.
As I fall down, I hear a scream, and I know that I left him alone.
My love... I am alone with all my thoughts
Alone without a hope and
I lost the thing I needed most
I feel I can't survive this fall