Disclaimer: Don't own Tekken. No idea why I wrote this, either XD
HARD AND FAST
Hard and fast.
Two words that should never be put together in the field of falling in love.
God I hate it.
I can't even think straight anymore. It's so hard to even try. Everything's blurry. So blurry…
I can't hear Miharu's talking to me about this teacher she hates. She's talking too fast.
All I can think of is you. And it's very annoying.
I never thought I'd fall for you so hard and fast. That is what is so annoying about it.
Oh no. I could never hate thinking of you, of your dark eyes, of your soft black hair.
It's just that your face is always in my head. You're always laughing. You're always smiling.
…In my head.
In reality, you have this hard exterior that I can barely get through. You have a dangerously fast punch.
At least, when I've watched you train from my window so many times before.
I wish you'd look at me right now. I'm wishing very hard but I know no one's going to hear me.
Nah, I know what you're doing instead. You're trying to get back home as fast as possible.
Most probably to polish up on that hard exterior and immerse yourself in those damn books again.
You're walking as fast as Miharu is talking to me.
Why don't you ever look my way, Jin? Is it too hard for you…?
Am I supposed to just… wait here, silently hoping that you'll develop a fast crush on me, like I have?
Hard and fast… it's so dangerous in this field.
It's like you're in an arena and you're looking elsewhere… Then boom! A hard and fast attack hits you.
"Xiao!! You alright?" Miharu asks me slowly.
My stupid voice comes out in a soft groan, "Huh?"
I feel two hands lifting me up gently, the grip hard… afraid to drop me.
I fell over. There we go, I was so busy off in my own little world that I fell… hard and fast.
How fucking laughable.
My brown eyes ever so slowly crawl to look at the grip on my arm. And then I smile softly, "Thanks, Jin."
Miharu's voice is back on the fast road, "Well, this is where I leave. See you two at school tomorrow!"
Then she's gone from my sight. I find it hard to keep up with her, with my eyes.
She doesn't live too far from the Mishima Manor, you know. About a five or ten minute walk.
So she's always leaving around now. And then I'm left trying to break through the hard exterior of Jin.
I've tried so hard to get through there, and so fast to break through, but it never works.
The stupid remainder of the journey always goes so fast because I'm always staring him –
Damn you!! Stop it!! Stop invading my every thought!! I have a life of my own you know!!
…You're just in it a lot, considering I live with you, and we go to the same school –
Oh for fuck's sake –
I can feel him staring at me with his hard eyes… Don't look Xiao, don't fucking look.
…I looked.
"Are you okay Xiao?" He asks me softly, so gently.
"Yeah."
He smiles a little, a shy smile, as I look away. We start walking again, "What are you thinking about?"
You. "Nothing."
"You have been immersed in deep thoughts lately… It is hard to find the normal you in there."
I inwardly smirk. We're talking about me. This is new. Very new. And it came up very fast.
"Hm…"
"Where is the normal Xiao? I need some help from her…"
"She's here…" I reply slowly, my hands now behind my back, "What's up?"
Jin's hand tightens on his school bag. The movement was rather fast, "I have a problem."
"Start from the beginning, Jin."
And the moment he does, I feel a hard nail hammer me in the heart so fucking fast that it kills.
"There's… someone I really care about, but I do not know how to tell her."
I smile dryly. I guess at least I'm getting through the hard exterior a little, "Who is she?"
He doesn't answer. He pretends he didn't hear and continues, "I am not good with this type of stuff…"
And you think I would be? Please.
"So…" He says slowly in his gentle voice, "I do not know what to do in this type of situation."
"Does she know you?" I inquire.
Wait. Stupid question. Everyone knows you. Word of you spread around Mishima High so fast.
Hesitance, "Yeah…"
I look at him from the corner of my eye, seeing his face absorbed in his shoes, "Do you talk with her?"
Another stupid question. Every girl follows you, trying to get your attention. Every single one of them.
Miharu and I are lucky. We worked so hard to become your friend. I wouldn't trade it for anything.
…Anything… Though hearing this is killing me like a poison. It's moving so fast through me…
More hesitance, "Yeah."
"Well what's so hard about talking to her?"
"I do not know what to do…" He says sadly, before slowly and softly adding, "Or what to say…"
We've stopped outside the Mishima Manor now. I look up to the blue sky and say, "Just talk to her."
"I just did…"
Those three words shot through me so hard and fast that I almost didn't believe it.
I look to him slowly, and find that he's still absorbed in his shoes. Stop looking at your shoes, Jin.
He sighs silently. I can't hear it but I can see it in the way that you're breathing.
His head snaps up. He looks to me, his cheeks a bit red. I can feel the blush on my cheeks spread, fast.
Jin's dark eyes are staring into mine so hard. There is a gentle warmth within them.
I suppose falling in love hard and fast isn't so bad, sometimes…
It's torturous normally. But I suppose you got to be patient, even though I'm not patient. He is, though.
He, however, is also a very gentle person with a hard exterior, unlike me.
…And I just got through it real fast in record time. I was his first friend. And now… this. Go me!
I don't have to reply. I can't. It's too hard. This was too fast. Even if I could though, I still wouldn't.
You were always quiet. Maybe you can tell by the looks on people's faces, or eyes, what they're thinking.
There was nothing for me to do at all but look away all too fast and smile softly. I know you know…