Star Trek : Fanfiction

Title : Secrets Revealed

Summary: James T. Kirk had lots of secrets some he was proud of and some he never wanted anyone to find out. What happens when his crew little by little find out his secrets.

Rated: 18+ Adult content.

Disclaimer: I DON'T OWN STAR TREK

Prologue.

Jim Kirk captain of the USS enterprise was reading over the documents on his pad in his hand. The bridge with his crew all doing their own work. They had received their new assignment and he was actually doing his paper work this time. He had been captain for just over half a year after the whole saving the earth again thing. For once trying not to make any mishaps.

"OK attention everyone, Starfleet has sent us our newest mission we are to go to the planet SyDone. They have proven themselves a peaceful race and it's our job to make nice" he said in quotations he grinned and the crew smiled except Spock but he did nod.

"Sulu let's go warp 4 were not in any massive rush." Kirk smirked.

"Aye Sir" Sulu turned around typing away. "Pavel if you would inform the rest of the ship our plans that be helpful." he looked over at his youngest Officer and smiled.

"Owf course Sir." Pavel was all too pleased to help his captain. He opened up the ship's communications and cutely relayed the message.

"Lt. Uhura I want you to study up on SyDone's native tongue Starfleet isn't 100% well adept yet in it and your the best, so I have faith in you." he said with a warm smile and Uhura smiled glad Jim trusted her so well. "you will also be beaming down with us as I would like your expertise in the field as I'm sure their is more that you can learn then us."he finished and she nodded excited to go down planet side.

"Yes Captain." she replied and smiled. Over the last year and a half they became friends...close friend even and she had a high respect for the man before her.

Jim smiled in return and moved forward. "Commander Spock this planet has a wide range of plant life that is recorded to have great powers in healing abrasions on skin or burns, you and Lt. Sulu and will be beaming down as well. To each talk with representatives that are strengthened to all of your individual awesomeness." he ended in a smirk. Spock nodded a slight twitch to his lips said he was indeed amused at their Captain.

"Of course Captain." he went back to his station and so did the rest of his crew. "Uhura if you could send McCoy a report saying that he's on the away team since his medical expertise is very much needed." Uhura smiled and nodded sending the message to their grumpy Doctor.

"OK well now that that's settled I'm going to make my Captain runs, so without further a due Mr. Spock you have the Con" He grinned childlike and headed towards the turbo-lift.

Spock nodded and took to the Captain's chair they being used to Kirk's runs. As well as not minding, they have learnt that Jim has taken captaincy very seriously and he had his many quirks but that's what also made him Jim Kirk.

Chapter One.

Jim made his way along his ship going to every department talking with the heads of each one. He greeted his crew by name on his way, he had memorized each and everyone of his crews name. He wanted them to know they mattered, plus he wasn't a genius for nothing after all.

His last stop was engineering with Scotty, he had fun down here. Scotty had discovered that Jim could keep up with him on levels that Pavel and even Spock couldn't not because they both weren't smart. For they were both miraculous with Mathematics, but Jim thought outside of the box, Along with Scotty. He liked helping out were he could as well. It wasn't just engineering that he was helpful in either, he also helped with the tech guys and IT department quite often. Well he was a hacker for a reason surprisingly he has had to hack his own Enterprise a few times in their journeys through space. He smiled at the memory.

As he was helping Kenser with some wiring in the computer chamber he was hailed by Uhura. "Captain we need you on deck you have an incoming call from Starfleet its flagged as red."Kirk swore and sighed. "On my way Lt. Thank you" he left engineering and towards the lift up to the bridge. Stepping in he took his chair back and motioned for Uhura to patch Starfleet through.

Kirk straightened his posture as admiral Komahak came on screen he was one of the only admirals left who didn't hate him after Pike had perished.

"Admiral what seems to be the problem, I did receive my mission from Starfleet and we are on route already Sir." He was trying to be as polite as possible. He really didn't want to give Starfleet any reason to question his Capabilities being Captain.

"This call isn't to interrupt your mission Kirk, but it is important you may wish to switch this call to your ready room." Jim shifted in his chair a bit uneasy but he trusted his crew. "it's OK sir what ever it is I'm sure my crew can be trusted." he saw Komahak nod and sigh. His gut twisted,, what ever the news was he new he wouldn't like it.

"Kirk Kathy Mcnab has been let out of prison for good behaviour. We had to relocate your family for she was allowed to go back to Iowa. Your restraining order has been reinstated as well as David's and the rest of your family's but unfortunately Kirk and I really am sorry for this" He looked in concern...before continuing "she has been hired to one of Starfleet's off fields so...technically you could come into contact with her at some point as Captain of this ship. I'm truly sorry Jim. I tried to convince them not to let her anywhere near Starfleet but with what happened with Khan and so many people dieing. Her area of expertise is valued above her personality." he frowned and Kirk tensed completely and gripped his chair. Everyone looked on with concern and curiosity as to what was going on.

"Thank you Sir for being honest with me...if you could please send me were my family is now living and all the information of these events. if I can have your permission to share things in m file with my crew that would be highly appreciative." Kirk spoke back stiff as a board and slowly weighing each word before he said them.

"Of course Kirk, as well after your mission you are expected back on earth for two weeks to be spoken with." Kirk nodded and they ended the call.

After it became very silent on the bridge for quite sometime his crew he new was worried and deserved to know what was happening he also trusted them not to laugh or judge him for it.

"Spock if you would uh com and Mr. Scott as well umm Lt. Marcus as well as Lt. Mathews" "yes Captain" Uhura looked over with concern not even offended Spock had gotten her job for the moment. Jim looked like he wanted to crawl into a ball and disappear...she has never seen him so scared not with everything they happened and that shocked her.

After everyone had arrived the captain assigned Lt. Mathews to the con, and got replacement crew as he told everyone to go into his ready room. They were to have a meeting. Once everyone was settled Jim sat himself at the head of the table still looking somber. He had Bones sit beside him on his right and Leonard didn't need to be told what was happening as he was filled in before. Spock sat on the left stiff as he was concerned with the negative feelings coming off James. Everyone sat in silence waiting for their Captain to gather his thoughts being patient and understanding.

"I gathered everyone here right now to clear up that strange com on the bridge. I want you to know that I trust you all very much and for you to know that what I am about to tell you is of a personal nature, and needs to stay in this room." he started off looking at his crew, his friends faces as they all nodded taking in how serious Jim sounded. he sighed pinching the bridge of his noes. Taking a breath he sighed and started telling his crew his entire history...

"When I was 14 I came back from being off planet after being shipped off after driving my dad's old car off a cliff when I was 11." he heard collective gasp and sighed tensing. "I am not ready to talk about everything but maybe someday I will. When I got home after being in hell on earth, I was very intervened and shut out the rest of the world. I became emerged in my schooling and nothing else, I had no friends, I hated my mom, I hated everyone except 11 other kids who were just like me. This went on until I graduated high school at 15 and got shipped to a collage in New York. I graduated that at 17. While there I met a girl named Kathy Mcnab." he paused and gulped some water down glad know one was speaking his stomach felt like it had butterflies in it. "I thought I had received an angel, she had opened me up again and together we both got jobs as professional hackers for Starfleet. We got married a year later, I was 18 and she was 25 I didn't think our age was an issue. I was stupidly in love and she helped me become human again. Six months into our marriage she found out we were going to have a baby. Nine months later my 20 year old self was the proud father of my son David Alexander Kirk. I thought I had a perfect life that finally after all the horrible things that happened in my life everything was going to be OK. That soon changed... she started cheating on me she was tired of my age, and when I planned on leaving her she tried to kill David so I stayed. I was trying to get custody of David the legal way but then she hacked the system and took me back. She started to become emotionally and physically abusive as well as sexually." Jim stopped he was slightly shaking the crew looked on horror on their faces...even Spock had a micro frown... "it took me til I was 23 to get away from her and me in the hospital bed before courts saw the truth. I Had flat-lined twice she beat me so bad...I wouldn't fight back Cause I had to protect my son...though after I moved on with my life with my son." He sighed and was grateful his crew was still silent he was trying to calm his beating heart and mind...

"The night I was in that bar Lt. I was getting drunk from a court date hearing, because she managed to only get 6 years in prison and 2 years house arrest she didn't win but she...won. She hardly got anything. Even after all that she had done during that time...I had rekindled the friendship with my brother and made a name for myself to take away the pain. I never got close to another human being again, not just because I was scared or was afraid of my father's shadow but because I didn't want David to grow up with all the hate. So I made sure all eyes saw me and know one else. " He added softly...bearing all for his crew. He looked up to the eyes of his crew he saw some of them crying, some of them look angry but none of them looked disgusted and he sighed in relief.

"My family that the Admiral was talking about is my brother and his wife Aurlean. Who have two sons John and Peter, They are also looking after David as well as umm the kids that lived on the planet I was on. Who I tracked down and took in as soon as I could. I was granted a lot of money from the kelvin fund as well as from courts for being on that planet. As well as from my hacking jobs, as well as from federal court and built a large mansion on my family's farm and a few other smaller houses. I can't open up to you all right now not because I don't trust you guys. You are my family as well, but I am not ready to speak about it. I have been given permission to let you all read my file of where I was when I was 11-14 and so on. Please keep in mind that the information is classified and must not be shared with the rest of the crew, or anyone outside of this room. I'm sorry you guys had to witness all this and I thank you for listening to me." Jim finally finished his tale and waited.

Everyone grabbed their pads and read through the files. He heard everyone gasp and Spock spoke up his eyes curious and mournful but otherwise his face was stoic. "Captain you were on Tarus IV" Spock looked over. "Yes, you now understand why I don't believe in no win scenarios. " Jim sighed and everyone gave a dry laugh. Spock just nodded, and the others still shocked stood up and shocked Jim even more by a group hug. "we are here for you Jim and nothing will change that." Uhura said crying slightly. he gave her a small smile and felt content slightly letting people know felt easier. "later when I video com David I would like you guys to meet him, McCoy Joanna is staying at one of my houses right now with my family." The others nodded and were all to happy to meet Jim's family. Bones looked up and grabbed Jim in a hug "you knuckle head" but he hugged him tighter "thank's darl'n" he whispered and smiled a true smile at Jim. Jim's heart swelled with happiness seeing Bones so happy he smiled and nodded.

"OK everyone as much as I love this hug fest we have jobs to get back to and a planet to sign up for Starfleet lets get back on bored. and we can regroup later." Everyone agreed and took time to ready themselves and went back to the bridge. The captain went to his room, everyone letting him go knowing he needed the space to think about everything that happened. Spock took the Captains chair and Bones went back to med bay and they all went back to work until beta shift could start.

Jim sat at his desk in his room doing some paper work. He was trying to collect himself after opening up to his crew about some of his past. He new he trusted and loved his crew like family, but exposing himself like that still made him feel vulnerable and at unease. He was nervous of introducing David too his new aunts and uncles well. Jim was never one to be scared of anything but Family matters were scarier then any ordeal he has been through. They all new Bones, but that was because Bones found out all this before becoming his Doctor and first real friend.

When it came time to call David he sent word for his crew to come now. He could talk to his son afterwards... his main crew came to his cabin and he sent a call to his brother. Feeling a little anxious but he was sort of Glad to see his family of course. Plus he shouldn't feel so worried this was 'his' crew and he couldn't of asked for more understanding people in his life and on his ship.

So I Updated a little bit so hopefully it's a little easier to read I don't really have time to go through it into perfect detail...but hopefully this causes less confusion. I also like to note that I'm from Canada so my words will often have OU instead of just O or U and I will also have some words RE instead of ER in some words. Sorry for any errors and this is AU and so some characters might be a little OCC but if you don't like it please don't send hate just don't read it. Thanks for the followers and hopefully I can update all my chapters and post a new one soon!