Alone, a bleach fanfic

AN: Hello, I'm back to writing again folks, something a little different for me, a little angsty Bleach Songfic. Song is copyright by Korn, and Bleach, if you all haven't noticed, isn't mine…

Alone

Pick me up

been bleeding too long

Right here, right now

I'll stop it some how

My friends try to help

Tell me things like "You would want me to be happy,"

And that I shouldn't dwell on the past, but I can't forget you

Can't forgive myself for what happened.

I will make it go away
can't be here no more
Seems this is the only way
I will soon be gone
these feelings will be gone
these feelings will be gone

I return their calls

I try and move on

Yet everything seems so faded.

Now I see the times they change
leaving doesn't seems so strange
I am hoping I can find
where to leave my hurt behind
All this shit I seem to take
all alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man?

Fighting is the one time I can truly forget

Accepting the blows of the hallows, I allow my blood to pool beneath me

I continue to fight

Reigning blow after blow down upon these beasts

The same beasts that took my mother from me

The same beasts that took you.

Shut me off
I am ready,
Heart stops
I stand alone
Can't be on my own

My blood sings with it, relishes in the death of the animals that took you

The other voice is offering whispers

Telling me that I may find a release from the pain of loss

All I need to do is give in

Allow him to control the body

I beat him back into silence

I will make it go away
can't be here no more
Seems this is the only way
I will soon be gone
these feelings will be gone
these feelings will be gone

I've stopped returning their calls

I've stopped sleeping

I've almost stopped breathing

The one thing that keeps me going is that damn phone

That hollow tracker that you left here

The voice calls again

I am alone, surrounded by hollows and bleeding

I remember that night

The night you died for me

The night I died forever

I reach up, touch it, the mask that is the other

Gripping a bone like edge, I drag it across my face

The last word on my lips is your name

Am I going to leave this place?
What is it I'm running from?
is there nothing more to come?

Is it always black in space?
Am I going to take it's place?
Am I going to leave this race?
I guess god's up in this place?
what is it that I've become?
is there something more to come?

I no longer feel

I kill

And kill

And kill again

Striking down hollow after hollow

Accumulating wound after wound

Bleeding to death but free

Free from the pain

Free from the remorse

Free from the guilt…