Disclaimer: I do not own house, I wish I did but I don't.
Summary: You weren't yourself all day and no one noticed it. But maybe someone noticed after all. Not really good at summaries. H/C implied. R&R
Rainy Days
The alarm goes off before five but you are already awake, too lost in your thoughts to acknowledge that you should have been asleep all along.
It is still dark outside when you get out of bed. It's still raining, just like it has been all week. A sad smile appears on your face at the memory of how much you used to love the rain when you were little, how you ran into your backyard without any worries or regrets getting soaked from head to toes while laughing as your mother rolled her eyes once again at your childish antics. But that feeling of freedom and peace it once held is long gone now replaced by pain, sadness and guilt. Guilt for still being here when he is not, guilty for moving on, for forgetting…
But above all you feel guilt for having all those feelings for someone else. And yet he ignores you, like everyone else does. He views you as a young naive girl waiting to be crushed by the world. He thinks that you don't love, you need. Need to fix everything that is broken.
He couldn't be more wrong even if he tried. Even if it came down to fixing someone, it's you who need fixing not the other way around.
And before you knew it, it was dark once again. The day flew by and you just missed it once again. You weren't yourself all day and no one noticed it, but they would not notice even is you broke into a million pieces right before their eyes. So it's not that surprising after all.
At least it has stopped raining, you think as you close your front door, longing for those days where everything was simpler and rainy days were nothing but an excuse to be incredible happy.
It's late when you step out of the shower and change into something else than your work attire. And as you are leaving your bedroom you see it, that old picture just sitting on your night table showing the entire world of better times, when you were together and happy.
You leave before you start crying. On a good day the picture would never upset you so much but today everything is different. Your TV is on hoping that whatever is on tonight will get your mind off things but tears start running down your face like there is no tomorrow.
Someone knocks at your door, it's passed midnight and you are too upset to even remember checking before opening the door. And there he is, standing in front of you and you are too shock to say a word.
The look on his face shows that he knows you have been crying; your red eyes gave you away. Luckily he doesn't say anything. You stand still staring at him, waiting for him to leave you alone in your own misery. Nut he doesn't move. Minutes seem to last forever; you finally give in and let him in, knowing he won't take no for an answer. You smile at his persistence.
People say time heals all wounds; well maybe your time is up.