My second fanfiction, song fic is Hymn for the missing by red, you dont need to know the song though

It might be confusing, but you have to read to find out what happened to Ponyboy, and why Darry blames himself.

here we go lol

Darry POV

Five days had passed since the incident, since Ponyboy didn't live here anymore, or anywhere for that matter. He was... Gone, with no return. I wish it was just a rerun of when he ran away, but it never was, because last time I had hoped he would come through the door. I had hope. Now I had none, because he was gone, forever, and it was my fault.

FLASHBACK

6 days ago

{Still Darry POV}

Ponyboy came home later then he was supposed to, and I threw it at him. I asked why he was late, but didn't give him time to answer. I remembered that he got his report card today and I asked for it. He gave it to me and went to his room.

He had all A's, and one B-. I sighed and set it on the counter. I started cooking dinner. I didn't have work that day due to my sore back. Soda came home and asked what was for dinner. I told him it was spaghetti. He nodded and went into Ponyboy's room. I yelled that it was ready and they both came out. Soda dug into it while Ponyboy just picked at it with his fork.

"Not hungry?" I asked. He looked at me and for a second he shook his head.

"Is your homework done?" I asked him.

He replied with a "I just have science"

I told him to go do it and he did.

END FLASHBACK

{still Darry POV}

Present, 6 days later

I never knew that that would be our last dinner as a family, together. All three of us. The thought made made me feel like crying. I had sent him away to do his homework that night. It kind of made me feel sick too. Why did this thing happen? Why was I mad, and, when I told him to do 'that thing', why did he listen to me?

I got up and went to make sure Soda was asleep. I almost broke down crying right then and there.

Soda didn't see me in the doorway, but he was sobbing. He was so used to sleeping right next to Ponyboy that he couldn't do it by himself. I felt so guilty.

I pictured an image in my mind right there.

Darry's imagination

I imagined this exact same thing, except Ponyboy was asleep right next to Soda, and Soda wasn't crying. He had his arm around Ponyboy and they were both asleep.

End Darry's imagination

How could I have let this happen? I went over to Soda and asked if he wanted company. He said I needed to work tomorrow so no. I told him it's fine, so I went to bed with him, and he fell asleep leaning into me and crying. I fell asleep with my arm around him some time later.

The next morning

Still Darry POV

I got out of the bed where Soda stayed and when to go make some eggs. When they were done I told Soda to come out. He did, but he looked depressed, and he went very slowly. I knew why. The last time we had eggs Pony lived here, but he doesn't anymore. After we ate I went to work and so did Soda. My back was better.

When I walked passed the couch, I looked at it, and I could just imagine Ponyboy sitting on it and waving at us. I wish it actually was him, but it wasn't, and it would never be him, because he is gone, forever.

Hey, that's chapter 1 and I am working on a chapter 2. please review and stay gold