I saw him standing there with her. I couldn't seem to look away. It was outrageous to see, but I couldn't look away. Jacob... MY Jacob... him, with... Leah! It was horrible, a nightmare... but it was true. One way that I knew it was true was the fact that I couldn't possibly have been dreaming. I hadn't slept in ten years. So, hear I was, looking at the person who I thought to be the most faithful person besides my dad. But he didn't look back. He was too busy staring into the eyes of my best friend...no, my worst enemy, as she talked of her love for him. He hadn't spoken in thirty minutes he just let her say everything she wished.But, then, he looked in my direction. It was in that same second that I had decided I'd seen enough.He tried to chase me but i was faster than him. "Honey?!" he called, "Renesme!" but I was out of reach. He didn't give up so easily. We were in a deep part of the woods, so there was no way anyone would hear if I screamed at him. I turned around in a movement that took about two- tenths of a second, and I blew up. "What the hell, Jake?! How could you do this to me? I thought you loved me!". For a moment, he spoke nothing, then he quietly said, "I do." It was barely a whisper, but it was those two words that crushed my rage, and made the tears begin to pour.
The thing about being half of a vampire, was that you were still half of a human. I couldn't hold myself back. I lunged at him with two thoughts in mind; 'hold me, tell me your sorry', and 'bleed you bastard!'. I got both of those wishes. It was all very fast. The first time I lunged, he moved. I scraped a good gash in the side of his arm. " NESSIE!" he screamed as the pain and blood finally rose, "Please let me explain!".Just then, I thought of my dad. I hadn't seen my parents in some time, but I remember him explaining to me how easily he had forgiven the 'fling' that Jacob and mom had gone through in the mountains. That's when i jumped for him again. This time, I him dead center, knocking him to the ground, me going with him. i lay there silent for about two seconds before I started screaming in his ears, "Tell me it was a lie! Say that it wasn't what it looked like! That I'm still the only one! Say it because you know I'll believe you! That's all I want to hear! Say your sorry, and that I wasn't supposed to see it! Say that I'm not like I used to be, that I've changed for the worse! That I wasn't good enough!" I was still tear-soaked, and crying into his shirt. I wanted to believe every thing that I said, but inside I knew it was probably not true. " Nessie, listen," he spoke up now, and then pulled me up to stand, his arm was healed now," you weren't supposed to see that! I'm so sorry, and you are still good enough! It was me, Nessie! I'm just a damn idiot! I don't know why I did it! I wish I hadn't! I love you Nessie. I'll understand if you leave, I'll deserve it. In fact you should just kill me now! Go ahead, do it!" he ripped his shirt open then to give me a good target. I couldn't do that, though. Instead i pushed him over again, smiling now." He he... I'm not leaving you, or killing you for that matter. In fact..." I jumped on him then, ripping the remainder of his shirt off." Nessie, don't. I don't deserve this!" he said that when I had almost gotten his pants off. "This is for me." I answered, still smiling devilishly. He caught up to the new mood, and tore my shirt off with his teeth.
We then roled into higher grass, trying to hide from Leah. If she showed up, we wouldn't stop.