Author: Tuliharja

Title: Every Cloud Has a Silver Lining

Summary: "When you have had enough of your life, you're usually selfish. Like I would care what you say –I'm a depressed person so get over it." What's really going on in Pai's mind?

Disclaimer: Characters belongs Mia Ikumi and Reiko Yoshida. I don't own anything, expect the idea of this fic.

A/N: Thanks for The All Real Numbers Symbol betaing this.

Words that mean love. I don't want think about them. They make me sick. Sick. I hate it. I hate it! I don't want these feelings and I don't need them. Why, why I do feel like this? Why I must stare at her? Why does my heart start beating faster when she laughs? Why do my cheeks warm up when she looks at me with those kind eyes? I hate it! I just hate it! God, if there is one, just hit me with your lightning. Hit it through my heart and make these feelings disappear. I hate them. But I kind of like this feeling. I'm so weak. I hate myself.

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"P-a-i-!" Taruto whispered my name gently in my ear. I was fast asleep when he turned his voice on full volume, yelling: "GET UP!"

"For heaven's sake! It's six on the morning!" I shout him pulling him by his waistcoat. I could easily see surprise and panic in his childish face. I had pulled his face next to me. What on Earth…? I pushed him fast away, breathing fast. What was going on? Why I was…Why…I…I mean…Why…?

"What in the mother ship? Why you are yelling? It's six on the morning!" Kish asked when he had sneaked my room, looking at us weirdly, "And what's that face? Pai, did you just scream? I'm still asleep? Oh, I can't be! I still have my underwear…"

"Get out of here! Both of you!" I roared at them and pushed them out the door, slamming it behind them. This day would turn out to be one of those most painful days ever! And it was already six on the morning…I hate mornings. And I hate myself. And I hate everybody! I hate Kish. I actually want murder him, but who cares? Why do I always have to be calm, ready, cool…etc.

I walked to my mirror and looked at myself. I already knew that face in the mirror would look terrible; that's what you get when you stay up late the previous night…So, I did only sleep for five hours…Great.

I just wanted hit my head on the table, but remembering those two idiots I realize I had done something really out of character, so I dressed quickly, brushed my teeth and after that appeared in the so-called living room. Time to explain! Yay! Who I'm fooling? I just wanted to go back to my bed and die. Yes, I'm depressed person, so what? Get dictionary if you don't know what it means. Anyway, I try to play icy and all, because then people usually leave me alone. But that's the whole point! Those two…Those two won't leave me alone. Not even a single minute! So, I try ignoring them. But it's hopeless. That's why I hate Master Deep Blue, since he put me together with those two idiots, but I also admire him because he is so smart. But I'm the real genius in here. No one can beat me~!

"Someone is cranky!" Kish sang that annoying tone in his voice. It is so annoying I just want to smack his head on the table. And yes, I'm cranky, thanks for pointing that out!

"Don't be like that! He probably had bad dream, right? And seeing your face at first thing in the morning…" Taruto began, but Kish cut him off. "You were the one who woke him up! Not me!"

And again, they started their little argument. How lovely. I need a cup of coffee.