Title: Past.

Disclaimer: I do not own Beyblade or the song 'Hello'

Authors note: This is possibly gonna be a one-shot, I might add a few more chapters but that's undecided. And this is a quick break from my other fics.

Play ground, school bell rings...again. Rain clouds come to play...again.

Evanescence screams out of my stereo. I'm just sitting in my room, trying to calm myself. Just a moment ago I yelled at Max for constantly talking about his mother, Rei gave me a worried and concerned look as I stormed into our room. I'm sure he'll ask me about it later, at the moment he's trying to calm Max down, I didn't mean to make him cry, I just...

Some of us don't have mothers...some of us keep quiet about it though, I can remember telling Rei that my mom and dad just moved away and wrote me letters every month, I even asked Tala to write me letters to lead Rei on, but I'm sure he doesn't believe me.

But if he knew...maybe he wouldn't believe that either...

Has, no one told you, she's not breathing?

I hate those words...too many memories flood back whenever those words are sung.

I can still see her, laying there, the thrashing movement finally having stopped, I just stood there, in her cold blood, unable to move, watching the man, or woman, run away laughing and holding my mothers locket. Throwing the gun towards where my shaking father knelt, crying. I remember him picking up the gun; the next thing I remember seeing was him falling onto the floor, with my mother.

That's when I ran.

What else can you do?

Then...when my grandfather took me in...he gave me Dranzer...

Hello...I'm your mind...giving you someone, to talk to...hello

My only friend, apart from Tala, for most of the childhood. She always spoke to me; helping me...it did take some time, teaching her English, learning what she meant sometimes. It was a bit of a laugh, I must admit.

But sometimes, me and Tala just had fights, which he'd end with, 'well at least I have parents'

Then it would always turn into a fistfight, but before I could ever lay a hand on him, Grandfather would summon me to his 'office' and he'd tell me to calm down.

Yes he may have tried to use me, but he was, a Grandfather, after all. He did care about my welfare, which is more than I can say for other guardians. Like Talas' for instance, they made him believe that they were his real parents and that perfection was the only way to be. Fucking retards.

Then again, I can't talk...I always tried to be perfect, my Grandfather seemed to favor Tala over me...what else is a ten year old supposed to try and do?

If I smile, and don't, believe, soon I know, I'll wake, from this dream

Smile...pretend everything is ok...pretend you didn't see your mother shot down by a random criminal, who probably sold her locket for a cheap £100.

Whenever I think of that I always clench my fists, that locket was the present my dad had bought her for their anniversary. Of course, I have to calm down, as I said, I've got to calm down about this.

Don't try to fix me, I'm not broken

Of course...after leaving Tala and that, I met Tyson, Rei and Max. Whom of which I could never live without now. They tried to make me care about life, which maybe they did, but how can you care about life when you see them all happy. Not upset about anything, so they really haven't changed me much, Rei might have made me less cold hearted, but I was never truly cold hearted to begin with.

But I'm still thankful for them trying. It showed me how much they care about me.

Hello, I'm the lie, living for you, so you can hide...don't cry.

Heh most people know me as a cold hearted ass hole, don't they? It's, as the lyrics say, a lie, living for me. But then again, only those who truly know me, have seen the real me, the me before I wake up and put on my triangles, my gloves, my scarf. The true Kai. Not the one that girls swoon over...at least I hope they don't swoon over me...

Anyway...as for crying...why would I do that? I couldn't find the tears when my mother was shot and I haven't found them for her since, but Dranzer...when I lost her, I felt that I'd lost the only woman that I cared for.

Both of them.

But then again, it scares me how I cried for Dranzer but not for my own mother...

Suddenly, I know I'm not sleeping.

When I'm here...alone, without Rei, or just with him talking, I step out of my lie, out of my dream, into reality. Back as Kai, the orphan, the adult who's made it here through teenage years with a team who don't know the truth. Back with Dranzer, my true friend. Back as myself, no lie, no mask.

Maybe I'm calmed. More like I am. I slowly stand up, quickly peering into the mirror to see my reflection, a smile slightly, more of a smirk, but its close enough. I enter the living room, seeing them watching TV. I take a few moments to apologize, Max telling me it's ok, and that he shouldn't constantly go on about his mom all the time. But I don't hear him. My sights have turned to the TV screen; a familiar face is on the news.

"Dad"

Hello, I'm still here all that's left of yesterday.

Oh yes, the evil cliffe master is back!!! But it's up to you, the reviewer, whether this stays a oneshot, or continues. Vote now by reviewing me!

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