just everything I would want to happend.
alternative 4.02 episode
Feel
Surgeons work sixteen hours a day, six days a week. and if you know your math, that leaves us with 80 hours a week without surgery..
80 holy hours when we can do whatever we want.
Izzie and George are sitting in the livingroom, staring at each other.
"What is going to happend next?" Izzie asks.
"I have to tell her. I have to tell Callie and come clean."
some might call this a gift, this sparetime that we are given. but surgeons, at least
the surgeon I know, never really wants to leave the OR in the first place.
Cristina is alone in her apartment, putting Burkes clothes in big boxes.
they don't want to leave this place where they feel so right, and most off all,
their afraid of what waits for them on the outside.
Richard is picking up the phone and dialing a number.
"Adele, it's me. I know you're there, so pick up!"
In the OR, everything is clean and steril, and you have no feeling. Hunger and
exhaustion does not exist.
Derek and Meredith are sitting in an uncall-room.
"So we're really broken up?" Derek asks.
Your ears only hears the beeping from the monitor and your eyes only see the work you are going to
perform. Thats not the way it is in real life..
Callie standing outside, looking in on George and Izzie talking.
"Good morning!" Meredith's voice is in a slightly higher pitch than it usually is. and she has a big smile on her face.
"What the hell are you so happy about?" Cristina looks at her.
"Derek and I are back together!" Meredith says.
"Dude, did you ever really split?" Alex tries to crab Cristinas energybar, but she grabbes his hand before he can reach it.
"Mine, Evil Spawn. But seriously, did you ever split?" Cristina throws the rest of the bar in the trash.
"Well, yeah, we split, then we had breakup sex and then we got back together."
"I couldn't aten that energybar. you didn't have to eat it all up, Yang!" Alex looks annoyed down at the trashcan.
"Whatever. We're talking about Meredith here, and you're worrying about an energybar? Well, Mer, how was it, I mean, the breakup sex?"
Cristina smiles.
"I guess it was good since we got back together." Meredith says and walks out of the lockeroom.
Izzie is standing at the nurses station, when Mark comes up to her.
"Want to have a drink with me tonight? I'll let you stand close to me." He says with a smile.
Izzie gives him an awkward look and says;
"I'm not having a drink with you.."
"Why not?" Mark gives her the McSteamy face.
"First of all, you're Mark. And second of all, I'm sort of with somebody right now." Izzie says.
"With somebody? Who?" Mark says. Izzie opens her mouth, but then she sees Callie, who is headed in their direction. So she leaves.
"That was odd.." Mark says as Callie comes up to him and takes his chart.
"My patient, my chart. What's odd?" Callie says.
"Stevens in seeing somebody, and the whole hospital doesn't know yet. So it's probably a secret or something. And when she saw you,
she just ran of." Mark looks at Izzie as she runs down the hall.
Callie takes the chart and leaves.
Meredith is standing with her interns in a patientroom.
"Caroline Yorke. Came in last night after collapsing in the shower. She hit her head, and seems to have a concussion." One of her interns
says.
"I'm fine. I just have a little headache. Can I go home now? I really need to go, because I'm getting a call to day. an important call. from a
model school. and I need to know if I got in or not." Caroline looks at her mother and then at Meredith.
"Well get you out of here as fast as we can. but first we have to get the results from the CT first."
Derek enters the room.
"Dr. Grey, may I talk to you for a moment?" He says. Meredith follows him out in the hallway.
"What?" Meredith looks slightly irretated, because she thinks he is going to talk to her about their relationship and she's working.
"Ms. Yorke here," Derek says. "We still don't know what caused her to collaps in the shower." Derek looks towards the room where Caroline
and the interns are.
"Didn't the CT show you that? Wait, why couldn't you say that in there?" Meredith asks.
"Because I talked to her friend, Maya. She found Caroline in the shower.."
"And?" Meredith starts to get annoyed.
"Maya says that Caroline hasn't been eating for the last couple of days." Derek eyes finally looks at Meredith again.
"She as an eatingdisorder?" Meredith didn't know why Derek was so determent on keeping this a secret.
"No.. Maya told me that her mother didn't let her eat.."
Callie walks up to Bailey, who is seaching up something for a surgery.
"I need to talk to you.. Well, actually, I don't need to talk to you, I need to talk to Addison, but she's not here. And I donnow what to do, and there
is no one here to talk to. So I'm talking to you, okay?" Callie rambles.
"Whatever you say, boss." Bailey looks slightly annoyed, but doesn't say anything when Callie sits down.
"Okay. Here it goes. I followed George this morning.." Callie says.
"Oh, it's one of those talks.. non surgical? I'm not your woman, boss." Bailey says and gets up.
"Miranda, please. I have no friends in this hospital. No friends!" Callie looks like she's gonna cry.
"okay, okay." Bailey sits back down.
"I followed my husband this morning. I actually stalked my own husband, and he said he was going to the hospital a little early today, but he
wasn't. He went to see Izzie Stevens. And I saw them. He lied to me, there's something going on. and when I picked up a chart this morning, I
overheard Izzie telling Mark that she was with somebody. And he comfirmed it. What do I do?" Callie takes a deep breath and looks at Bailey.
Bailey looks shocked.
"First of all, you're not gonna belive anything that asshole Mark Sloan tells you. Second of all, you should talk to your husband about this, not me."
Bailey gets up and leaves.
Meredith returns to the patients room.
"Could I have a moment alone with my patient?" Meredith gives her interns a look, and they flee like she has a gun to their heads.
"w-why?" Mrs. Yorke looks at Meredith, then Caroline, then Derek.
"It's just a couple of things we'd like to talk to Caroline about, Mrs. Yorke. nothing to worry about." Derek says.
Mrs. Yorke leaves and Meredith turns to Caroline.
"What do you want to talk to me about? Is it bad, am I going to die or something?" Caroline says and she sounds nervous.
"I have to ask you this, because you're friend Maya told us, and we need you to comfirm it. Is your mother, by any chance starving
you? not letting you eat?" Meredith says.
Carolines eyes start filling up with tears, and Meredith takes her hand.
"She just wants me to get into this modeling school so bad.." she says.
"It's not the way it's sepose to be, honey. You're sepose to do things like modeling because you think it's fun. Because you feel like
it. not because your mother wants you to."
The interns are having lunch in "really old guys" room.
"I have a patient who's mother starved her.." Meredith says.
"Dude, that gotta suck.." Alex tries to take one of Cristina's sandwiches.
"ALEX! why do try to steal food all the time? buy your own!" Cristina yells, and then hits him in the head with the magazine she's
reading.
"I can't.. I'm broke." Alex suddenly looks extremly intrested in his feet.
"what? how can you be broke?" George arrives with Izzie.
"Well, I kinda spend like all my money traveling." Alex still stares at his hands.
"Oh! you mean, when you went to see Ava." Izzie says,
"Her name is not Ava, it's Rebecca, and I just traveled in that direction.. But yeah, I spent all my money there.." Alex finally looks up.
"God, you're stupit." George says with a saticfied look on his face.
"why are you so happy, Bambi?" Cristina says.
"Because Alex is the stupitest one of us, and still I have to repeat my internyear." George says with his mouth full of food.
"And that's funny how?"
"Cause I like beeing the king-intern. I rock!" George turns to Izzie who is sitting awfully close.
"You can have my sandwich.." Cristina says and gets up. "I have to go anyway. I've got a tumor that has to dissapear."
Callie is sitting in an uncallroom, as George enters.
"Hi." George lays down on the bed.
"Hi.." Callie avoids looking at him.
"We have to talk." George says.
"Yeah, I know." Callie answers.
"This really isn't working out." there's a long pause, and then George continues;
"Callie. Talk to me, or at least look at me!"
"Okay! George, I'm looking at you and talking to you. So please, if theres is anything you want to say, say it!"
"Alex. Hey, Alex!" Cristina runs up to Alex who on his way to the lockerrom to end his shift.
"What now Yang?" Alex says.
"You're broke, right?" Cristina follows him into the lockerroom.
"Yeah, thanks for rubbing that in my face.." Alex starts pulling of his scrubs and changing to another sweater.
"No, it's not that Evil Spawn. its just that, I've got clothes, you know, Burke's clothes.. And I donnow what to do about them. And you
are broke, so you need clothes, I guess. And I can't ask George cause he's to small, but.." Cristina says.
"Are you asking me if I would want Burke's clothes?" Alex looks at Cristina with a wierd look on his face.
"Well, yeah, but you don't have to weak them.. Sell them on Ebay or something. But you have to take them, I dont care what you do with
them. As long as I don't have to sell them. I couldn't do it." Cristina looks sad.
"yeah, of course. I'll come over tonight and get them if it's okay." Alex says heads towards the door.
"Sure." Cristina says as Alex leaves the lockerroom.
Derek is standing in the uncallroom, when Meredith arrives. Her eyes are red and swollen,
"What's wrong?" Derek asks, and slowly embraises her.
"I just got a phonecall, from my father." Meredith says tearfully. "Lexie got hit by a car on her way to work today. She's dead. He said that
I'm the reason why everyone in his family dies!"
Derek doesn't say anything, He just holds her as she cries, comforting her and kissing her forhead softly.
"do you want a beer?" Cristina asks as she opens the fridge.
"sure." Alex says. He is standing in a pile of clothes in the middle of the livingroomfloor. Everything from shirts to socks is spread around
on the floor. Cristina comes up to him and hands him a beer.
"I think I'm gonna sell this stuff. No offence, but I don't think I would want to wear this stuff." Alex says.
"Sure, I get that. I would do that to, if is wasn't because of the fact that everything smells like him," Cristina says and drinks her beer.
"Yeah.." Alex feels like he should say something, and continues; "I actually did go to see Av.. Um, Rebecca."
"Really?" Cristina starts putting clothes into a box.
"Yeah. She told me it was to late, that I missed my train or whatever. She couldn't leave her husband now, you know. That wasn't a
possibility anymore." Alex looks sad.
"Sorry. You know, if I where Meredith or Izzie I would tell you that you would find someone. But I'm not, so I wont." Cristina says.
"yeah, and if I where George I would tell you that there are plenty of men out there that are five times as good as Burke, but I'm not, so I wont."
Alex said.
In the OR, we don't feel. We just think. About our patient, and what how we are going to perform surgery on this patient. We don't feel. So when
surgeons come out to real world again, they get blown away by the rush of emotion that suddenly plays a big part.
Meredith is lying on the bed, crying and Derek is holding her tightly.
The fact is, surgeons would rather just stay in the or. To stop feeling, because it hurts.
Callie and George are sitting in the uncallroom.
"Our marriage is over." George says, but Callie interupts him.
"I have to tell you something.. I'm pregnant."
Surgeons don't know what their feelings mean, and they can't react to them. So whats the point in having feeling at all?
Mark is sitting in the bar and spots Bailey at chair next to him.
"Can I buy you a drink?" He says.
"You are way to lonely, you nasty.." She says and leaves.
Because once in a while, in some very spesial moments, we get good feeling. And then everything else is worth it.
Cristina and Alex is sitting in the middle of the livingroom floor, surrounded by clothes, kissing.