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Song: My Immortal-Evanessence
Gravity falls: Alex Hirsch
"I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave
Your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase "
It was dark, and almost quiet. I lay there, listening my muffled sobs fill the room. My soul was shattered, the sadness, guilt and anger had taken over me. 'It's all MY fault my sister's dead' I thought to myself, 'I should have protected her, and I didn't!' My parents and I had recently returned from her funeral, each one of us feeling heart-broken over our loss...
"When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me"
My sobs started getting louder as my memories flooded back to the summer we had stayed with our great-uncle Stan. All of the fun and adventures, slowly making their way in my head. The monster-hunts, fighting the cursed wax figures, battling the gnomes, and helping her out when she couldn't say "no" to that troll, Gideon. I also remembered all of the times we laughed, smiled, and had a blast of a lifetime. 'Oh how I miss those times...' I thought to myself.
"You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me"
That's when reality hit me like a brick, I could see the death I witnessed, the one I should have stopped. I saw it like it happened only seconds ago. I could see her blood splattered everywhere, the knife being plunged into her chest millions of times. 'It should have been me...' I thought. I lifted my head slowly from the now damp pillow, as my hand reached for the lamp on my night stand. Turning it on my eyes squinted, adjusting to the light. Suddenly it came to me, 'my sister may not be here with me anymore, but I can be with her.' I turned my head to my alarm clock, which read "10:19 PM". Knowing my parents would be asleep, I quietly headed to the kitchen as I was walking closer, I could feel my palms grow sweaty, and my legs become un-sturdy. Slowly I approached the drawer holding the utensils, sending my hand forward, I open the drawer revealing forks, spoons, and knives. Hesitating at first, I reach for a knife. I couldn't wait any longer, I needed to see my sister again. I shot my hand forward, inserting the knife in my chest. It was painful, too painful. I fell to the floor screaming, all I could see was blood... Blood and... Light... A laughter ring in my ears, the same one I'd give anything to hear. I opened my eyes to see my twin sister standing a couple feet from where I am. I smiled, I'm no longer lonely, even if I had to give up my soul, anythings worth to see my sister again... Mabel.
"I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me."