Set in 4x06 We All Go the Little Mad Sometimes

The place looked so familiar. She's been here before. Several times. This is the place that one story ended and another began. This is the place her parents died and she had to learn how to live without them. To live a different life, she had to become a different person. A stronger one. And she had. But then everything changed again. The world became a much more mysterious place than she ever thought possible. But still she learned how to live it. Until now.

One story ends and another begins. That happened last time she was here. And it was her life that ended that night. She died here, just like her parents did. But this time, there was something different. She had vampire blood in her system. She was brought back. To live in the shadows. Forever.

She stood in the middle of the round and looked into the sun.

She can't be like this anymore. She tried, really tried, but it seems like this life was not created for her. She can't live in the dark. She can't hurt people that she loves. She can't live from blood. She just wasn't meant to be a vampire.

She stepped closer to the edge of the bridge and placed her hands on the cold stones.

This can't be happening. It just can't. The last time she was up here, she was ready to die. She was supposed to die.

She pulled her hands together and run her finger over her daylight-ring. This is keeping her from turning into dust. Well, not literally but it keeps from dying all over again.

"Why?" she said like she was expecting an answer. "Why?"

But there was no one to answer her. She was there alone.

"There has to be a reason. Why do I get to live and they don't? Why did I have to die with the poison in my blood?" still no answers.

She moved a couple of steps aside a collapse on the freezing ground. Why was is so cold when the sun was shining so bright? It didn't seem to matter.

Something must have been wrong with her. She can't continue to pretend that everything was fine. Nothing was fine. First there was the problem with the blood. For some reason she can't drink animal blood and feeding from the backs makes her sick. She had to feed from the vain. But that is too dangerous for her to risk it. Damon tried to teach her how to feed and it worked but then she was overwhelmed with feeling that it wasn't right. Deep down she believed him but her personality just wasn't ready for it and she doubted that it ever will be. Maybe this was better. Maybe she's better off dead.

She stood up and took a few steps. Turn around and look into the sun again. She placed her fingers on her ring, ready to take it off and burst into flames and put an end to all this suffering.

"Elena?" a voice said. It sounded so far away. "Elena? Are you ok?"

Maybe it was a dream. Maybe she was just recalling her life. Damon. It was his voice. She remembered all the times her saved her life. He was always there for her. Even on the day she and Matt run off the bridge. He was in her. Saving her. Not knowing she didn't want it.

"Elena, what are you doing here?" now it seemed closer. She turned around and she saw him. Standing there in his dark jeans and black shirt.

"Damon?" she wasn't sure if he was real. She'd been seeing a really weird things a last couple of hours. "Are you a dream?"

He stepped closer to her but she stepped back. Her fingers were still on her ring.

"What are you talking about? Elena, are you feeling all right? I was looking all over for you." Of course he was, he always has. His eyes turn to her hands. "What are you doing?" Pointing his finger to her.

"I can't take this anymore, Damon. I tried to be a good vampire, the one that Stefan wanted me to be. The one you all wanted me to be. Just like Caroline is, but I just I can't. It's not in me, Damon."

He raised his arm to her. "Why don't you just calm down and relax, ok? Everything is gonna be just fi—"

"No, Damon!" she stepped back again. "Nothing is fine. I'm not fine and you shouldn't be here."

"But you shouldn't either, Elena," he stepped closer. She didn't move. "Just take my hand and I will take you home, ok?" He made few more steps toward her, his hand hold to welcome hers.

"No!" she screamed and moved her fingers down along with the ring.