A/N: Yes, I know, I've been gone forever. I took a temporary hiatus to deal with school work (as usual) but I'm back (maybe). I do plan on updating Gakuen Night, Rejected, and The End very soon so don't worry. But while I'm working on those I've got a bunch of one-shots for you. This is the first of many.

Based on the song Talking to the Moon by Bruno Mars

Disclaimer: I don't own Talking to the Moon (the song) nor do I own GA.

Talking to the Moon

I understand that I'm not the easiest person to love. That's why, at first, I was so scared that he was just playing with my feelings. Scared that since he couldn't get Mikan, I was just his sloppy second. So I embarrassed him as much as I could. I took incriminating photos of him, sold pictures of him with those animals he loved so much, I even started a rumor that he was gay for Natsume, but nothing I did drove him away. He still looked at me with those gorgeous blue eyes and told me that he loved me or that he would wait for me forever and a day.

I don't know when I started to lose my resolve. When I started to steal glances at him in my English class or doodle his name on my blueprints. It just happened. Once I fell, I just couldn't get up. Just being around him made my heart beat faster. I couldn't be cold and harsh to him anymore. I loved him so much. And he adored me. Every second he got the chance he would whisper sweet nothings in my ear. I can still hear his voice as he tells his friends how he's the luckiest guy in the world.

"Why?" I whisper as my eyes brim with tears. "Why did you have to go?"

I knew I loved him too much. I knew I was becoming too vulnerable, but I couldn't help it. I loved him so much.

I reach over and pick up my favorite picture of us. He's smiling widely into the camera while I stand beside him, fighting the joy that is slowly becoming evident on my face. I move my thumb across his face hoping to feel soft flesh through the glass. I feel nothing. A single tear falls to decorate the glass. Within seconds more fall to match the sobs that rack my body.

"Why Ruka?" I ask.

I look at the sky. It's blurry from the tears that brim my eyes. Sometimes, on nights like these I stare at the moon and pretend that Ruka can hear me. I pretend that he didn't crash into that rogue truck or that his car didn't explode into flames. I pretend that he's somewhere out there talking to me too.

"I miss you so much," I whisper to the moon. "It's our anniversary. I keep thinking that every year it will get better. That I'll find someone else to fill this void you've created. But I don't. Every time I find someone close to being as perfect as you, I just can't love them. I feel like I'm betraying you. Mikan tells me that you'd be happy if I just moved on, but surely you understand that I just can't." I pause as tears and sobs display my despair.

"Oh God," I cry. I want him back. I miss him so much.

I know it's short. I'm sorry.

Anyway, what do you think? Review

~Jay