Title: What if...

Summary: Seth has finally killed Keenan, some people's thoughts and regrets.

Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters or books, however much I wish I did, also I am am, sadly, not making any money from this, so please don't sue me!

This is set after Fragile Eternity, random thing that came to me and requested to be written. Please tell me what you think.

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What if I could tell you everything and anything I wanted to? What would I say? Would you run away? Would you finally come and sit down beside me? Kiss me? Hold me? Now I'll never know, I imagine it, all the time. I imagine what I would say, what I can't now, because of Him.

I would say I loved you. The way you walk, trying to be brave, to hide that you are still afraid of what you are, what I am. The way you smile, sunlight glinting through your teeth, flowers glowing in your eyes, mirroring mine. The way you complete me, how when you enter the room it feels like there is something keeping me there. The way when you concentrate you chew your lip, even though it reminds me of Him, I love it.

I would say you love me too. I know it now, more strongly than I ever did, before. I saw how you mourned, how you turned them all away, even Him. I saw how you made flowers and trees grow into glorious life to remember me. I heard the cries you would never utter, the plea that He had never returned, that it had just remained the two of us.

I would say I'm sorry. I'm sorry you never understood until too late; we complete each other, we were meant to be. I'm sorry I let him fool you. I'm sorry I couldn't help you, even with all my power. I'm sorry you're alone now, I'm sorry I made it so that this had to happen. I'm sorry you knew so much before you changed. I'm sorry that you can never truly trust us. I'm sorry that you shouldn't, that we can never be trusted.

But I would never say I'm sorry for meeting you. You were my other half, and I know that if I had not met you I would never understand how it felt like to be wholly, truly me.

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