Jasper's Story
So, this is Jasper's Story, I know, I know, it's a really un-original name but I just can't change it - ever since the idea came into my head for this story I haven't been able to shake it and it's stuck. I really hope you like it - it's been in the thought process for at least a year now, every so often i've come up with a new idea for it, and have finally decided to sit down and write it. Enjoy! - Rhian :)
(All human, canon pairings eventually) - Obviously I don't own Twilight, or any of these characters, I just like messing around with them :)
I thought I knew pain, but I knew nothing in comparison to what I know now. Jasper's life was always, tough - always clouded by something bad – but every cloud has a silver lining right? Moving to Forks may not be ideal, but you can't have a rainbow without the rain.
And I hope the sun shines and it's a beautiful day
And something reminds you, you wish you had stayed
We can plan for a change in weather and time
I never planned on you changing your mind .
Last Kiss - Taylor Swift
Prologue
Being forced to keep away is difficult, but staying away by choice – that's a real challenge. When you've found your anchor, the one who keeps you grounded: your world, and they're ripped from your fragile heart, it hurts; but when you pull away from them, sending yourself into a painful, everlasting existence by choice, when really you never wanted to let them go, it kills. Everybody's future is uncertain, nothing is ever set fully into stone; no one knows what will happen, what we'll feel or how we'll live, but I know one thing for sure: as long as I keep you out of my life, I wont have a life, because you were my life. I know I've found things to fill the gaps that you once swelled; people that I can love unconditionally, people to fill my time so that the only place that I'm forced back into thinking of you is in my dreams. I've learnt the true meaning of sacrifice – this is me, trying my best to be selfless – I wish you could just try and understand that. All of this, the pain, loneliness and heartbreak is because you deserve better: you deserve a shot at a real life, to get through school and college, to accomplish your goals and wildest dreams – chance to have a proper family to grow old with; one that isn't held down by me.
I miss you – I really, sincerely do, with all of my being. Please understand. Please forgive me; I did this for you Jasper. You.