AN- This is my first fanfiction, so please review I really want to know how I'm doing.
Patricia was never one to be a Taylor Swift fan. She had never needed to be one. She never cared about songs about crushes and break ups, because she never had one.
She promised to herself she would never become one of those girls who listens to songs all about feelings and junk
Of course, Eddie Miller changed all that.
The summer they broke up, a Taylor Swift song came on the radio. Maybe she was just to tired to change it, but that was the day she finally understood break ups. All the tears she didn't want to cry, got cried out into her car.
Soon enough she started humming along to it every now and then, letting the music remind her of what she had lost over the summer, and a small part of her would want to cry again, but she was strong and kept herself strong.
She started really liking one of those songs though, so she decided that maybe just one of the songs on her iPod could be a little out of place.
So she had just merely bought a song for her iPod, it was just a one time thing. Nothing major.
A one time thing that happened seven times, give or take a few.
They were just so catchy, and so meaningful after her first breakup. She couldn't go to her mom, or twin even for advice, so she looked to Taylor's songs for that bit of guidance she wanted.
And apparently the pain will never stop. Never.
So when school started up again, she put up her brave face and cocky attitude, to pretend that nothing bothered her over the summer, that she hadn't changed.
It was clear though to Eddie, that she had. She seemed less sure in herself, as if something had been ripped out of her and she was just stuck being less Patricia-like than ever. He would never know how much pain he had indirectly caused to her, and how many iTunes cards she spent that summer. He would never know, and she wanted it to stay that way to have someone to blame for the pain that she felt, and all the sadness too.
Joy thought that those first few nights she could hear a faint sob coming out from under Patricia's covers, but it had to be nothing, right? Patricia Willaimson would never cry under her covers over anything, especially a boy.
Of course Patricia Willaimson would never own a whole Taylor Swift album on her iPod either. So maybe anything is possible.
Life moved on, and Patricia tried to move on two, maybe Sibuna could have made her happier. Until Eddie became in charge.
Suddenly Eddie know had to know everything, and she had to tell dumb old KT too. So when she was browsing through her iPod one night it was only fair that a few tears came to her eyes when she passed all the Taylor Swift songs. All the memories came flooding back, of the nights she spent awake regretting everything.
"Hey you okay." A concerened Eddie asked her, holding one of those nasty boy sandwiches.
She would never be okay, but part of living through that is putting on a smirk and letting nothing affect you. No matter how much you want to cry, or slap him. No matter what Patricia promised herself she would never let herself get together with that pig again. No matter what.
So long ago, like a distant memory, Patricia once promised she would never become a Taylor Swift fan.