"Maybe this journey is just a little break for me." Rose.
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I stand
in the crow's nest
watching the waves
dance below me
he always
smelled like the sea
always
the sea makes me
remember them
but it makes me forget
that they are dead
I dream up here
so close to the sky
I pretend it never happened
combing now and then
into a paradise
paradise...
I hate Soa
this is all his fault
if it weren't for him...
I find myself fingering my choker
I take it off
stare at it
then slowly
expeirmently
hold it
over the side
dark purple
against
light green-blue
it sways
as I hold only one end
it sways
I sway
the ship sways
the world sways
I wonder
what if
it fell?
my grip loosens
it falls
shining darkly
"Hey, Rose!"
comes a call
I return to reality
I grab it
refasten it
and turn to face the caller
I think I fastened it too tightly
it hurts
they call it a choker
how approprite
it certaintly
chokes me