I understand that there are some mistakes, if not a lot. I just want to know if anyone likes this or not. I haven't named the chapter yet, or even the story, because I found myself trying to fit the story to the title and I would give myself writers block. So um, please review I created Renji a little girlie with out trying, and Byakuya more of the butch in the relationship.. but I hope to change that... or not..:B
"Are you sure?" Renji asked the black haired captain. Unohana critical blue eyes assessed him before she gave him her answer.
"Yes, I'm afraid." She whispered. "There is other ways to go for the treatment, and soon enough you can go back to being a vice-captain." She placed her hand over his shaking fingers. "Right now just go back and give this paper to Captain Kuchiki and I want you in bed, I will be by your quarters late tonight for your first round of treatments." She kissed his cheek trying to comfort him. With a swish of her robes she left gracefully out of the room.
Ha! Told you so Renji! Zambaru whispered in the back of his mind. It followed you through time, now you will have to face it. You won't be able to jump this time.
"Yeah, well shut the hell up for once." He answered, numbness seemed to be seeping into his bones. His muscles acted on their own as he pulled on his robes. His tired legs walked him to the Sixth Division. His mind was in some kind of daze. All he could see was the familiar months, if not years, of torture ahead of him.
DAMN IT! He wanted to scream. Renji couldn't stand the thought of being discarded and unwanted like all those times before. Before he had wakened up to his new life, and became a soul reaper.
That dark night was when he didn't want to live no longer, the thought of living through another bout of treatments washed away his will, he closed his eyes and took the leap. The best decision he had ever made, but now it's finally caught up to him.
You're going to die! His zanpaktou yelled shattering the last bit of sanity that he held.
"Shut the Hell up! If I die you die!" Renji yelled. The crowded hallway of the sixth division's barracks quieted instantly. Every one was staring at him.
Renji's cheeks blazed as he moved through the door into the Captain and Vice-Captain's main office.
"Ah, Renji, your back." His Captain said looking up from his desk. "I hope all went well at the clinic." Captain said. His voice was a feather softy. Renji looked at his cold compose face. How many hours had he spent with this man, and those mesmerizing eyes never sensed any sickness or illness in him? Renji couldn't help but be angry with his beloved captain. But ashamed of himself for allowing himself to be so weak!
"Sir, as you may know I-uh went to the um… clinic and um… Well you see," Renji ran his fingers through his ponytail nervously, would Byakuya think of him as weak for trying to escape his fate? "Captain Unohana told me to give this to you." Renji pulled out the folded up piece of paper and handed it to his captain.
Byakuya opened the form that requested Renji to have at least three months leave. Captain Kuchiki looked up stunned, his gray eyes brewing, ah shit this isn't good, Renji shivered mentally.
"Just what is the meaning of this?" Byakuya asked standing up. "What is wrong with you, if I may ask?"
No, you may not! Renji fumed, but knew better then to deny his captain an answer. "Just something off with um.. " Renji looked at the ground, his eyes burning with fury and shame.
"Renji," Byakuya whispered, as he came around from his desk and lifted Renji's chin with his index finger. Byakuya's cold gray gaze boiled into Renji's brown ones. "Is their something wrong?" His sweet voice rushed along Renji's skin.
Renji's world dropped from underneath him. He felt as if he was falling into a deep gray a bliss, all he could see and smell was Byakuya, the sweet lathering smell of cherry blossom, long silky black hair.
"N-No, Captain, j-just" Renji stepped back out of Byakuya's reach, he had a way of getting Renji all nervous, "Just need to do something for Captain I will be going, sir, I will have a some one lined up. if you like, to take over while I am gone. But I hope that you are willing to allow me to come back and do my job for you again." Renji bowed and walked from the room with out another word or look.
So, what just happened back there, Renji? Zabamru asked the burning question in Renji's mind.
"I'm not quite sure, Zab." Renji answered.
Hope your not falling in love with your Captain. Remember last time?
"I don't need your reminders!" Renji swore and moved faster along the serite to his small apartment.
But I do hope your right, Zabamru. He added silently. It would do not good for anyone, only cause more pain, and I know all about pain. I wish to cause no more.
One month later…
Renji's Apartment
"Your muscle value has only decreased by 22 percent in the last four weeks. That's good for how much treatment you are doing." Unohana smiled at Renji's blood shot eyes.
Dark circles had enclosed Renji's once brilliant brown eyes. His face had sunken in filling his face with dark shadows, the look of pure shame and death rocked Unohana's core. Even Renji's vibrant red hair was now dull and lifeless as it laid sprayed around his head.
How did it become like this? Unohana mourned, why is he dying? I can't explain it; you can't be getting this type of sickness in the soul society. It just doesn't make sense.
"Captain, please stop. It's not making my mood any better." Renji's hoarse voice pleaded, he turned his head away from her, looking at the mid-day sun coming through the window.
God, he was so exhausted, yet he couldn't find sleep anywhere.
"Renji, I will be back later tonight with some thing for you to eat." Unohana stood, padding softly to the door she added, "By the way, Captain Kuchiki asked me about something to do with an assignment that you are doing for me." Unohana chuckled at the lie, "I just told him to not worry about it, and you will be back soon enough. It's already been a month, so in time you will be back." Unohana stood still, her eyes looking at Renji, her heart beating furiously with confusion and doubt. Please allow me to be right! She prayed to the unknown.
Yeah, well I doubt I will even see the sun rise tomorrow, Captain.
Renji couldn't even hear Zabamru anymore, a sure sign that his spiritual pressure was leaving his body. The one friend that had stayed by his side through everything could no l onger be heard.
How it hurt to know he had so much time left and can't go out and see the world for the last time. See him, the sun, him, smell the blooming cherry blossoms, him, him, him, Byakuya.
Everyone thought he was on an assignment in the real world but no he was in his bed fighting to barely breathe though the lavishing pain.
His veins begin to burn as the treatment began to fight its battle. He would lie there for hours rivaling not to scream against the on slaughter of war that went through his body.
Instead he occupied his mind with thoughts of his captain. I wonder if Rukia is catering to all his demands, I wonder what he is doing now. Is he sitting at his desk his hands covering his jasmine tea, or are those artistic fingers sliding through his silken strands? He envied Rukia for being able to have those cold gray eyes on her! Oh! How he wished he could have a chance to say goodbye!
Sixth Squad Captain's Office...
"RUKIA!" Captain Kuchiki yelled as the hot tea spilled on to his lap.
"I'm sorry, Ni-sama. I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry." Rukia repeated as she grabbed a towel and began to wash Byakuya's lap and desk,
"Just move." He whispered, his trembling sister moved to the side, her eyes cast down with shame.
Byakuya flashed stepped to his home, Damn girl! He raved, fuck that really hurt! Clumsy fool! Byakuya dropped his soaked robes to assess the damage, his skin was only a bit redden from the burn, and it didn't even go through his underwear.
Renji use to drop the tea in his lap, he would get on his knees and mop it from his lap. Sometime Byakuya wonder if he would do it on purpose because enjoyed the area. This thought brought a small smile to the captain's lips.
His vice-captain, the vibrant fellow he was. The thought of Renji made Byakuya's heart clench with lonliness. Since he went on his real world mission Byakuya found himself missing his filled with life friend. He couldn't wait to see him again, to lay eyes upon his god like body.
Suddenly, he felt the familiar stirring deep in the pit of his stomach as he cock began to awaken. Yes he wanted to do more then just see his Renji. A lot more then just see him. Byakuya laughed and dressed, only two more months until he would be able to...
Later that night...
Renji's Apartment
Renji laid in the moonlight; he stared up through his window. Exhaustion was all he could make sense of. It was like the tidal wave that is about to hit him full on, and Renji new he wasn't going to survive it.
"I hate you, life." He whispered. "But it was me who is foolish; I should have known that fate would catch up to me sooner or later. I can't escape what I am doom to." But it was worth the try.
Renji smiled, his cracked lips stretched, he instantly tasted blood. His tongue flicked out, testing blood for what it seemed the last time, the copper taste brought some sense of peace.
I'm so tired of fighting, Renji thought, I'm so tired of trying to win. I hate that I can't see him again. I know that I love him; I only wish I was able to tell him. Byakuya, Byakuya! BYAKUYA!
Closing his eyes, Renji sighed, "I love you, Byakuya Kuchiki." He let the rest of his sprit energy flood from his body as the thick black haze of sleep. He drifted off with Byakuya's gray eyes smiling at him, and a soft sort dying man smile came across Renji's own lips.
Byakuya walked towards the spike in Renji's restu.
He couldn't be back! He wasn't due for another two months. Excitement rushed through his veins, Byakuya flashed stepped to his vice-captain's house. But as soon as he landed on his front step, Byakuya knew something wasn't right.
Dark shadows washed over the small apartment door, the air smelled bitterly of death. Byakuya's heart sped deep in his chest. He knocked softly on the door but it swung open. "Renji?" He called softly. The restu he had sensed earlier was a lot softer almost unnoticeable. "Renji?" Byakuya called again as he entered a small living area.
A tall nude frame of body lied on the floor. Dull coloring hair was spread around the body that was on its side. "Renji?" He asked the still form. The form's head moved the side slowly.
Byakuya gasped at what he saw. Renji's brown eyes were deep but lifeless, his face was sunken and almost gray coloring and he looked as if he was dead.
"What happened to you?" Byakuya cried as he dropped to his knees next to Renji.
"B-Byaku-ya?" Renji's hoarse voice rasped, Renji held up his arms as if asking Byakuya. "I-I don't have a lot of time but please, I need you." He whispered.
Byakuya slid from his robes knowing all to well what Renji was asking. He leaned into Renji's embrace, quieting on his own questions and concerns.
Byakuya felt his heart thrumming in his chest, like an anxious humming bird. He took a deep breath calming his anxiety and focusing on the task ahead, like Renji said he didn't have a lot of time, if he wants to show Renji how much he loves him, and then the time is to act now.
He wrapped Renji's frail body in is arms, kissing him deeply. Renji's mouth was cool and soft, nothing like what he imagined before. He tasted of sunshine and vibrancy, yet there was a familiar bitter taste that Byakuya made himself ignore, the taste of death.
"Give me what I ask, Bya." Renji whispered against Byakuya's lips.
"Are you sure, Ren?" Byakuya asked, pulling back to look at Renji's wide brown eyes. He found them glowing, lust dripped from them, sucking Byakuya in, he forgot that Renji was on the brick of death, all that came into focus was the willing, warm, sexy, ready body beneath him.
"I wouldn't ask if I wasn't, my love." He smiled and pulled him down for another heart wrenching kiss.
Renji didn't understand quite was happening, but he enjoyed it so much, life seemed to seeping into him from Byakuya, god it felt so good!
He moaned as Byakuya traveled down his neck suckling softly and biting at his neck, bringing yet another well earned moan from his lover's lips.
Byakuya ran his hand over one of Renji's tight nipples, playing with it between his finger and thumb rubbing the tight bud. Renji sighed as Byakuya's mouth traveled down to his other nipple. Byakuya's tongue flicked at the soft pink nipple his eyes flashing up in time to see Renji biting his lower lip with pleasure.
Caught in the moment, Renji's fingers slid down Byakuya's hair, his royal clips fell from his silky strands.
Renji urged Byakuya down farther to the area he wanted him the most.
Byakuya allowed this to happen, he shifted and became at eye level to Renji's cock. He licked from the base to the very top of his length with out giving him a warning. Renji gasped and dug his fingers deeper into Byakuya's head.
Suddenly Byakuya's mouth totally engulfed Renji entire length. Renji moaned loudly his back arching. "Byakuya." He moaned, as Byakuya began to bob.
Byakuya tasted Renji, his slick cock running in and out of his mouth; the taste of the man he loved seemed to be enough for Byakuya. He hummed slightly, Renji felt the vibration all the way to his core, and this shook Renji even more. His hips arched even more going deeper into Byakuya's mouth, he hit the back of his throat, but Byakuya handled it well.
Renji pushed back Byakuya shoulders. "Okay wait," Renji said breathless, "Take me." He smiled softly at his flushed lover.
"Of course, your wish is my command." Byakuya moved his tongue to Renji's entrance. "Try to relax, we are going to do this old fashion style since neither of us have lube." Byakuya giggled.
He slid his tongue into his hole and around it, wetting it. When he was satisfied with the wetness he shifted and slid slowly into his lover. Renji moaned softly, as so did he.
"Yes! Yes! More Byakuya! More!" Renji called, his voice no longer hoarse, nor straining, it was filled with heated excitement. The sound made Byakuya ears ring, and his hips act on their own accord, they began to move faster, harder and deeper into the willing body under him. God he was so hot! Byakuya couldn't even think, let alone breath. All he could see, smell, taste, hear, feel, and sense was Renji. He was every where.
Renji opened his legs more, wanting to get every feeling possible from Byakuya. He didn't know wither it was due to him being on the front door step of death's house or the fact that he loved Byakuya; but every touch seemed even more pleasure filled. He could hear Byakuya rising breath as he inserted and excreted himself out of Renji.
He could see, in the shinning moonlight of his bedroom, his lover's black silken hair flopping on his forehead as he moved, "Renji, I have waited forever," Byakuya whispered as he moved and kissed Renji's lips.
Renji wrapped his legs and arms around Byakuya, "Then take it all," Renji laughed, which then turned quickly into small scream that was made of pure pleasure.
Unohana moved to Renji's open living area, only to be stopped as she heard loud gasps and moans of pleasure. Peering in, Unohana was taken back. Captain Byakuya Kuchiki was on top of Renji. Renji's legs and arms were wrapped around the other body, Unohana's watched fascinated.
So after all, that cold hearted captain had a soft spot for his lieutenant. Unohana watched as their sweaty moon bathed bodies strained against each other. "Renji, I'm going to come, inside or out?" Byakuya gasping breath asked.
"I said do it all! But hurry I don't know how long until I-" Renji was cut off as he scream with pure pleasure, he called out Byakuya's name, Byakuya moved deeper inside and emptied himself inside his lover.
Something happened as he did, Unohana sat back surprised. Renji's body seemed to look more alive and healthier. It didn't make sense. When she had left him earlier he was on the brick of death and now he looked as if he had never been sick. Something didn't add up!
"What the hell?" Unohana asked, loudly. The sweaty sticky lovers looked up surprised and confused.
"Uh... Captain Unohana, I'm sorry, it's j-just uh- well you see… um." Renji stuttered, Byakuya pulled out, make Renji gasp, his eyes began to glow as he looked at Byakuya.
Byakuya sat back the look in Renji's weirdly glowing eyes sent chills down his back, the look of pure hunger and lust. "Did I say you could pull out?" His warm liquid enticing voice, made Byakuya want to forget about everything, so easily.
"No, Renji." Byakuya moved closer, his body reacting to the sexy man before him. He wanted another go around with this creature, he wanted to take him from the back, and then have Renji ride him, They could go all night for all Byakuya cared, or all week.
Some one cleared her throat. "What I was referring to is you Renji. How?" She looked at the man before her, even her own self felt as if she was heating up as Renji laid glowing eyes on her.
Renji blinked away his glowing eyes "I don't really know, Captain. One second I was about to die, but then I saw Byakuya come in, and well, you know, and when we started to… I felt like I was coming alive, it felt so good." Renji blushed and looked over at his captain, his gray eyes blazed with awe, and pure lust.
It brought a deep calling in Renji, he wanted the man before him again, and he felt that sex with him would be the only thing that would keep him alive.
"Renji, I believe in order for you to stay alive, you need to have sex." Unohana laughed, relief washing over her.
"What do you mean, 'to stay alive'?" Byakuya asked, realizing what they were talking about, all those questions and concerns that were forgotten suddenly hit Byakuya like a ton of bricks.
"I will go on to explain it in a little while, Byakuya, Right now I'm going to go in the kitchen and make some tea, I will be back and expect both of you to be cleaned up and dressed. We have some things we need to discuss before I okay everything. However, Renji, I will be happy to report you may return back to work tomorrow." Unohana smiled and walked swiftly to the kitchen leaving the naked lovers staring after her.
"Sir, I'm sorry I used you that way, I just…" Renji sighed. He got up pulling a blanket around his shoulders. He looked out the front window, "I love you," He turned and looked at the dressing Byakuya, his gray eyes flashed up, unreadable. "I know that it's improper for two men to you know, but god, it's like your body calls to me, I can't stop my own from reacting." Renji pulled the blanket from the front part of his body, revealing his large cock fully ready, Byakuya swallowed roughly. "I don't know if you have the same feelings but, I just wanted to get that off my chest." Renji started towards his bedroom to get clean and dressed.
Byakuya watched as he disappeared, he wanted to call after him and tell him everything but he just didn't know what to say or how to say it. Did he love Renji? Yes. He wanted Renji so much like Renji wanted him.
Renji drank the darken tea from his cup deeply. The warmth spread farther then just his mouth. It seemed to illuminate from his mouth through his body to the very depths of his soul. He body seemed to be breathing a sigh of relief.
"Renji, I don't know how long until you have to have sex again to sustain your life force, so over the next few days I need you to record your daily activities. I want to study this weird virus that you have contracted, I need to know all I can about it." Unohana paused to sip her tea.
Renji looked over at his captain, his gray eyes seemed to be clouded and yet unreadable
I wonder if I freaked him out, Renji wondered, "Captain Unohana, will this all be kept in secret, and whom I spouse to being doing the naughty with? Got any takers?" Renji laughed, tension and uneasiness seeping into his veins.
How in the world is he going to survive on sex, and who is going to want to live just to serve Renji Abara's lustful means?
"Renji?" Byakuya asked.
"Renji, I just need to understand how having intercourse does what it does for you. I don't care who you do it with, I just need you to record how many times and symptoms. Alright, can you do that for me?" Unohana stood up knowing when to make an exit.
"Yes, Captain Unohana." Renji nodded, "Thank you for all your hard work. I'm really grateful." Renji smiled at the black haired Captain.
"It is my job." She smiled, waved and walked from the small apartment.
"Renji," Byakuya broke through the tense silence that had filled the room. Renji looked up from his tea. "I need you to understand," Byakuya stood up his own heart beating nervously in his chest.
The moon shined light through the glass window, highlighting the dark etches of his face. He looked away for a second as if to gather his thoughts. "I'm selfish, needy, cold hearted, and yet" Byakuya faced his vibrant haired lover. "I find myself wanting to give everything I have to you, I want to forget that I'm a soul reaper, that I have obligations, I'm a leader of a clan, and just fall into bed with you." Byakuya paused to suck in another deep breath. "I just want to ask you if you are willing to make some exceptions, then I'm fully and completely willing to give my body when ever you need it, or have other meanings. I love you, Renji; I don't want to lose you. No matter if it's to death or cruelty of reality. I just- I just- I just" Byakuya suddenly couldn't find the words for the emotions running through him. Maybe it was due to so many years not having someone to talk about feelings and wants to but the words would not come out.
Renji, seeing his love struggle for the right words stood up, his bare feet padded softly to the gray eye man, wrapping his arms around him, "It's alright, Bya, I understand. In time you will come to understand as well." Renji smiled.
Byakuya nodded, he reached and kissed his lovely vibrant Renji. "I love you, Renji"
"I love you, Byakuya."