Disclaimer:  This is not mine…

Warnings: This is slash folks, don't like it… don't read it! (Remus/Sirius)

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I look down at you, as you stand in shock next to my torn and bleeding body. Your eyes, those who shown with so much happiness and joy during the last three years, are now dull, the sparkle having left them. No smile is lighten up your face, instead tears roll freely down your face as you fall down on your knees pulling my dead body in your arms, or am I just still dying? I don't know… I don't even want to know.

"Remus! Moony! Wake up love please wake up!" He shakes my body madly and a tinge of pain suddenly goes through me.

I am sorry, so sorry my love… my shining star. But since some time I just couldn't fight anymore. The pain grew too much and you weren't suddenly at my side anymore, captured and brought back to Azkaban, awaiting a trial that I thought would never come to an end. I had waited so long for you my love… I just didn't have the strength anymore.

Moony had won… Moony didn't want to be alone anymore so he decided he'd make me pay. With every full moon the transformation became worst and nobody was at my side to sooth my pain. Padfoot you were always in my heart but that didn't help Moony. Moony had made his choice and nothing could change his mind.

As I see you now there on the floor cradling me in your arms, I just wish I could feel those strong arms around me again. To be able to feel those soft lips upon me again so I can die with at least the remembrance of your soft touch upon me. Oh god love I am sorry… I didn't mean to die.

Then suddenly you kiss me and pain ebbs slowly through my body, making my vision blur. God, have you finally heard my prayers? Have you understood now that I don't want to leave this place, don't want to leave the man behind I love. Why are you doing this to me?

I start to scream, not only because of sudden pain but also because everything is turning black around me, scared that I suddenly couldn't see you anymore. I want to reach out but I only touch thin air, I cry even more because I know I have lost you forever.

But then unexpectedly I feel those soft lips upon me pulling away as I started to grasp violently for air, choking for several minutes before I catch my air. I open my eyes and I look up to your solemn face, but still handsome face.

"Welcome back…" you whisper and I close my eyes smiling at you. Feeling your strong arms holding me protectively and I wonder if god really heard my prayers, or if I had just had sheer luck?