Being forgiven. It's something that has weighed heavily on my mind for the past few years. Would they forgive me? Could they? When I think of the things I've done, I can't help but realize that there will be a part of each one of them that will not allow it. After all, the wounds are great and many. I think however, that they are starting to heal at least. They no longer look upon me with fear or suspicion. Somehow we seem closer together though we all live separately. I even feel more a part of things now than I did when I was "god".
Little by little I've been able to forgive myself. I will never be able to wash away the sins. The burden on my soul will never disappear completely. I no longer place blame on anyone, not even my mother. As cliché as it might sound, ever so slowly I've become a new woman. The shackled child god has grown into a normal human being evolving with each new experience. Living a normal life with someone that I love. Perhaps it is more than I deserve, but then maybe my father is truly looking out for me.
"Pardon my intrusion Akito-sama. We got replies from everyone. It seems that they have all accepted your invitation for the New Year's gathering."
"Even Kyou and Tohru?"
"Their reply was the first we received."
"Thank you. Please continue the preparations. You've all done well so far."
"Yes. Thank you Akito-sama!"
The young maid smiled brightly at me. A genuine smile. I receive them more often now. I'm kinder to those around me. My spirit is warmer, gentler. I can tell it scares the older maids who were so used to the way things were serving a twisted and dark family. Do they not appreciate how the atmosphere has lightened? Did they prefer the heavy, suffocating air of the past?
"Akito, when you stare off into space like that, it concerns me."
"Shigure…"
"Aren't you excited? It seems we will have a very lively celebration."
"I am."
We're starting a new tradition as Souma. One of positive memories. It will be a gathering of friends and loved ones. Perhaps the curse is broken, but a new banquet will begin.