HEY YALL!! waves like a maniac This is my first story and I would like all of your imput so send me something. For those of you that didnt read the little blurb that told you what this was about its a yaoi twincest... and for those of you that are still a little slow on the intake that mean its family boy on boy love (or as my friend Shimansky would say: Bother butt sex anime) So if you no likey then get the heck outy and I dont want to hear how gross you think this is. I want constructive critisim not stupid people thank you very much.
Yours allways
B-chan

Finally the disclaimer: I B-chan do not in anyway own the rights to these characters or Ouran Host Club. Though I wish I did tear

Hope you likey waves NOW GO READ!! MWAHAHAHA! gets dragged away by Mori Sempai But they love me they love me...

Kaoru sat up late and watched the sleeping form next to him. He had the same orangey red hair, and matching freckles, even their breathing was the same. His twin. His other half…

Setting his book down he sighed and pulled the blanket over Hikaru's shoulders before getting out of bed to use the bathroom. He shivered lightly, almost delicately, without his brothers warmth there beside him. Is fuzzy bunny covered feet padded lightly through the room into the connecting bathroom.

It was in these few private moments he had, without the hustle and bustle of the host club and his brother's constant distraction, he thought.

Why do you make me feel this way? He asked himself almost expecting Hikaru's voice to intrude. I know it's wrong. You're my brother and yet my feelings are very un-brother like.

Climbing back into bed he watched Hikaru's sleeping form for a few more minutes before falling asleep himself.

Hikaru woke with a start. It was still dark outside and the little green light next to him was flashing 4:05am. He had been dreaming, falling, and nobody would help him. He had seen Haruhi talking with Tamaki paying him no mind. Not lifting a finger to help. Hunny and Mori Sempai were together eating a huge cake. And Kaoru, the one person who should be there to save him was laying in the sun, a shadowed figure bent over kissing him.

As he fell he realized with a sharp pain in his gut that he did not care about Haruhi and Tamaki, and their relationship, as he hurled to his death. But even in the face of certain death, witnessing his beloved brother in the arms of another was almost more than he could bare. Heart wrenching jealousy shot through him in waves. Even after awaking from the nightmare the aftershocks of the earth-shattering envy remained.

So he watched his beautiful sleeping twin. Reminding himself that Kaoru was there… for now.

In his head he unknowingly repeated the words his double said only hours before. Why do you make me feel this way? It's wrong. But no answers came to him.

With a sigh he sat up and stared at the sleeping teen beside him. An outsider would look at them and see only the similarities. The matching pair of eyes, the same height, even the identical dimples on each of their (lower) cheeks. He sat up that night remembering their differences. And they were there aplenty. One parted his hair to the left and the other to the right. One had a small mole above him left nipple and the other had a small mole under it. Hikaru had a small scar on his ankle from where he had fallen out of a tree when he was little (Kaoru had come to his aid then). And Kaoru had, if anyone searched hard enough, a small raised scar on the back of his head.

Physically wasn't the only way they were different. No, the real difference was in their personalities. Kaoru was shy and reserved, sometimes even cold (though not as cold as Kyoya). He was innocent without trying. His eyes beautiful and clear, and whenever they looked upon Hikaru there was absolute trust held within them.

"If only you knew how much you couldn't trust me" He whispered into the night. "How much I want you." How much I want to hurt you. His mind echoed. I want you to feel the same pain I feel now. You tease me by blushing ever so sweetly. By flirting just enough to tempt me then turning to the next girl. You push me, and I hate it. I want to hate you. But I cant… I love you. And he did. It simply was, like the sun rising and setting each day, and the trees blowing in the wind, his love for Kaoru simply was…

He sighed again heavily. Kaoru rolled over and moved closer to him.

"Mmmffrrl" Kaoru mumbled cutely his tongue darting out to lick his bottom lip.

It was torture on his mind and his body. He hated the way his muscles tightened and "things" hardened to his beautiful little brother's touches and sounds.

So it was then that he resolved himself to force these feelings away. It was the summer and the Host club was working at a large resort that Tamaki's family owned. He had the job to keep him occupied and then there was the host club itself, and the little parties and functions Tamaki always had planned. And even when that all wasn't enough there was Haruhi. She was pretty, and smart, and he was convinced she would be his savior.

He bent down and kissed his lovely little brother gently on the lips. "I love you. But its time one of us leaves…before it kills us"