Logan was self aware of the fact that he had probably lived a life so far full of more downs than ups and sometimes he let it get the best of him but there was one up he just never wanted to let go of willingly. He probably should have prepared himself before jumping into that up so incredibly head first but that just wasn't who he was. The brooding young man considered himself to be someone who loved with all their entire heart and that sometimes put him in some very painful situations, like now for example. He had tried hard to try and replace the up that had turned into a down recently with other ups but they just didn't compare. It was an odd sensation being in a relationship with Parker, she was kind, beautiful, funny and she didn't watch his every move with a device if something a little suspicious came up but it just wasn't right for him. It was comfortable and it was strange to say the least for Logan to be in a relationship that was comfortable, no turbulence and quite normal.
Normal was one of those words he hadn't heard too often in his spectacle of a life and perhaps he should have been cherishing his relationship with Parker but he just couldn't seem to stay away from that one epic up, as much as he tried. He had steered clear of Veronica but when his room mate brought to his attention a particular scandalous video he couldn't help but need to protect the blonde that didn't need protecting. Logan in a situation like this didn't think with his head just his heart, which lead him to beat Veronica's current beau into oblivion, he thought he was being chivalrous but of course she didn't see things that way. The reactions he had received were not what he expected, his then girlfriend dumped him because it was so obvious to her that he was still in love with the super sleuth and yet he'd been trying to mask that feeling. Veronica had taken things on a similar wave length deciding that washing her hands of the unreformable bad boy was the best option.
For Logan this was not an option, he couldn't just let her cut him out of her life like that, especially when he still loved her. However he was well aware how hard it was to get through to Veronica Mars, it was an impossible feat that he had never really achieved but he was really determined to win her back even if just as a friend. He knew he had made many mistakes and some of them were not redeemable but he was determined to redeem himself for this one. He saw his opening at the cafeteria a week later, Veronica was on her own so he took the opportunity to apologise and he did, sincerely. He had been set to walk away with a little progress in his pocket but one Gorya Sorokin saw fit to increase Logan's point count for the day. Veronica as usual tried to do the right thing by keeping him out of trouble, warning him of the connections this guy seemed to have and he would have thought she would understand that it would not have gotten through to him because it didn't. The situation was quite simple; a guy had filmed the girl he loved fooling around with another without her knowledge he had to make this right in his own way. So he beat the right criminal into oblivion, apologized to Piz and knew that when he looked back at Veronica that not all was lost. There was still something there worth fighting for and Logan was a sore loser.
In the days to come Veronica had found herself trying to find the cons with Piz and she was having an extremely tough time. He was the guy she should be with, the guy she should be happy to be with and if she didn't think about it she would say she was happy but when she searched her heart for any real feelings for Piz all she found was a contentment that she was settling for. He was such a polar opposite to Logan, kind, smart, aspiring for a career, down to earth and a pacifist, this would be the definition of a dream guy but it wasn't the definition of her dream guy. What she was really looking for was a reason to break up with Piz that didn't make her out to be the bad guy but that wasn't going to happen so she was just going to settle for 'normal' even if it wasn't what she really wanted. This relationship was just so smooth, Piz didn't go beating anyone who tried to hurt Veronica up, he didn't go to Mexico with less than reputable people, he didn't hire people to protect her without her knowledge, he didn't do anything wrong. It just wasn't epic. Epic that simple four letter word that Logan had described them as and she smiled to herself at the thought of her ex and how his heart was always in the right place even if his actions were sometimes a bit harsh.
The truth was when he beat up Gory Veronica realised she was still very much in love with him, but things weren't that simple and they never would be. Her relationship with Logan was always complicated and hard, she wished it wasn't but that was kind of what she loved. Despite hating it when Logan got thrown in jail for beating someone up she loved that he was so protective, she knew he cared because he always showed it and the trust thing was there she just had trouble letting herself trust him completely. It was dangerous territory for the blonde but she loved danger, safe was boring and what she had with Piz was safe and relaxing but wasn't epic.
"Hey what are you thinking about?" Piz said as he looked across his girlfriends shoulder from the book he was reading.
Veronica was shaken from her thoughts, looking away from her laptop screen she smiled up at Piz. "Oh just going to Virginia for my internship, I'm just wondering what disguises I should take, you know Sydney Bristow it up" Of course she couldn't reveal her true thoughts to Piz so as usual she disguised it with some wit.
"What for? When you're getting everyone their coffee? Only top secret mission you'll be getting" He said with a small laugh.
"Please ruin my fantasies of the FBI with the reality of my internship" She said with an exasperated sigh.
"I'm sorry, I was just trying to get you to stay here…" He said as his lips lowered to her level and they kissed.
Veronica naturally kissed back but there was just a lack of fire, it was like this all the time. "We've been over this, we'll call each other, you can tell me about the radio world and I can fill you in on all the underground drug trades I'll be infiltrating. It'll be hot"
"So hot" He murmured as he kissed her again, his fingers brushing away some hair that covered her face.
She hoped that maybe in those twelve weeks while she was gone he'd cheat on her, but the reality of that happening was extremely slim.
Veronica was walking down the halls of the girl's dorms, coming from Mac's room when she heard a familiar voice coming from behind her. She smiled as soon as she heard his voice, she shouldn't have been smiling because of him but she couldn't change how her heart felt. Though if she let it show things could go wrong and she didn't want that. Yes she did but she was afraid of all the people who would get hurt, in particular Piz. He was a good guy and Wallace had warned her about tearing his heart to pieces and she didn't want to do that but Veronica had never been the kind of girl to just settle but she also had never been the type of girl who intentionally hurt people she knew that were genuine.
"What Logan" She said in a cool voice, trying to keep her stony façade going.
"What no hello? I thought you said we were friends again" The taller male said as he caught up to her.
"Correction, I said that we were getting there" Even though the 'there' she wanted was to be with him again.
"I apologised to Piz and I meant it, I am sorry for beating him up, I am sorry for everything I did wrong and I know that just saying those words isn't enough to make up for it but I really want to be your friend'
"Logan, do you even know how to be my friend? You make things so hard and I know you don't mean to but that's just who you are and I realise that now" She said, there was truth to that statement; he was making things hard for her because she was in a stable relationship yet she wanted to be more than friends with him. Some people would think she was naïve thinking that this was a love that would last but Veronica didn't feel the same love that she did with Duncan, this just seemed larger than life and even though he'd hurt her several times she couldn't ignore the reality of it.
"Veronica please just let me try" He said as he stepped in front of her and continued to walk backwards so he could look at her, maybe so she could see the sincerity in his eyes.
Letting out a sigh she stopped and looked and Logan for a bit before she started speaking. "Maybe when I get back from Virginia I'll be in a place where I'm ready to be friends with you again"
"Virginia? Why are you going to Virginia?"
"I got the internship at the FBI for the summer, it's for twelve weeks, plenty of time for me to determine whether or not we can be friends" The expression on Logan's face showed a mixture of surprise, pride and hurt. A smile eventually began to form on his lips, one of his small ones that she always found so adorable.
"Congratulations, I know it's what you've wanted for so long. Look I won't take up any more of your time, I just hope that when you get back you'll want to give our friendship another shot" That was the last she saw of Logan for a while; it was strange not having him around, it just didn't feel right.
In the moment Veronica had revealed to Logan that she had gotten the internship at the FBI he had felt an overwhelming sense of pride, he knew it was what she had wanted and he was happy for her and then he realised she would be gone for twelve weeks, twelve weeks he wouldn't be seeing her. He was sure Piz had already realised this and wanted her to stay but one thing he knew about Piz was that he wouldn't go to extensive measures to see her or convince her to stay. Logan on the other hand saw a plus side to the twelve weeks, a window in which he may be able to get her back. Parker had opened his eyes, he did still love her and he wanted her back. Even though when he had broken up with her he realised it was a struggle being with someone like Veronica, especially when it seemed like she never needed him but now he knew that wasn't the truth and he was formulating a plan this time around.