I'm running from the mess I made. No madder how far I run it won't change the hell I put my family through. It won't change the amount of tears Narcissa cried. It won't change the hell Draco had been dealt. We could run across the world and it wouldn't be enough. Nothing I did would be enough anymore.

Narcissa didn't say a word when we returned to the manor. I wasn't sure if it was the shock from everything, or she was upset about Bellatrix. Her sapphire eyes lost into space, however her grip on Draco's arm was still tight as it was before we left.

"Mother, we're home." He said softly.

His voice must've reminder her everything was alright, because her gaze snapped up and meet his eyes.

"Of course. You can go to your room if you like, dear." She responded.

It took everything in me not to grab her and make her tell me everything that was bothering her. I know most of it was my fault, if not all of it. We couldn't run from this. Hell Bellatrix wasn't my fault, it wasn't my job to be her keeper. However she was Narcissa's sister and she was family.

"Cissa?" I started softly.

She didn't bother to look at me or even move from where she was standing. For a second I thought I should repeat myself because she didn't hear me, that was until she spoke.

"Was it worth it? We're not going to get out of this, Lucius." she responded.

No. No, nothing was worth almost losing my family. If I could do it again, I would've protected them better. It might have saved them a little of the heartache I caused.

"No it wasn't. We can't stay here Narcissa." I stated.

She knew that. We had to run from our own home. Run from the mistakes I made, run from the mess I made. I sighed heavily, I needed a drink. Hell I don't even know if firewhiskey could help the migraine I had coming.

"I know. Where will we go? They'll eventually find us, Lucius. I won't let them take my family to Azkaban." Narcissa pleaded.

She moved from her spot for the first time and grabbed my arm desperately. The fear and the hurt was visible in her sapphire eyes and it killed me. It killed me to know that she was right of course, and we would go away if they caught us. There was nothing I could tell her to take away that fear.

"I don't plan on leaving you anytime soon Cissa." I whispered.

I pulled her close to me as she buried her face in my chest.

How long? How long would my family be suffering for my sins? That was the question I was going to keep asking myself.

She slowly pulled away from me.

"We have to go Lucius."

She was right, it was only a matter of time before the aurors would be busting down the door. I held out my hand for her to take, and to my surprise she willingly took it. I didn't deserve her, I truly didn't deserve her.

"Draco, let's go." I called.

Here we go once more running from the mess I made. We would be running and running because this time there was no end.