a/n: Hey guys! This is an AU; Claire/Cam story! Shoutout to the amazing Clara (aka ailes du neige), who is beta reading this story! *Cue cheering*
disclaimer: I obviously do not own the clique series and My Sister's Keeper. Please read and review, :)
Five years. It's been five years since I was told that I have cancer; five years with my battle, fighting each day past the treatments, the everlasting bruises, the fear of relapses, just to stay alive. Five years may not seem like a long time, but if you take every single memory, every single moment, every single conversation, if you stretch them from end to end —they'd reachforever.
The doctors told me that I may not live to see my next birthday. The chances of living up to my birthday is less than ten percent. I had previously dreamed of a magical Sweet Sixteen; something I always wanted to celebrate, but I'm not going to live until then. I'll be spending my sweet sixteen underground, in my grave.
Around five years ago, I had been diagnosed with acute promyelocytic leukemia. Surviving to fifteen was an accomplishment in itself —most children diagnosed with this hadn't made it past ten; My younger brother, Todd, has been donating since the doctors concluded that I have cancer. Bone marrow, white blood cells, stem cells; whatever I need to survive, Todd provides it for me. He says that it doesn't hurt, that he likes to help by donating, but I know the truth. He's tired of donating his unnecessary body parts, and he just wants to be a normal eleven year old.
When my parents heard that I was going to die, my mother locked herself in her bedroom, only to come out for meals and to use the bathroom. My father, on the other hand, spent his time to have father-daughter time, making my last year unforgettable. As my chances of survival decreases, the increase of attention I gain from my parents.
As for me, I don't mind dying. We all have to die someday, and all the treatments I've received only delayed my appointment with death. The only fear I have is what will happen after I die. Will I just be a ghost, invisible to everyone, haunting the people I know? Or would I just be reborn, forgetting every moment I've had in my first life?
Right now, I'm at the hospital, preparing for chemotherapy. After years of getting treatment, something in my body usually gets tired and fails. This time, it was my kidneys. I've managed to convince Todd to never give me his own kidney, which caused my parents to resent him, hating how he is not helping their little girl. But, they would get over it, once I'm out of the image.
That's another fear I have. Will my parents get over the fact that I have left the living world? Or they would they not remember me at all, forgetting the fact that I was even alive? Will they still love me?
At the hospital, life can get boring. You wake up, get treatment, and then get blocked off from the rest of the world, away from anything that may kill you. Friendship at the hospital, it never lasts. They either died or moved to another hospital if their cancer gets worse. My first friend, Massie Block, died during surgery; she was getting a liver transplant. Another friend, Kristen Gregory, moved to a hospital in Philadelphia, due to her tumor spreading towards her brain. I never bothered to get decent friends after a while, as eventually one will die too soon and it was never good to get too attached.
Deep in thought, I didn't notice a guy sitting next to me. He was good-looking, with his golden brown hair and tan skin. The most fascinating thing about him is his eyes, one was blue, the other was green. He was staring at the window, lost in thought, obviously waiting to get chemotherapy, like me. He looked lonely and bored.
I don't know what got into me, I told myself to never talk to patients anymore, but I blurted, "Hey. My name is Claire. What are you here for?"
a/n: Like it? It's a bit short, but I'll try to make it longer. Claire's thoughts may be a bit darker than canon, but this is an AU story, so the characters will be OoC Up next, is Cam's POV. Also, on my profile, I have a poll, asking what story I should update/start. So vote, please! I won't update until next week, because sadly, I'm grounded. But I'll try to update, :)
- Lauren