I've attempted to make this long, and I did. This is my longest chapter so far out of all I've made. :)

This is my first fanfic with Japanese words. My other fanfics don't have Japanese, so I decided to do it for this one.

Since this is the first chapter, I would love reviews on how you thought of this. I will be happy if I get some reviews. :)

Enjoy!

Chapter 1 To X Say X Goodbye

"Killua-kun?" That's how it started one day. But there was no telling what was going to happen. "Lets become friends!" He watched the girl smile at him. But he didn't smile. He knew Illumi was watching him.

"I...I'm-" He almost couldn't say it. He didn't want to have to reject her, but there was no choice. It wasn't his fault, but he couldn't let another person suffer from his own actions. "I'm sorry, but I can't." She stared at him blankly. He couldn't even act like he was sorry. "I have to go." Then it ended. He walked away silently, looking at the ground as the rain started pouring.

"Killua?" Her face became wet, but mostly from tears, streaming down her face. She had been rejected, but didn't know why. She couldn't feel happiness now. Her feeling of sadness grew, and her happiness started to fade. Even when she left, she still couldn't feel any other emotion, besides some anger.

She ran home, but didn't show her face to her aunt, who would become worried about her. She stepped through the door, soaking wet, and quickly went up the stairs, so no one would notice.

"Hmm, Gon-chan?" She stopped her after being halfway up the stairs. "Don't you want to eat?" She already had a plate set for her, but she still couldn't accept it.

"I'm not hungry," she tried to answer calmly. "I'll see you in the morning. Oyasumi Mito-san." Then she left. She never would have thought this would happen to her after all she did.

She changed into fresh clean clothes, and laid in her bed all silent, thinking about everything that happened. She knew him for a week, each day for half an hour to an hour. Why would he reject her? Even if they weren't close friends, there wasn't really a reason to not say yes. Even if they don't see each other again. It wouldn't hurt to say one word to her. Just say yes, and then your over it.

But there could be a problem. Because he said no, he may never want to see Gon again after hurting her feelings. He didn't know what she would do, or what she would say.

She fell asleep thinking to herself while staring at the ceiling.

Morning came. She dragged herself down the stairs, along with her bag. It was Friday, so the weekend was coming.

"Ohayou!" Mito greeted her with a smile and a plate of eggs and toast.

"Ohayou." Gon rubbed her eyes as she sat in her seat.

"You didn't eat last night. Was something wrong?" She started to get worried. "Did something happen yesterday?"

"No. It was nothing. I just wasn't hungry then." She took a bite and then continued. "Kurapika invited me over today. Will I be allowed to go?"

"Since it is a Friday, I will allow you, but I want you to make sure you have everything before you leave today."

"I'll go after I'm finished." Then she did, and pack supplies she needed. But what she said was a lie. She had planned something out the night before.

She packed her bag with things other than the stuff for school. She then reached her hand for her fishing rod, but stopped before laying a finger on it. She thought it wouldn't be a good idea to bring it, but she had second thoughts. She needed to bring it, and if Mito got suspicious, she could come up with another lie.

Five minutes later, she ran down the stairs, and prepared to leave.

"Is there a reason your bringing that?" She did get suspicious, but Gon came up with a lie to convince her to bring in.

"Kurapika asked me to bring it. But don't worry, I'm taking the car, so I can just leave it in there." It did convince Mito, so she got through free. Everything was planned out perfectly. "Itte kimasu!" She gave her last smile before leaving. Then she left.

At this point she was sixteen, so she was able to take the car. She drove off and arrived ten minutes later at the school.

As she jumped out the car, she left everything inside. Kurapika was standing at the front, waiting for Gon to show up.

"Ohayou Gon-chan." She smiled, but then noticed that Gon had nothing with her. "Where's all your stuff? Did something happen to them?"

"No, but I need to talk to you. Your the only one to know this, so don't tell anyone else. Its a secret I don't want to give out." Kurapika stared at her in confusion. What kind of secret could she have? She rarely had any secrets because she didn't like hiding things. But this was something she had to hide. "I've decided to leave. And I know it sounds crazy, but I need to. Do you remember when we met Killua last week? I saw him more during the week, and I even asked if we could become friends, but he rejected me. I want to know why he wouldn't accept it, and see if he wants to accept it later. But the problem is I may not return." Kurapika started to become disappointed in the statement Gon gave. Why would her best friend just leave her? "The reason I may not return is because Killua is a Zoldyck, so I may end of dying by doing this. But even if they don't kill me, I still might not return. I may end up staying there for the rest of my life. And I know its hard to leave you, but I will try to return. I will see you again one day, even if it takes a year, or five years."

"I understand how you feel. I will let you go. I won't stop you either. But promise me one thing. Promise me that you will return someday." She started to cry a bit, but held it in. Gon did a little too, but also tried to hold the tears in.

"I promise. Don't forget me while I'm gone." They were both silent. Kurapika ran up to Gon to hug her goodbye, and then Gon did too. "Sayounara," Gon spoke first.

"Sayounara, Gon-chan. Please come back some day." Then Gon left. The bell rang as Gon disappeared. That day was different than the others.

How was she going to see Killua again. Becoming a butler, of course. That was the only way to get in. But it was challenging to become a butler. You had to survive to become one, and she didn't know if she was strong enough. Yeah she had her fishing rod, and she was able to use nen, but was that enough to pass? It was either live or die. And she won't be able to determine the answer.

Now what was going to happen once she enters?

He ran through the rain. He didn't want to reject her, but Illumi was watching him the whole time. He needed to make sure Killua wasn't doing anything that was against his family's rules. He wasn't allowed to have friends, and because Gon asked, he needed to say no, or else Gon would be in danger. The second he says yes, Gon would be gone. It happened to one of his friends when Killua was only ten years old. If that happened once, it was going to happen twice, especially since the rule hadn't change during the six years.

Illumi followed him through the streets. He heard everything they talked about the day. He was glad Killua rejected it.

As they returned home, Killua went straight to his room so he wouldn't be bothered. But then someone knocked on the door.

"You can come in." The door slowly opened and Amane showed her face.

"Your mother has requested you to come for dinner. And she doesn't want you dropping out this time." She could tell Killua wouldn't go. The way he acted as he walked in, she could tell he wanted to be alone for the rest of the night.

"Do I have to?" he questioned.

"She said you must come."

Killua sighed and walked through the door with his hands in both pockets. He knew that if he went, his parents would just bother him about the incident that happened that night.

Everyone was silent at first, for the first ten minutes after Killua joined them.

"Killua," Silva called out.

"Nani?"

"I heard about what happened earlier."

"What about it?" He lifted his fork.

"Lately you've been walking home instead of being driven."

"Why can't I walk for once? I never do it." He looked down, and didn't even bother looking up again. "I don't understand why I need to be driven. I'm perfectly fine alone."

"That not the important part." Killua was silent that time. "Illumi told me about you seeing someone."

"So what? If you think I will become friends with that person, you don't understand." He stood up from his chair. "I never became friends with her. She was the one to ask, and I told her no!" He gritted his teeth in anger.

"I just wanted to know if Illumi was telling the truth about you saying no." Killua grunted and left.

He slammed the door out of anger as he stomped right in his room. "Che! I don't understand why he made those stupid rules," he muttered to himself as he jumped onto his bed. "I can't deal with it anymore." He hated pretty much all the rules that he parents made. Especially the one about not having any friends. Without anyone to spend time with, (besides Alluka, who he could only see for a limited amount of time each day) he wouldn't have any fun. All he would do is sit around in the house during his free time, doing nothing.

"You don't need friends. All you would do to them is betray them, and end up killing them." That was the whole reason why that rule was made. So what if that happens. Things could be different. Its possible you won't betray that person. But it still didn't matter. No matter what, that rule was set.

"You don't need friends." It was going through his head. That was all Illumi told him when the first person he said yes to died. Illumi told him it was that kids punishment.

"If I'm not allowed to have friends, how come you are allowed? Your friends with Hisoka, and that is considered someone you could betray." He muttered every word he spoke out loud. He was too angry to keep his mouth shut. He had to let out whatever he thought.

He played with his yo-yo's for a hour, thinking to himself about all the dumb reasons about the rules, and at one point thought about leaving the house, secretly. He could survive on his own. He could go back to the Heaven's Arena to earn money. Either way, if he was allowed to leave or not, he could just do it. He wouldn't be stopped if he snuck out. Sure, someone would just follow him, but he would just keep running away, until they gave up.

But when would he attempt it? What would he do when he leaves? Once he is all alone, by himself, what would he do every single day? Maybe this wasn't a good idea.

Falling asleep, he stopped thinking of the idea of sneaking out someday. Maybe during school the next day he would think of something. Maybe...

Morning came. He sat in his bed. School didn't start for another two hours. Why bother going out now? Hmm, maybe now he could see Alluka, but what about later? After school, the weekend would come. That meant like 60 hours of needing something to do to pass time.

This time he was forced to be driven, before and after. But it seemed like a long time in between both of those, especially during third period, which was the class he didn't focus on the most. He got through half of it before falling asleep in the middle of a lesson.

"I don't want to be driven home today. I'm in the mood to walk." He told Canary, who was already ready to drive him home. "I might end up coming home later." It was a Friday. A week ago was when this happened. It wouldn't hurt to walk home for just one day, especially since it was a Friday.

The sun was out. No clouds were dark, and there were very few of them out where he was. It wasn't a bad idea at all. His parents wouldn't care if it was just one day.

But it turned out to be a bad idea after the first half an hour of walking in the wrong direction. He really didn't know the way home. He didn't ask for directions or had a map with him. But he honestly didn't care. If he could be out of the house longer than he wanted, that would make him feel better.

He had gotten a few miles while walking down the streets. He watched his feet travel on concrete, roads, dirt, and gravel for a long time, until he reached grass. He hadn't felt grass in awhile. Hmm, he had some outside the house, but he didn't bother sit in it, and instead sat in trees all the time.

"Today went by better. This my only chance to be alone anyway." He fell back onto the grass. It felt like sitting in snow, except a little more rough because of the points the grass had, but it was better than nothing. "I should just stay here for awhile." But second thoughts. "I'll go in ten minutes." He didn't want his mother to get worried about him being gone for awhile.

But after eight minutes, he got too comfortable. He even fell asleep there with his skateboard on his face, so the sun wasn't in his eyes. The ten minutes turned out to be twenty, until two girls came by, walking home from their school.

The words the girls were saying could have waken him up because of how loud they were talking, but he didn't bother trying to hear.

The two girls were laughing at each other while one of them noticed Killua on the ground. "Huh?" One of them stopped. Then she smiled. "Gon-chan." Gon was there, along with Kurapika.

"Nani? Did you find something?" Then Gon stopped.

"Hai. And its kind of funny." Kurapika laughed a bit. Then Gon saw and laughed too.

"I've never seen someone like that. Usually I see their face, and watch their expression. He's different than the others. But I see the same people every time. He must be new." Unless it was someone she knew, but Killua's skateboard was covering his face. "Should I?"

"You'll be the one to get scolded. And I did it last time." She watched Gon approached Killua.

"Lets see who this new one is." She removed the skateboard from Killua's face, and he had his mouth opened while he snored loud. "He's new. And look at his face." She was teasing in a way, and laughed.

"Its your turn."

"Okay here it goes." She shook him with her foot, and Killua opened his eyes a bit. "Ohayou. Did you sleep well?" She grinned at him.

"Ehh. How long was I asleep?" He shot up. Then he checked his watch. "I still have time before I have to go."

"Go for what?" Kurapika appeared in front of him. "And why did you suddenly come here? We've never seen you before."

"Do you own this park or something?"

They laughed at the joke. "We come here all the time," Gon answered.

"And we see lots of the same people that come here too," Kurapika added.

"You know, you didn't have to wake me up. I was perfectly fine here." He still was sitting on the grass, but he crossed his arms.

"Well now your awake. So can you tell us your name?" Gon smiled more at him.

"I don't know why your so eager to know, but since I have time, and your not a jerk, I'll just tell you." He hadn't changed his expression yet from when he woke up. "My name is Killua. But I may not come here again, so I don't see the point in knowing a lot about myself."

"I just asked for a name." Her expression changed a bit, but went back to smiling. "You seem like your my age. Do you go to a school nearby here?"

"No. I just happened to find this place. I now know I was going in the wrong direction, so I should be going soon."

"Well you can't go if your just sitting there." Kurapika walked up to him. "You have to stand up to walk." Gon and Kurapika grabbed Killua and lifted him up onto his feet.

"Hey! Hey! I went to Kindergarden. Don't act like I don't know what I have to do to be able to walk." They laughed again, but Killua still didn't smile.

"Don't you mean before Kindergarden? Everyone learns when they're young," Kurapika corrected. "Your funny when your like that." They continued laughing.

Killua blushed out of embarrassment. "You two laugh to much. I'm not trying to make jokes. I'm being serious. I just wanted to be alone, and then you two showed up."

"Well It is your fault for falling asleep right there. We just wanted to know who you were before we left. At least we're trying to be nice," Gon pointed out.

Killua adjusted his shirt a bit. "I should be going."

"Awe. Will you come back tomorrow. We come here every day, and it gets kind of boring if we don't see someone else." Kurapika stopped smiling, and changed her face to disappointment.

"I don't know. But the only reason I'll come here is to get away from my family. Its annoying to be around them all the time. I'm actually never alone, except for school, but I have to work, which doesn't help me." He put his hands in his pockets. "Now excuse me, but I should be leaving now." He started to walk off.

"Aren't you forgetting something?" Kurapika held out something she hid behind her back.

"Hmm..." He turned to see what she was talking about. "My skateboard? Where did you get that?"

"It was on your face when we saw you. We wanted to see if you noticed before giving it back." Gon grinned again.

"Thanks for not telling me before," he told her sarcastically. He snatched the board from Kurapika. "I really should go now."

"Okay then. Try to come tomorrow. It was fun talking to you." Gon waved at him. "Mata ashita."

Killua turned and started to walk away. "Jaa ne." He waved goodbye to them. Then he disappeared.

"He seems nice," Kurapika stated to Gon. "I hope we can become friends with Killua-kun."

"Someday. At least he might come tomorrow."

The two girls walked away, continuing to where they were originally going to stop. "Mata ashita Kurapika-chan." She walked into her house, and Kurapika waved at her and left.

That was only the first day they saw each other. The day that she was rejected was a week from then. Gon hoped to become friends with Killua, and also have Kurapika to become friends with him too. But something changed. Gon did go back to the park the day later, but Kurapika couldn't that next day. She said that she was busy, and that maybe she could come after school the next week. But somehow she couldn't. She became sick on Sunday, and was sick up until Friday. When she did go, Gon left that day.

Back to Saturday, the second day she went to see Killua. He did show up, but he claimed only because he wanted to get out of his house. She learned more about him, and one was that he loved chocolate. So the next day she brought a chocolate bar as a nice to meet you gift.

The next few days they just talked to each other. Gon felt like she could ask if he could become friends. They knew each other a lot now, and even if they could only see each other at that park, they would still see each other.

And then the seventh day came. Killua was being followed that day, since his parents got suspicious. And because he was being watched, now he wasn't able to see her again. And Gon didn't understand that. She thought that he just didn't feel like becoming friends. That's why she went to see him again, so she could ask him the reason why, and hopefully become friends.

But it was possible she wouldn't get to know the reason why he rejected her, or get another chance to become friends. She had to find out by waiting. There weren't any clues to it, so she had to wait until he answered her.

The bell rang, Killua woke up from the ring once it entered his head. He didn't expect to wake up then. He grabbed his stuff, and headed for lunch.

He sat alone, as usual, only because of the rule. He didn't want to speak with anyone that wasn't his family, except for the teachers and principle, which her rarely talked to. It seemed like he was lonely from another kid's perspective, but he really wasn't lonely that much. It was just lunch anyway. Why talk to someone if your not allowed to?

But that's what Killua thought when he didn't have friends, and was forced with that rule.

The rest of the day went by slow too, but it was better since he wasn't at home. But the final bell did ring, and he was disappointed, while everyone else was glad to be out.

He thought that he was different than everyone else. He was probably the only one in the school to have that rule. He didn't think anyone understood the rule at all because kids make friends all the time.

He slowly walked out the door, where the car had been. Gotoh was the one to drive him this time. But he brought someone that would cheer him up.

The car door opened. Killua was greeted by someone that hugged him. "Onii-chan!" Alluka jumped out of the car. "I'm happy your back."

Killua smiled. For once he was happy.

Thanks for reading! I hoped you liked the first one.

I just realized this. Its funny about the title. I alway put the chapter name first, and usually don't change it when I'm done writing the chapter. But I realized that I said goodbye in Japanese four different ways. (That's what the title means. I'm basically just saying that there are different ways they say goodbye in this chapter. And this might be the most they say it in one chapter.) XD

If you have any suggestions on what I could do for later chapters, I'll see if I can add them. That may be helpful for certain chapters when I can't think of anything to add.

Jaa ne! :D