Disclaimer: Moi own nothing, not even shirt on back, so mo own Weiss

NO REASON TO LIVE

The mission was one you don't come back from, only one person could do it, for a multitude of reasons, one person was to make the ultimate sacrifice as Yoji dramatically put it, not one of us wanted it, but on second consideration, it needed to be done, it would end all their suffering, and it wouldn't mine, so, to me, I was the obvious choice, however I needed to take care of one thing fist. So I sought out Ken.

Don't hate me for this... just, I'm sorry" With that I lent forward and captured his lips in mine for a brief chased kiss.

"What the fuck was that?" So much for my happy ending, ne? Well I just grin shake my head and turn, leaving the one I love forever, I can't stand myself anyway, what use am I?

"Have a good life Ken!" I can see his face he knows what I'm going to do; I don't think he understands why me, because he looks quite confused.

"Why?" and there's the question, I turn to face him. 'Why do you live?' I ask, he falters momentarily "to do my job and hopefully, when I can in good conscience, stop, settle down somewhere quiet, repent, maybe if I can have a family, even if I don't deserve one, you know my girl really wants one, in Australia there's a place she's got it all picked out," He looked as though he were floating on cloud nine, it made me smile. He would find happiness.

"I have no purpose Ken," he tried to interject, but, "No real will to live, I hate everything about me, Oka was my sister, my first love is disgusting even to me, and my second is utterly disturbing, if I say so myself, nothing agaist you but you should be the last person, well you understand. No one really needs me, Ken, Not Yoji, he's going to become a private eye again, someday he may even settle down." I couldn't stop a small chuckle, "Aya, or Ran, whatever, he has his sister to help with his repentance, she's gonna save his soul, and you, Ken" I sigh, "you would be inhibited by my presents, your kind Ken, but having a love sick freak moon over you would become old." ' Omi we all need you' he interrupted me, but I'd have none of that, "soon enough you'll get your chance to live a sotto-normal life, be happy will ya? It'll make my small sacrifice all the more noble and all that fluffy shit, c-ya in hell Ken, if you go there."

I turn and this time I leave for good, his voice never beckons me back, he looks sick maybe a little lost judging by his reflection, he can't argue not really, I think I made my point, I may be young, but I have nothing to live for, the moment I step from the flower shop, I no longer fell my heart beat, with this suicide mission, I'll stop Weiss's biggest enemy, and make them/us obsolete.

It's odd, I feel almost happy, I close my eyes and a brief picture of Ken, with HER, comes to mind, but there is no animosity, I feel overwhelmingly happy, that he will be happy, I still taste him on my lips. As I reopen my eyes I trace said lips with my fingers, they're warm, I tear slides down my cheek, I'm crying? Yes. It will all be over soon, I dodge a table be thrown my way, yes the mission is going to be a complete success.

I walk away as the building explodes, I'm sure no one escaped even the gifted, they were dead beforehand, this facility created to make an army of people like Swartz is no more than dust now, I look down, I'm bleeding externally, internally, I can not see out of my left eye, my right arm is completely shattered, as is my left leg, but I make it to the beach, everything is so beautiful. I'm so happy.

Somewhere in the forest the other members of Weiss look on, Ran and Yoji leave, Ken turns to leave and looks back at his fallen teammate, one last time, 'I wish I could have loved you, things may have been different' then he leaves, a single tear finding its way down his cheek, shed for what could never be.

Omi smiled in the distance, "So... Happy..."

Thank You

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