This is my second story bout' if max killed herself

I'm Giving Up

I've felt like dieing. I'm hurting inside. I've caused so much pain and sorrow to others, I've done drugs, drank, and cut myself. attempted suicide enough times to know what death feels like and I know I want it, I want my life to end. I've messed up really bad. no one even knows me any more, I hate myself and I've wanted to die for a long time. I have nothing left any more. I am alone I have nothing left to feel but sorrow and hurt. no one can save me now, I have fallen into the abyss filled with so much hurt and depression. physical and mental complete shut down. the pain has stretched too far and I have no one to help me. I. Am. Alone.

-Max Ride

I set the letter down near the hotel bed next to Fang, I look around at all the others lying around in the room and letting a single tear fall down my cheek. I silently walk to the bathroom and pull out a shinny piece of metal. I slide down the wall getting to a sitting position with my knees pulled up to my chest. I put the blade to my inner arm at the wrist and push down letting the blade sink deep into the skin relishing the feeling of it come across every old scar every new cut. Finally I reach my inner elbow watching as the blood pools as it pours down my arm. watching as my life leaves me drop by drop. I pick up the blade again and bring it to my other wrist starting all over. Pulling it slowly making sure it makes it deep into my arm, watching as massive amounts of blood pour out slowly but surely leaving me empty and hopefully without life.

I let the razor fall to the ground as I stare blankly at the wall opposite to me. I am finally getting my wish, finally peace, finally no more sorrow. My whole body starts to go numb every breath takes almost all my energy and that is slowly fading. My vision is starting to blur, my thoughts are now coming sluggishly.

I'm lost in my thoughts I think back on all the good times all the smiles everything with my flock and all the pain I've held and I start to cry and I cant help but to whisper some final words for my flock even if it will fall on def ears " Goodbye I know I will see you again but right now be strong because I'm giving in"

I sit here numb broken alone and hurt surrounded by my own blood on the edge of death. A smile brakes across my face as I feel myself finally slipping. I rest my head on the wall as I fall in to the final emptiness and release for there is nothing to stop me now. I am alone I am hurt and I am free.