I want to go comfortably numb again,
Seemed so much easier to breathe then.
You've turned my world inside out.
And it scares me,
It's changed everything.
I am filled with so much crushing doubt.
This sort of friendship is unknown.
Suddenly I am no longer so alone,
But I do not know how to react.
My mind imploding,
But hope is exploding.
Fear of disappointment makes me retract.
Heart hiding behind walls of steal,
Afraid of how much it might heal.
It cannot make sense to me,
Why I should trust,
Why I might love,
This is more than I could foresee.
Mind seeking for answers it won't get,
Until to my heart it will submit.
I must take the dive to see the pool.
I'm so scared,
Of what's below.
Giving in would break my foremost rule.
I can't bear to see you when you cry,
I can't go one more minute living a lie,
So I will be honest about my fragile heart.
Maybe you will love,
Can I mean so much?
I only hope I don't drive us forever apart.