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Summary: Sarah went through hell trying to let go of Johnny. Song Fic to Evanescence song My Immortal.

Evanescence – My Immortal

I'm so tired of being here

Sarah walked into the long-term intensive care unit again

Suppressed by all my childish fears

She looked at her boyfriend, Johnny on the bed unconscious, again

And if you have to leave

Part of her wondered what would happen if he woke up

I wish that you would just leave

Part of her wished he would just move on.

Because your presence still lingers here

Because he was still there, in that bed,

And it won't leave me alone

And it tore her to pieces to see him like that.

These wounds won't seem to heal

Her heart ached for him to be ok

This pain is just too real

The respirator whirred, a noise she hated

There's just too much that time cannot erase

Her belly grew with the child he didn't know existed

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears

Sarah wiped a tear from his eye, his tear ducts continued to function even as he didn't

When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears

A sob choked in her throat

And I held your hand through all of these years

She gripped his hand and willed him to wake up

But you still have all of me

In vain

You used to captivate me by your resonating life

Sara walked into the hospital the next day, remembering one of Johnny's jokes.

Now I'm bound by all the life you left behind

She turned into the room to see that depressing still form.

Your face it haunts

That same face she dreamt was smiling lay slack

My once pleasant dreams

Each night every memory was agony

Your voice it chased away

She struggled to remember the exact pitch of his voice

All the sanity in me

It depressed her so much, she cried, not for the first or last time

These wounds won't seem to heal

How long had he been in a coma for now?

This pain is just too real

She couldn't remember, but he was still there

There's just too much that time cannot erase

She wasn't sure she could care for this child alone

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears

Another unneeded tear crept across his face

When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears

Tears threatened to stain her cheeks too

And I held your hand through all of these years

She squeezed his hand and got up to get a coffee

But you still have all of me

Doubting that he'd ever wake up

I tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone

She tried to convince herself Johnny was gone, she should date Walt

But though you're still with me

Part of her argued Johnny was still there, What would he think?

I've been alone all along

Another part argued Johnny was gone and couldn't care.

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears

She entered the room one last time and wiped one last tear.

When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears

Walt had proposed, yet she still wished Johnny would wake up

And I held your hand through all of these years

She picked up his hand, thinking it was over, he was long gone,

But you still have all of me

The next day she smiled up at Walt and said 'I Do'

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