A/N: So this is my first story. And well, I just hope you will enjoy reading it. Please let me know about any mistakes you might detect, and I will take care of it as soon as possible.
It was a rather usual day in Sunnydale. Buffy and her friends Xander and Willow was in the library looking up demons and other curious things they might need to know at some point later. It was their last day of school before spring break and they were all looking forward to days of just hanging around like normal kids, well, as normal as they could be. At night they would of course be slaying vampires and other evil creatures like they always did. Buffy could hardly wait to hang out at the mall all day.
"Hey Buff, would you like to join me and Willow for a movie and pizza tonight? You know, celebrate the beginning of the break and stuff?" Xander asked in a hopeful voice.
"Oh, I wish I could, but you know, got to do some dusting tonight. Sorry, guys. Maybe next time." Buffy answered, with sort of a sad voice. She really was sorry, she wanted to spend some time with her friends. Specially Willow. Oh, how she missed spending time with her very best friend. She could tell Willow everything. They could spend hours upon hours talking about guys, school, guys and more guys. With Xander, the guys talk would always end with Xander telling Buffy how nobody ever would be good enough for her.
Giles interrupted Buffy's line of thoughts; "Y-y-you know Buff, just go ahead, spend some time with your friends, c-c-could do you some good, I'm sure. I-I-I can deal with the patrolling tonight. I-it's not like I expect someone to rise tonight, s-so it should be a fairly quiet night tonight."
All of the kids looked funny at Giles, they couldn't believe what they had just heard.
"Giles? Are you feeling well? I mean, you do realize what you just said, right?" Buffy said, kind of worried
"I-I-I'm feeling just fine, thank you. I-I-I just thought it was time for you to get o-o-one night off. B-b-but of course, i-i-if you don't want to, you can go patrolling tonight." Giles said. He knew she wanted to go with them, he rarely gave her a night off, and she had been doing really well lately, she deserved a night off.
Buffy and the others still looked at Giles like he had gone completely mad. They stared at him like that for about half a minute before Buffy said; "For real? I can take the whole night off? Just like that?" Buffy was really surprised, she couldn't believe what Giles just said. It was just too good to be true.
"Y-y-yes. Just like that. Yes. Well, no, not just like that. There is just one thing. J-j-just in.."
"I knew it" Buffy said. ""There is always something" Buffy rolled her eyes and sighed while she said this.
"Would you please just let me finish? I just want you to carry this beeper. Just in case something should happen and I would need your assistance. You probably won't even need it. It's just in case." Giles said while he found a small beeper from one of his pockets and handed it to Buffy. Buffy took it and looked at it from all angles while she said; "Fine. I'll take it. Just because you say I probably won't need it"
"Good, good" Giles said while he turned around and went to the bookshelves to find another book.
Later that night Buffy sat between Xander and Willow in Xander's basement. This felt good. It was something she should be allowed to do more often than she was at the moment. But then again, when it was such a rare reward, she also believed that she might appreciate it more when it first happened. Buffy looked at them both, first Willow, then Xander, then back to Willow. She smiled. Willow looked back at Buffy and asked her what she was smiling like that about. Buffy told her she was just happy to spend some quality time with her best friends. Willow smiled back at her and told her how happy she was about this too, how badly she had missed spending time with Buffy and it was a nice change from just being with Xander. Buffy smiled. Sure, they spent a lot of time together at night patrolling and stuff, but it wasn't quite the same as just hanging out like this. It was great.
Willow leaned her head towards Buffy's shoulder. Buffy looked down at Willow and saw Willow looking back up at her. They smiled at each other. Neither one of them wanted to admit how much they liked being this close to each other. How much they wish they had more time alone. They both sighed. Willow moved her hand closer to Buffy, Buffy did the same thing at the same time. Their hands touched and they looked at each other, smiling. Willow laid her hand in Buffy's and they sat like that until they had all fallen asleep in front of the TV. Xander they had forgotten all about.
All of a sudden Buffy woke up. It was dark outside and the TV was showing a snowstorm. She wasn't sure why she had woken up. At first she thought it was because Xander had let a major snore in her ear, then she realized it was because the beeper was making a horrible noise. She was about to stand up and get it when she noticed that Willow was leaning on her and still holding her hand. Buffy smiled a happy smile, she couldn't help it, it just felt right. She carefully stood up without moving Willow too much. Once she was up, she leaned back down and kissed Willow on her forehead. Willow moved a little bit and smiled in her sleep. "What is it about her?" Buffy thought. "Why am I feeling like this? We're just friends, right?" Buffy took one last glance at her before she turned to her coat and found the beeper. It was Giles. She put on her coat and got ready to leave. She didn't hear Willow waking up and walk towards her. Buffy jumped when Willow spoke; "Where are you going? Did Giles call for you?"
"Yeah. Sorry. Got to go. I'll come back here when I'm finished with whatever Giles want. I promise" Buffy said while looking at Willow. At the same time she was wondering how to act. Should she grab her hand while they spoke? Should she give her a hug before she left? Should she kiss her goodbye? What should she do?
"I'll come with you. I'm sure Giles could need all the help he can get" Willow said excited. Willow wasn't sure how to act either. She wanted to hold her hand.
"Look, Willow. I know you have been with me at these things before, but this is probably nothing. I'm sure Giles just want to check if I pay attention or something. So you just stay here and wait, and I'll be back soon. Okay? I'll leave the beeper behind, and I'll page you if there is a need for you guys. Okay?" Buffy said
"Okay. Just, you know, do your thing. Kick their ass and stuff", Willow said while she smiled.
"Sure thing" Buffy smiled when she said it. She couldn't help smiling when she saw Willow smile. What was going on?
Buffy turned to walk out the door when she felt Willow grab her hand and pull her closer to herself. All of a sudden Buffy forgot about everything she was supposed to be doing, all she could think of, was the fact that she had never been this close to Willow, not like this. They had been hugging and stuff, but the way they were close now, never before. Buffy kept a small battle inside her head, should she say anything? Should she wait for Willow to say anything? Should she make a move? Or wait for her to make one? This apparently made her look a little distant, because all of a sudden she heard Willow say something. She couldn't quite figure out what it was at first, but when Willow repeated what she said, Buffy paid attention; "What's up? What are you thinking about? Does this feel wrong to you? Because, you know, I could just back up, and we can pretend this never happened, you know?" Willow looked slightly worried. She was afraid Buffy would push her away and never speak to her again or something. Buffy shakes her head slowly when she's answering Willow; "No. No, no. This feels very good. I think I like being close to you like this. I'm just trying to figure out my next move, or if I should wait for you or, you know. Just trying to figure out what happens next" Buffy can see Willow cracking up a really big smile. Willow is barely whispering when she speaks next; "Well, I know what I want to happen next". Willow looks at Buffy, she realizes that Buffy is slightly taller than her, but that could be because Buffy is wearing shoes. Willow is holding Buffy's arm. She slides her hand down so she holds her hand instead and then she uses her other hand to touch Buffy's cheek. Willow gently strokes her cheek, looks her in the eyes, and then she kisses Buffy.
Buffy forgets about everything else. Nothing matters anymore, and she's pretty sure she never have to worry about anything else in the world. She's sure that if this stops, the kiss, the world will end. Her head is spinning, at least that's how it felt like. Buffy could feel that she laid one of her arms around Willow's neck, and the other one around her waist.
"This kiss," Willow thought, "is fantastic. It has to be the best one ever. I just wish it could last. I wish she didn't have to leave. I just want to feel her. That's all I need right now, her." Willow pulled away. She knew that if she let Buffy go now, go help Giles with whatever, she would be back sooner, and then they could see what happened next.
Buffy was sad when Willow pulled away. But also happy, because then she could look at her again, see that beautiful smile of hers. They could lie down somewhere, Xander's bed, perhaps, and just lie there, and see what happened next. Yeah, that would be nice.
Willow was the first to speak; "you should go, now. We can talk about this when you get back. I'll wait for you here"
Buffy looked slightly confused at the words. Where was she supposed to go? She wasn't needed anywhere but next to Willow, was she? Then all of a sudden she remembered; "Oh. Right. Giles. Okay. I'll go. I'll be back soon, I promise. We need to talk about what this means and stuff. Alright. Giles. Okay. Bye, then". Buffy gave Willow one last, quick kiss on the lips, that was enough to make her head spin. "Wow! Her lips, they are so soft and perfect" Buffy thought.
"Okay. Bye". Willow said weakly when Buffy had just walked out the door. She wasn't sure what she was thinking about, but she was sure this was the right thing. It just had to be. She couldn't stop smiling.
Willow went over to Xander's bed and decided to read one of his Superman comics while she waited for Buffy to return.
Willow wasn't even halfway through the comic before she fell asleep again. She had only been sleeping for about an hour or so when Buffy returned. Buffy wasn't sure if she should wake Willow, or just let her sleep. They could do the talk later. She decided to go into Xander's kitchen and make herself a cup of coffee, it wasn't like she would be able to go back to sleep anyways, not now when she was so distracted.
*CRASH*
"SHIT!" Buffy said out loud. Maybe a little too loud. She had dropped a cup to the floor. Of course it broke, but did it have to break so loud? Buffy was cursing quietly by herself and didn't hear Willow coming up behind her. "You okay, Buff?"
"SHIT!" Buffy jumped and turned around, she saw Willow standing in the doorway; "Jeez, Will! You should know better than scaring me like that".
"Oh. I'm sorry. I thought you heard me come", Willow apologized. Buffy took a couple of steps towards Willow and spoke; "Doesn't matter, I guess. Would you like some coffee? I'm about to make me some myself, and we could sit outside, you know, talk about what happened earlier. We should talk about it, right?" Buffy said in a little insecure voice.
"Uhh. Yeah. Sure. I mean, I don't know. Uhh. Coffee sounds good. Coffee outside is good. Yes", Willow said with her usual nervous babbling. Buffy turned around to find two cups and pour them both a cup. Buffy turned back towards Willow to hand her one of the cups. Their hands met when Willow reached for the cup. They looked up at each other and they both gave the other one a small, little shy smile. They both wanted more than a little touch like that, but neither one of them dared to say anything, just in case.
A few minutes later, they sat outside. They hadn't bothered to find themselves chairs, so they just sat on the lawn, facing each other.
"So, uh. What did Giles want?" Willow asked, just to get the conversation started.
"Oh. Uh, he just wanted to check if I was paying any attention to the beeper. So it wasn't really necessary to go there in the first place. I could've just stayed. Give him a phone call or something. That's what he expected me to do. Just call." Buffy stared down at her cup while she answered. She couldn't get herself to look at Willow, even though she wanted to.
They sat there for a couple of minutes. Not saying a word. They both wanted the other to say something. Anything at all, but preferably about the kiss. Neither one of them was sure of what they should say, they just knew that they needed to talk about it, what it meant.
Willow was the first one to break the silence; "Look, Buff.. About what happened before, when you were about to leave, I mean. The kiss. I'm sorry, I shouldn't have done it, I don't know what came over me. I'm sorry."
Buffy looked up at Willow when she spoke, trying to figure out what the words meant, did she regret it? She noticed for the first time how innocent and fragile Willow looked. Why hadn't she noticed that before? It was so obvious. Everything about her screamed vulnerable.
Buffy spoke, the words just fell out of her, she didn't even notice it until she was almost finished; "Will, don't apologize. I don't mind. I don't mind it happening. Honestly."
"Well, I don't know. I just guess it seemed like the right thing to do. Apologize, I mean" Willow looked down at her hands, she looked so vulnerable.
"Why do you feel the need to apologize? Do you regret it? Wish it never happened?" Buffy moved a few inches. Now she sat next to Willow. She put one hand on Willow's thigh, honestly worried about why Willow apologized. She couldn't understand her action, but she felt like it was the right thing to do, but she was worried about what Willow would do next because of it.
"No Buffy. I don't regret it, don't ever think I do. I'm so glad it happened, I have been wanting to do it for a long time. I just thought, you know, maybe you didn't want it to happen. You know, with Angel and everything." Willow smiled when she saw Buffy's hand on her thigh and laid her own on top of hers. It felt good. Right, somehow.
"Look, Will. If I didn't want it, would I have kissed you back then? Isn't it more likely that I would have pushed you away, and asked you what the hell you were doing? Truth is, I was thinking about kissing you myself before I tried to leave the first time, I just didn't have the guts to do it". Buffy hesitated for about half a second before she looked at Willow's face and said; "So, would you now just please give me one of those beautiful smiles of yours and stop worrying about it? I wanted it, and I wouldn't want to change it for anything".
Willow looked up at Buffy, she couldn't help herself, she just had to smile, whether she wanted to or not. There was just something about Buffy that made her smile, no matter what.
Buffy couldn't help herself. She had to touch her. When Willow looked at her like that, with that smile, she looked so fragile, so broken. She felt an sudden urge to protect her, to do anything to make her not so fragile anymore. Buffy raised one hand to Willows face and just enjoyed the feeling of the contact. Willow leaned her forehead to Buffy's and looked at her. They sat like that for a couple of minutes without saying anything, without noticing anything. Suddenly Buffy whispered, so low that Willow barely heard what she said; "Care to continue where we broke off earlier?" Willow didn't even have time to fully understand what Buffy had said before Buffy's lips found hers.