okay peoples! this is Goodbyes are never easy. I really hope you like it. its just an idea i came up with. please, read and enjoy! this picks up right after Bella, and Edward and Alice return from volterra.
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The whole plane ride back, I was lost in thought, trying figure out what was the right thing to do. Now, I was in Emmett's jeep, going back to my house. Edward kept telling me to sleep, but I couldn't risk it. I had no clue what might slip out of my mouth while I slept. I could feel Edward's gaze on my back, but I ignored it. About a minute away from my house by Emmett's crazy driving, I finally came to a decision. Alice is probley having a vision about it right now, but its too late. She can't stop me from what I was about to do. We pulled up to my house, and I saw Charlie peek out from the window.
I got out, and stumbled abit when I did. Edward got out too, and helped steady me. This did not help with what I was getting ready to do. Charlie came out the front door, and Edward let go of me.
"ISABELLA MARIE SWAN!!!! GET IN THIS HOUSE RIGHT NOW!!!!!" Charlie shouted, his face turing red. He continued shouting, but I ignored him, looking to Edward. This not going to be easy.
"Edward, I have to say something, and I need you to just listen." I said. He looked at me and nodded.
"First, tell me you won't kill yourself just because something happens to me," I paused, and he nodded reluctantly." You know how thankful I am for everything that your family has done for me. I could never thank you enough for that. Edward, this is not easy for me to do, and I hope you know that. When you left, it killed me. It destroyed me. And now that you are back, I can't risk getting hurt like that again. I just can't do this. I can't just stand around and let you hurt me again. I can't be with you anymore. I would really appreciate if you and your family just left me alone from now on." I turned, and walked into my house when I finished, not looking past once. Tears were flowing own my face. I heard the door shut behind me.
"Dad, I'm really sorry. I shouldn't have just disappeared like that. It won't happen again. Right now, I would really appreciate being alone. You can punish me in the morning." Charlie nodded, looking shocked. I turned, and ran up the steps, tripping twice.
I walked over to my window, which had been open for months now. I hadn't shut it since before Edward left. I pushed down on the top of it, and it slid shut just as the rain began. I gathered up my stuff, and went to go take a shower.
The shower didn't help me feel any better about what I had done, but I didn't think it would. I walked back into my room, and went to the window. When I looked out, I could have sworn I saw a blur of white and bronze disappear into the trees. Tears began to fall down my face again, but harder this time. I climbed into my bed, and quickly fell asleep.
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The next morning, I still felt horrible when I awoke. I was still tired, bu got up anyways. My dreams had not been pleasant My dreams were haunted by the day Edward left me,and then it being reversed. Me leaving him, and the look on his face just tore my heart into pieces. I just couldn't believe I had actually left the love of my life.
I got up, got dressed, and pulled my hair back. I walked down the steps, and into the kitchen to find Charlie sitting there, eating bacon and eggs. Bacon and eggs is the only thing he can make without burning it. I looked at the clock, and realized what time it was. It was noon. I had no clue how long I had been asleep because I had no clue what time it was when I got home. I walked over and sat down at the table. Charlie looked up when I did. He set his fork down, and looked at me.
" Bella, where in the world did you disappear to for three days?" he asked.
"Alice dragged me off to California to straighten things out. It really was a 'he said, she said' kinda thing." I never was a good liar, but Charlie seemed to believe me." I really am sorry, and I shouldn't have gone without letting you know first."
We continued to talk about this for awhile. I ended up getting grounded for two weeks, and wasn't allowed to go anywhere without his permission, not like I have anywhere to go. When we finished talking, Charlie got up, cleaned his plate off, and went into the living room. I walked back upstairs, not exactly sure what I was going to do. I wasn't eally sure about much anymore. There was only one thing I was sure about.
I screwed up big time.
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okay, so there was the first chapter of Goodbyes Are Never Easy. I really hoped you liked it. please r&r!!!!! let me know what you think!