I don't own Inuyasha

This story is just an experiment with undecided pairing or storyline and as I already said in the summary, nothing is impossible to happen. I wanted to try something and because I'm stuck on my other stories, I thought that maybe this kind of challenge could help me to make my brain start working XD. Can you guess what kind of challenge am I talking about? ;). Either way, enjoy! :)

(Also, I'm free to any of your suggestions, either if it is something you want to happen or someone to be added here. It can be anything and anyone (from Inuyasha series) and I'll do my best to put it in somehow.)

Chapter 01 - Farewell

This is it. The end of my days. I can faintly hear the movements around me as my friends are trying to help me, to ease my pain, to wake me up. I can hear them calling my name, but I don't respond. They still think they can bring me back to life. I know it's not possible. It's already too late.

How could things change so quickly? Not so long ago I was just an ordinary girl. Now I am dying here, far from my home, in the middle of the battle field, 500 years back in the past. I can feel the small stones poking in my back and the grass tickling on my skin, as if even the nature was trying to wake me up.

A small hand touched my cheek. Shippo. Poor little boy. He was always like son to me. He lost his father and now he is loosing me too, but I know Inuyasha and the others will take care of him. I feel something wet fall on my face. He is crying. How I wish to comfort him, but I can't. My body is still and I can't even open my eyes to look at him for the last time.

Nothing can be done anymore but my friends are still trying. I want to tell them to stop, but no words are coming out. It will be soon. Just a little longer and I won't be even able to hear them. My hearing is already fading, but it's not down completely yet.

Kikyo placed her hand on my forehead. I know it's her, I can tell. She joined us a few weeks ago in order to destroy Naraku. There was quite tense atmosphere in our group at first, but she was really big help and soon everyone accepted her. I wonder what is she doing. Is she trying to help me somehow?

Yet, I know even she doesn't have enough powers to bring me back. She must know it too. Maybe she is just doing it to put the others at ease. They still don't want to accept the truth, but she never had problem with that. Even when we got along, I still felt she's been sometimes acting coldly towards me.

Our relationship was more about the acceptance of each other than about friendship. We were too similar and yet too different, all at the same time. She was always the better, the more powerful, the first one. I was just her replica. Poor imitation of her greatness.

Unaware of my real feelings, she probably thinks that I hate her. When she started to travel with us, Inuyasha made it clear he was choosing her and not me. I thought I would feel jealous, but I felt nothing like that. I still don't. It was then when I realized it wasn't Inuyasha whom I really love.

For all the months we were on this journey together, I've been misunderstanding my real emotions for feelings towards Inuyasha. It was relief when I realized this, but also I felt sad, because I knew the one I really loved would never return my feelings I held for him.

Over and over, no matter how many times I'm thinking about this, it's always the same. Always the same sadness overcomes me, but I can't let it happen now. I don't want to die with the feeling of sadness. That's not right. My life wasn't sad. It was hard sometimes, but I was happy, so even my last thoughts should be happy.

Rise and fall. From an ordinary school girl, to the hero of the people in this era. Then, back to the ashes like any other living being. I have no reason to be ashamed to be in this state. It was probably meant to be, just like me coming to this time in the first place.

After all, I was killed by Naraku. Yeah, I can say I was. I am still conscious, but it won't take long. Naraku was our enemy, and he was threatening our lives practically all the time. It's a wonder I wasn't killed sooner.

Luck was probably standing by my side all these times. All the time, until now. This was the final battle and I know he was defeated. The others wouldn't be able to take care of me if he was still alive. Maybe it was meant to be, for us two to die at the same time.

Light and darkness. Two opposites, but one cannot exist without the other. It's a delicate balance, which can be easily broken and it's up on to us to not let that happen. There was probably just too much darkness in Naraku and when he died, it had to be counterweighted by selecting someone from the side of light and it just happened to be me.

Yearning for eternal life. That's what most people do, but for what? What's the meaning of life if it never ends? Can a person really be happy like that? Wouldn't the living be changed to just simple surviving? Is there really any perspective or purpose if there's no end?

Of course, when we die, we're leaving a lot of beautiful things behind. I don't want to leave these things. I also know that my death will make a lot of people sad, but who said there won't be any good things in the afterlife? Maybe there will be nothing, but maybe it will be even better there.

Uncertainty is creeping deeper and deeper in my mind, but strangely, I'm not afraid. I don't know what is waiting for me on the other side, but I'm going to accept it with open arms. My father might come to meet me on my way there. That's right, he'll surely come for me and will guide me in the afterlife. I will see him again and we will be together forever and when the time comes, we will welcome our friends and family, when they finish their journey as well.

Ready to go. But am I really? I'm not afraid, but there was so many things I wanted to do in my life. I never thought I would die so soon, but at least, my friends are here with me. I can't hear them anymore. I can't feel anything either. It's coming.

Rest in peace. That's what is often craved on the gravestones. I wonder what will be on mine.

Energy is leaving me, even the last bits I somehow kept until now.

Voice in the distance is calling me.

In the direction of that voice I can see the light.

Everything around me is changing.

Waiting is over.

So this is the end. Farewell my friends. Don't cry for me. This is how it was supposed to be, there's no need to be sad. I'll be always with you in your hearts.