This is set after the events of The Force Awakens. It will be an eventual Kylo Ren/Rey fic where I plan on doing mostly freeform writing here. I rewatched TFA a few days ago and then watched the new trailers and started to pick up on some Kylo/Rey vibes.
I started watching YouTube videos, read articles on fan theories and then have been reading a bunch of FanFiction the past few days until I got to this point where I have decided to write my own!
This is my first Star Wars fic and I will try my very best to make sure I stick to the proper lore/ect but I am bound to make some mistakes here and there so I hope you all can understand if I do, it is on accident!
This is my second fic ever so I hope you like it, This is what I would like to see/think will happen with the story. I don't really want either character to totally go OOC or fully embrace the other side, I kind of want them to meet in the middle so that is what I will try and do
Chapter 1 : Rey and Kylo
Rey was meditating by the water, cross-legged, in the early hours of the morning when Luke Skywalker approached her.
"Good morning Master" she greeted him with her eyes closed and her back to him. She had in time learned to feel and recognize his presence.
"Good morning Rey" he offered back somewhat roughly "There has been a disturbance in the Force, have you felt it?" he asked her
She opened her eyes and turned to face him as she replied "Yes. I felt something not long ago, but I wasn't sure what I was feeling!"
She stood up then and faced him. "Are we training today?"
"Yes, I thought we would get started right away" with that he walked away and she followed him quietly.
Luke wasn't one to really engage in small talk. She sometimes felt overly excited and goofy even compared to his quiet demeanor, though she supposed it was what he was used to, being alone for so long.
She knew what it was like to be alone, all those years spent on Jakku scavenging for scraps and making up stories to herself about a life she now accepted would never happen. It was okay though. She was here now, living a life that seemed something out of a dream.
It was hard to believe she was off her desert planet, here surrounded by water, training with Luke Skywalker to become a Jedi.
That over the course of a few days her life had changed so drastically. That somewhere out there was the First Order and Kylo Ren, the creature who now hunted her.
That there was a Resistance and that she was now part of that. Fighting against everything she had grown to resent in her short time alive. The First Order hadn't much impacted her life on Jakku, a life of survival she focused and struggled for basic necessities and that didn't leave much room to think of anything else. To fear anything thirst or hunger.
The First Order did however represent the same cruel people she grew up around. There were those who had power and those who used it to keep others down. She had been kept down in that place of animal need by those who had power over her and so when she finally rose up, off of Jakku, into the fight, she was ready to resist.
She had a sense that everything that had happened to her had led her to this point and she would fight or die trying.
After the long walk up the many stairs to the top of the Island they were on, her master reached for his hip bag and pulled out a small mechanical orb.
She looked at it curiously as she had not yet seen anything like this.
He clicked a button and the orb began to rise from his hand and begin flying around. It started shooting small rays of light at her she instinctively rolled out of the way.
She looked to Luke for some kind of explanation but his face said nothing. "Use the Force" was all he gave her.
She looked at the flying orb determined and was able to dodge a few more blasts before she grabbed the lightsaber that hung on her belt and activated it.
She stood in her defensive stance as the orb began shooting faster and she felt herself get hit on the arm. It didn't break the skin or hurt her in any real way but it stung for a moment and it was not something she wanted to feel again.
She wildly began to swing her lightsaber, blocking some of the attacks but not all of them. Rocks that stood in her path sometimes got knicked by accident as the orb began to get the best of her.
Master Luke allowed this to go on for a short time before he waved his hand and pulled the ball back to him with use of the Force.
He disabled it for a moment before pulling something else out of the bag that hung on his side. It looked like a piece of fabric and wondered what was going to happen next.
He beckoned for her to come over and she did so, all the while wondering. He took the fabric and wrapped it around her eyes so that she was blindfolded.
"But Master, how am I supposed to fight if I can't see?"
This actually raised a small chuckle from the man who simply said "Use the Force"
She breathed in deeply as she tuned in to the surroundings she could feel without the use of her eyes. She could hear the device click on and readied herself for the attacks she knew would follow.
She took another deep breath and slowly let the air escape back out as she began to focus on her own heartbeat and the vibrations of energy that flowed in and out of her.
She felt the orb knick her with hits but she kept breathing and could feel her body vibrating so much that she couldn't feel the attacks as anything more than vibrations as well.
She felt one with the energy around her, one pattern of energy that was singing to her. She effortlessly evaded the strikes in what looked like a beautiful dance had she been able to view her body from the outside and then suddenly she could see herself from the outside.
It was a strange sensation and not being prepared for such a thing to happen, she panicked a little and suddenly the feeling of serenity and being one with the Force disappeared as she heard her Master cry out.
She immediately took off her blindfold and was shocked to see that Luke was pushed back several feet and lay on the ground. Several large rocks had been kicked back as well and it seemed that her worry was causing everything around them to shake slightly.
"Rey, I need you to calm down and clear your mind."
She nodded quickly and went back to her breathing exercises, this time with her eyes open. She was scared of how deeply she had felt everything around her before. She felt the Force. She felt everything. Everyone. It was too much.
So she kept her eyes open and slowed her breath down, and slowed her heartbeat down and slowly but surely everything returned to normal. The waves around them continued to crash, the excess energy needing to work itself out more slowly.
She rushed over to him and helped him up and he didn't refuse her but he did ask her "What happened?"
She told him how she began to feel the Force and how connected she was to everything, how she suddenly was outside of her body and how suddenly everything felt like it was too much and she began to panic with all of it flowing through her at once.
He didn't say much after that, they simply walked back to his home and he prepared some food in silence.
She ate slowly, savoring each bite, still in awe of simply having food around without having to spend all day toiling for it.
Her master had retired to his bed, saying he needed to rest for awhile so she decided to go back outside and get some fresh air.
She let the wind hit her and run through her hair with a huge smile on her face. She was happy to be here and alive in the moment.
All of a sudden she felt a pull towards the nearby caves. She had been in there before with Luke and almost as if she wasn't moving her own body she began walking towards what sounded like someone saying "Rey"
It felt like the time she was drawn to Anakin Skywalker's lightsaber but it was also different in a way.
She wasn't afraid or apprehensive as she followed the voice into the caves.
Deeper and deeper she walked with the only light the break in the rock from above every so often. It was dim but she could see and some areas were bathed in light. Suddenly she stopped and could swear she felt the presence of someone else in the cave with her.
She looked around and didn't see anything until there was a ghost looking creature hovering next to her. He was small and old and had strange looking ears as he sat legs crossed floating in mid air.
"Who are you?" she asked him
"Who am I?" He asked "Who am i?"
"Master Yoda I am."
What a strange creature but she didn't feel scared, simply curious. Stories of Yoda were just as shrouded in myth as Luke Skywalker, but Luke himself had told her that this was his teacher.
"What are you doing here?" she asked "Why have you come to me?"
"Prepare you I must" he said cryptically
"Prepare me? Prepare me for what?"
"Balance you must bring"
She scrunched up forehead trying to understand what exactly this strange being was talking about.
"To the dark side, too many have gone" he continued
"Kylo Ren" she said outloud
"Save him, you can"
She grew frustrated with his answers, why couldn't he just say what he meant?
"What can I do? I'm still training to be a Jedi"
"A Jedi, you will never be" he muttered with a laugh
"I don't see what is so funny, none of this makes any sense!" she exclaimed abruptly cutting him off
"If I'm not supposed to be a Jedi, than who am I supposed to be?" the question plagued her. She longed to have some kind of destiny, more than a scavenger from Jakku. She could not bear it if she had to go back to that life.
"Something new, you will be"
"Something new?" that peaked her curiosity a little bit and she wondered what he meant
"No more can I say"
In those moments he began to fade away but she was desperate for more answers.
"Wait! Don't go!" but before she knew it he was gone. She could no longer feel his presence and the caves were empty once more.
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Kylo Ren was finally out of the MedBay and back to his rooms. Snoke wanted to continue his training but knew he had to heal properly before he could tear him apart again.
He was angry, angry at himself for how much pain he felt after killing his father. It wasn't supposed to be that way. This was supposed to take away the call to the light, snuff it out like a candle but it hadn't.
It had made things worse and now there was a part of him that felt regret. In his last moments alive his father had forgiven him. He had begged him to come home and got rewarded with his lightsaber straight through him.
But it was done now. There was no going back. If it wasn't too late before, it was definitely too late now. That's why he had done it anyway right? To set his choice in stone.
Things changed though. Very quickly.
He had felt her awakening before he met her and tried his best not dare hope that maybe he could have a companion. Someone to go through this with him. Another Force Sensitive.
When they met in the interrogation room and he accessed her mind, he knew that she was like him. Forced to live a lonely life. When she fought him back and gained access to his mind he had been surprised at how well she was able to get inside. Her power was incredible. It was attractive.
His mission to retrieve her for Snoke changed once he killed his father. Thebattle that had been raging inside before he struck the final blow had exploded inside him and as he stalked after her into the snow, he realized that he didn't want to turn her over to Snoke. He wanted her for himself.
He was torn because he knew she was full of light even if she did have a dark side and that he was full of darkness even if he did have a light side. The light he had been trying to get rid of only grew when he thought of her. His regret for his decisions grew as he thought about her.
And yet, it could never be. He could not go to the light side. It was too late for that he knew, and she would never come to the dark side.
If he brought her here, it would be his undoing anyway as he could no longer promise her to Snoke. That was no longer an option he realized.
He screamed in frustration as he activated his weapon and slashed against his wall, leaving mark after mark as he felt the rage inside grow. What move could he make? He was stuck and he felt like a caged animal in that moment.
The anger he felt sent ripples out in the Force he knew, not having let himself lose control like this in a long time.
Suddenly he calmed down, taking control of his breathing and staring out the window. He would keep going, just like he always did before and stop thinking about the light, or Han Solo, or the scavenger.
The timing was good because just then he received word that Snoke wanted him in the viewing chamber.
He donned his mask and began the walk to his chambers, focusing on his breathing the whole way there. His mental shields needed to be in place before speaking to his Supreme Leader.
When he entered, the giant hologram was speaking to General Hux, who gave him a glare as he entered.
"Be on your way" Snoke commanded Hux and he walked out of the room, leaving Kylo there by himself.
"I have something I need you to do for me, my apprentice"
"Anything you wish, Supreme Leader" he spoke the words which sounded mechanical through his helmet and waited for his instructions
"We've got word that the General of the Resistance is to make the journey to a new secret base in a few days time and I want you to attack her ship while it is most vulnerable"
Snoke waited for the words to sink in. no doubt hoping to get some kind of reaction for Kylo, but he simply agreed with "As you wish"
"I know this must be hard for you, given she is your mother" the words were spoken as a taunt meant to illicit emotion but Kylo Ren would not give him the satisfaction
"She means nothing to me" and as he said the words, he knew it was a lie, but he would just keep lying to himself for as long as it took to extinguish the light.
"Then be on your way"
Kylo knew he was being dismissed and walked out of the room with the pace of a man on a mission.
Maybe this was what he needed to do to take away the pull of the light. To quiet the voice in his head that told him he should just leave now, run away as fast as he could to the farthest place he could find and just hide from everything.
There was no use. Snoke would always find him and the dark side was the only thing he had left to believe in. If he lost that, then he would have nothing.
All of a sudden he felt a strange disturbance in the Force unlike any he had felt before and he knew that it was her. He wondered what she was doing to create such ripples he could feel deep inside. It felt like nervous energy and yet there was a Peace surrounding it as well.
For a moment, he felt good, but it was gone and he didn't allow himself to linger on it.
He would do what he had to do to survive and if she was smart so would she.
He knew it could never be that easy, but he was used to lying to himself.