A/n: So; the elusive deleted scene. I'm sure there will be plenty of M rated content that spawns from this. But I was wondering how much somewhat clean content comes from it. I'm not into smut, so I created this. Don't worry about your innocence, it's safe here.
There's a choice to be made; and both of you know it.
Both of you know that once you do this, it cannot go back to the way it was before. This changes everything.
And he doesn't care. And you both want it.
But should you both stop and think? Yes, you both want it. But is now the right time? Shouldn't you wait?
She wants it. She wants it so bad. She doesn't cry. Never. But her voice is cracking as she calls, "What are you doing to me, Deeks?"
She wants to know. She wants to know why every nerve ending is on fire. She wants to know why its so beautiful to her that this man is above her, willing to give her everything.
But she also wants to know why he kissed her on the top of that
hill that day. Why he shut her out after the torture. Why he couldn't just ask her on a date. Why it took him this long to say what he meant.
But he said it. And this is what he wants. And she knows that he wants it. This may be a mistake, but it's the best mistake she's ever made. So she presses her fingers in between the buttons of his shirt, and pulls him down, and kisses him passionately.
And he is completely aware. He
is completely aware of what this means.
She kisses him undercover. Always. Only. She's never initiated a real kiss between them. Until now. Now, this is huge. The weight this carries, its got him on a high. He's high on her. Kensi is the only thing he needs.
What he's doing to her, he's falling in love. Heck, he fell a long time ago. Now, he's just admitting it. And its not hard for him to say. He knows its how he
feels and he knows its true, but its physically difficult to speak with her lips so firmly pressed against his.
And now, now is the moment. Take it further, or step back. Stepping back has its advantages. You both can think. You both can know this was the right decision. Stepping back does not mean you're done for. Stepping back means you're using your heads. But taking it further is what you both want to do. And if you step back, what if you never do this?
There's no stopping it now. You're in too deep. The water is high and if you don't do it, someone will drown in fear or rejection. And if one of you drowns, you won't recover from it.
And what you find, its not lust. He wasn't lying when he said he was in love with her.
Falling asleep with her in his arms feels great tonight, and he
hopes it feels this great in the morning.