Elijah's Journal:
Although I had a prior arrangement for her as being my leverage to Klaus, watching her stab herself in that moment shattered my previous motivations. ALL I knew was that I had to save her. Let her drink from me or I shall face more consequences than I may ever know. Unfortunately, that was all just a rouse to have her close enough so that I could heal her, yet sp that she could stab me with the dagger of the white oak. I layed there in the middle of the floor in an unknown location at the time. I couldn't help but think solely of her... Elena...
It wasn't until after she undaggered me with such remorse and empathy, I realized that she did have a reason, her family. The same values that I have upheld over the years, I have come to find them in a much younger being. Everything Elena had done wasn't by choice, but by adpatation, she never asked for this life. To be submerged around evil and danger. The Salvatore brothers, although they both have a deep admiration and love for her; it honestly seems that they don't trust her judgement, or realize that she doesn't want to hurt them. They will continuously fight for her undivided affection... Yet, I already know that she adores both, and does not want to break up a family, she is not Katherina, no matter how much of the ghastly resemblance...
Elena, in her own way is innocence in it's most vivid form. She cares immensely of others closest to her than she does of herself. More so that it's dangerous... We had created somewhat of an understanding, a unique bond that I had treasured deeply. It came as a shock to me when she lied to me in my face about my mother wanting to kill us and she was going to allow that. Eventhough I had wanted revenge, my emotions and anger had taken over and there was no going back, so I had tricked Elena and had her tell me the truth about my mother. I could feel her heart beat rapidly with guilt, fear, and worse of all, betrayal.
The same emotions that I had experienced with her. I had placed her life in unnecessary daner and left her at the hands of my short tempered and very dangerous sister. That whole night I had felt a terrible surge of guilt. Ever so much that I had decided to leave and I left a letter apologizing to Elena, telling her that I understand. Yet, I fear that she does not...