A/N – Set whenever Yuan decides to form the Renegades, roughly. I know he stayed with Cruxis and worked as a double-agent, but who said that was his intent from the beginning, eh? Yuan POV. SHONEN-AI. Don't like it, don't read it. Written for the 30 Kisses community at livejournal
'Crossing Over'
What Mithos still fails to understand after all this time is that there's a space between dream and reality.
Sometimes the space is paper-thin, and you can't even see it, because it's just barely wedged in between, but that does not mean it isn't there.
I thought you of all people would be able to understand that. I was wrong.
Is it that you can't see the space, or that you, like so many others before you, have chosen instead to ignore it and chase after a dream, knowing that in the end, your actions will be futile?
Either way, now I'm above Cruxis' dream, and so I part ways with you here. It hurts to say that. It hurts that you can't come with me, because you're still tied to this selfish fantasy of Mithos'. It hurts because I love you.
And as we stand here, together, our lips locked in a passionate kiss as we hold each other close, it hurts to know this could be goodbye. But if you insist on holding on to a dream, if you're not going to stray from this path we both know is wrong – then I might just have to fight you.
I'd rather take you with me, but first, Kratos, you would need to pull yourself out of that space. You would need to stand up and face reality, and now I don't know if you can do that. I'm beginning to lose faith in you, of all people. You, who I've known for what feels like forever, seem so distant.
I'd like to tell you all this before I set off, but instead I remain silence and lose myself in your embrace.
I told you that I'm leaving. I told you my intentions. And yet you chose to stay, because you're trapped inside this space. I know I can't change your mind, and that hurts, too.
Just let me know when you get around to pulling yourself to reality's side.