Author note: Some of the conversations between Lucia and Castiel were taken directly from the first MCL episode. I won't be doing that for future chapters though unless I think the conversations seemed particularly funny or flirty to me. This story will be following the MCL episodes but also shadowing a partial AU. The AU comes from the past of Lucia.
Italics such as these are meant to represent fragments of Lucia's memories.
Disclaimer: I own only Lucia. Everything else belongs to the wonderful MCL creators and they get all the moolah. None of it goes to me.
Basic character profile:
Lucia
16
Long pale blue/silver hair, pale crimson eyes. White porcelain skin tone.
Past: Unknown.
She was given to Auntie Tata a bit before the start of the story. She was in a comatose state. Some trauma caused her to lose her memories.
Her basic personality is flirty. However some things trigger her darker nature and she lashes out on instinct. If something triggers her shift she becomes seemingly cruel. Known triggers are being pushed around and being grabbed without her awareness. She becomes playful at times but mostly when she flirts or when she had been triggered.
She prefers to sleep and daydream and will not rouse herself unless she has to. Prefers clothes she can move easy and not feel restricted in.
Chapter one
Wherever she was it was the same. She couldn't help it. Something in her was broken. Why else would they do this?
She was bad news. A calamity on the universe. It was best that they did this to her. The way he described it made so much sense. She didn't mean to cause the harm he and the others claimed she did.
In the end though she did. So he said she had to disappear. She had to not exist anymore. It felt wrong. To think of it in such a way… It was a dirty thought. But not all actions taken to protect the world could be pure. And in the end it was one life for all the rest.
If someone like him said it then it had to be true. He was so good. Even though he could have let her die he hadn't. He had protected her from herself. And thanks to him they were going to put her to sleep first. He promised she wouldn't be hurt.
… She really did despise herself. She was so sorry to exist. To cause him so much pain… She really and truly despised herself.
He came to get her after awhile. He was the only one she didn't lash out at. She didn't mean to cause him any harm. She never would intentionally. But she had done something so unforgivable before she was aware he even existed.
She couldn't deny the facts. She loved chaos. She loved the color red. But she didn't want to love those things. She had tried so hard. Tried so hard to not burden him with what she was.
… She must have failed somehow.
"Are you alright?" She heard a voice ask. It was his. So important somehow…
"Are you alright?" Why couldn't she answer? He would get upset if she didn't. She knew it.
"Are you alright?" He repeated in the same tone.
Why was everything repeating? And these negative thoughts… Were they really hers?
"You look pale… Maybe you should just rest." A new voice said as she closed her eyes. "Just rest."
"You are you. And you've done nothing wrong." So kind… Much kinder than his voice.
"But… Who am I?" She murmured. "Where…?"
Images flashed before her in a blur. Eyes all around. Most were either indifferent. Some were kind. Others were so cold. And then these sad eyes… So sad…
"I was so worried you wouldn't wake up!" Someone cried, someone so important. Or they had been before he had taken possession of her. But what about this new voice?
She stretched and reached. She tried to connect the things that haunted her. But then they all vanished in a great burst. She screamed as pain lanced her body.
It hurt!
Nobody had said it would hurt so! And above her screams, a voice… She couldn't recall who…
"STOP!"
The light was blinding. She immediately re-shut her eyes against the harshness of it. She blinked slowly. Her surroundings were very unfamiliar to her…
She sat up in the bed and gazed around. A bookcase and chair was beside an open window. The curtains flowed gently in the wind that came in. Outside was where the harsh light came from. She decided she didn't like it.
A great weight was settled in the pit of her, as though she hadn't been asleep long enough.
Suddenly the door was gently opened and an interesting sight stood in the doorway. A woman was there. She wore the most peculiar clothes. She looked like a fairy or something. She even had a wand thing and some fake wings.
"You… You're awake?!" She gasped.
Her voice struck something deep in the girl on the bed. Some chord… She lost it as quickly as it came.
"Who are you?" The girl asked calmly.
The older woman widened her eyes. She stepped forward and studied the pale crimson eyes before her. Such eyes were not an everyday human thing. Nor was the long pale bluish silver hair natural.
"You… Don't remember?"
"No."
"Ah… I see…"
"Lay back down Lucia." The fairy said, her eyes avoiding contact. She chewed her lip as though worried.
"Lucia…?"
"Your name. And you can call me Auntie Tata! Or just Auntie." She smiled so nicely.
Lucia had a feeling not many people smiled at her a lot. She didn't know where such an idea came from but it had to be true if she thought it.
"Auntie, where am I?" She asked instead. She wanted to know things… She needed to know things.
"Well your home of course!"
"Home? And who am I?"
"You are you, my dear little niece!"
"Okay then. But… Where is home? And… Why can't I remember anything? I can't recall… Anything… But these voices…"
"Voices…?" Auntie bit her lip again and cast her eyes away. She seemed to struggle for correct words. "You… He said your body may react this way. What happened to you… Wasn't nice. I don't know exactly what it was so don't bother asking that. He said you'd remember when your body was ready to handle it…. We live in a small town though. And you are going to be attending high school here when you're ready. First though… We must get you strong again."
Auntie helped Lucia up then. The girl was dangerously skinny. Yet Auntie had been giving the girl the proper nourishment since he'd left her in her care. She hoped so at least. And she hoped Lucia never regained her memories. From what she knew her life before hadn't been the best. She wanted to give Lucia stability.
She took Lucia shopping. Lucia showed a preference for darker clothing that revealed her slender frame. It couldn't be helped. The girl had been warped after all. Auntie stopped her purchasing a pair of daggers though.
For Lucia the day was exhausting. She didn't know why she was so tired. But she did learn a lot. Auntie had a cheerful demeanor that reminded her of something. A person from so long ago… She couldn't catch it though.
Auntie bought her something she called a cell phone. It was so she could always stay in contact. Lucia didn't like it. And she didn't like the pop music pouring from the stereos.
She didn't mind some of it though. Rock was okay. It seemed to be a lot of useless noise to her. She did admit to liking the car though since it was a fast way of travel.
Auntie was glad Lucia had retained basic skills. She could read and write well. And she remembered how to dress herself and all the important things. She knew nothing about schooling though. She went around and absorbed information.
When she began to look really pale Auntie began having her eat. Lucia herself didn't really posess the ability to tell if she was hungry or not. The result was her not eating much.
Over the next few weeks her personal identity became clearer. She disliked technology. She preferred to sleep and daydream. But if she had to be up and about she read books. She had fastly conquered some other languages and thusly read novels of many different varieties.
She had some attitude. She disliked being told what to do. And she showed what Auntie called spunk. However if you asked politely enough she was fairly laid back about doing things for someone.
Auntie wouldn't tell her who had given Lucia to her. She said that if he wanted her to know he'd tell her himself. The time wasn't ready yet. She wasn't ready yet.
Her dreams were still haunting her. And sad blue eyes saddened her. Then crimson eyes so like hers would set her blood pumping, heat would rush into her. She yearned for them both. But why?
Her dreams never solved anything. They always ended. She was left to chase them when she was awake and frustrate herself. Once Auntie had come home after a particular dream. She had felt the pain again. That awful piercing pain that tore her in two and made her scream.
Auntie held the frightened girl to her and said it was okay and that she was safe now.
Auntie gave her a sapphire necklace. She couldn't explain why but as soon as she touched it she felt hopeless. But she couldn't bear to take it off.
All too soon Auntie realized she had to send Lucia to school. She had gotten rather fond of keeping the girl close. But if she did that then she was no better than the others before her.
So she took Lucia in to sign up. Lucia accepted the money and the cell phone with a frown. She didn't like the small plastic thing and avoided carrying it if she could.
"Now don't give me that look Darling!" Auntie beamed. "You'll love it here, I know! All these cute boys to chase. Oh to be young again!"
"What?! I thought I was being sent here to learn, not chase after boys!" Lucia snapped.
Auntie merely beamed brighter at her and Lucia backed down a bit. "Well of course an education is very important Darling. But nothing is more beautiful than the quest of LOVE!"
"Love is a wasted thing that destroys." Lucia said instantly.
"Wherever did you get that idea? Love is a wondrous thing Lucia!"
"I don't know… It just feels like something I was told before…" Lucia shrugged and got out of the car before Auntie could bother her more about love nonsense.
Auntie wasn't easily deterred though. She rolled down the window and continued to talk. "Whoever said that is wrong Lucia. You shouldn't think of love as something unworthy."
"I didn't say unworthy. I said useless." Lucia corrected with a grimace.
"Well you are wrong." Auntie said confidently. "And when the love bug bites you I'll do all I can to help you on your quest of course!"
Before Lucia could retort Auntie had sped away. Lucia watched her go for a moment. She clutched her paperwork before her in a folder. She was unaware of much else. Her mind circled what her Auntie said about love.
"Useless… All it does is cause hurt…" She muttered.
She was certain of it.
She snapped from her reverie however when arms wrapped around her. She didn't think. She surrendered all her weight to her captor and they fell to the ground. She rolled atop him and had her hand around his throat instantly. She froze when she saw a geeky little boy under her.
"K-Ken?"
She loosened her grip.
Ken was the son of one of her Aunties friends. Some man in the military. She didn't really get it. He was supposed to be responsible for the nation's security. She didn't get why everyone didn't just protect themselves.
Ken had followed her around a few weeks ago when they were visiting. He had quickly become enamored with her and Auntie had sighed at how indifferent to him Lucia was.
"Why are you here?" Lucia demanded.
"Ah… Well you see… Could you…" He stammered.
"What?" She asked with her eyes narrowed in confusion.
"N-not that I don't really like… Well, like you being on top of me and all but I-uh…"
Lucia gasped as she realized what he meant. She was straddling him, her thighs pressed around him. Her hand was still clasped around his neck as well but it had no pressure to it anymore. It was more like a caress now. She jerked away and crossed her arms.
Ken was blushing red as he rolled to his feet. He picked up her paperwork as well and handed it to her with a small shaking in his hands.
"What are you doing here?" She asked again.
"Well I couldn't bear to not see you anymore! And now you know at least one person here in school right?"
"You are attending Sweet Amoris?" She murmured. "Lovely. Listen Ken I really have to go."
She left him alone. As she made her way she paused in a courtyard. It was pretty here. The place was filled with trees. She got happy looking at one that seemed made for climbing. A shard of her past? Had she liked climbing trees or something? She smiled pleasantly.
As she turned to leave though she was again halted. This time by herself crashing into someone.
"Hey!" He snapped and she glared at him as well.
"Watch where you're going!" He snapped.
She glared right back. "Are you always this friendly or am I just lucky?"
He crossed his arms and frowned at her. She felt him raking her with his gaze. He paused at her legs and then traveled up to her revealed stomach. Lastly he refocused on her eyes. He didn't flinch at the oddness of their color.
"Yeah especially with new students… I'm Castiel."
"Lucia…" She muttered. She held his gaze which seemed to surprise him in some way. Was it odd?
After a moment she turned on her heel and left without saying anything else. He certainly was interesting. She had felt something spark. She could see perfectly someone's eyes. Someone had used to glare at her like that a lot.
She was stopped in the hall by an old woman with glasses. Her gray hair was pulled into a tight bun. She surveyed Lucia who was starting to be annoyed. The next person to survey her like she was a pork chop was going to be very lucky if she could control herself.
"You must be Lucia. That skirt is much to revealing when you walk. And that top… Well it is far too revealing for one so young as you."
Lucia merely cocked a brow and crossed her arms. She liked her outfit. It was easy to maneuver in. The top was sleeveless and covered only her breasts and some of her stomach. The skirt was past her knees but it had many long slits that made the cloth sway around her so it revealed as much as it concealed. She wore a pair of leather ankle boots and some black fingerless gloves that came to her elbow. Lastly the sapphire necklace winked brightly from between her breasts.
"Anyway you should go see Nathaniel. He can get you enrolled and show you your schedule. The student council room is right there." She said as a goodbye.
Lucia was just preparing to go in the room when she was rather rudely pushed. She turned to see what had to be the schools popular nasties.
The one who led the little pack had big blond curls that really didn't suit her at all. And far too much makeup. The other had a pony tail that was so perfect Lucia wanted to rip it from her head. And the last was putting on what Auntie had called lipstick. Way too much of it as well. Anymore and she'd look like a clown.
"You must be the new student. Well with a girl like this and that other guy we didn't get lucky this year did we girls?!"
They laughed shrilly. It grated on her nerves to listen to it.
"You'd best move out of our way. And don't even think of going after Nathaniel!"
Lucia rolled her eyes. Was everyone here obsessed with finding love or something?
Still she didn't like this girls tone. So she smirked. Something uncoiled a bit inside her and made her want to see this girl cry.
"Well now I haven't met this Nathaniel yet. But if he is so important to you… Maybe he can become important to me instead?"
"You better watch it new girl! I'll make you seriously regret it if you touch him."
"Too much makeup… Too much hair product… And you laugh like a hyena. Not to mention your nasty little attitude. How you manage to get up in the morning baffles me. But with all this it shouldn't be hard to convert little Nathaniel over to my side." Lucia smirked.
But that sentence… It sounded familiar…
Convert… To our side….
"Listen here you-"
As the blond grabbed her Lucia left her memory fragment in the dust and she knocked the gripping hand from her. She used the momentum to shove the girl into the wall rather harshly. The sudden fear both sickened her and pleased her.
"No I think I won't be listening." Lucia leaned in close. "Check the attitude when you see me. Or else next time I'll do more than make your back sore."
With a final shove she let the blond slip from her fingers. She walked past the other two who were gaping like fish. She drank in their anger and felt like laughing.
After she was away though she felt guilty. What was wrong with her? While it was happening she wanted to make them all bleed. She had wanted to see that violent color and hear their fear laced voices. Now she felt sickened with herself…
I truly do despise myself… Why did I have to exist?
She froze when the voice danced across her thoughts. She knew it was her voice. Just what was wrong with her? She had to remember her past… It was very important that these voices, these shards stopped haunting her in weird ways.
Her past self would be put to rest.
With the thought she opened a door and stepped in. The room contained some file cabinets and a long table surrounded by chairs. One student sat there. He had his blond head bent and was scribbling swiftly on some paperwork. He looked very busy.
"Hello… I'm looking for Nathaniel." Lucia said after a moment.
He looked up and she was greeted by warm golden eyes. He seemed to blush a bit when he looked her over. She walked further into the room. His eyes tracked her movements.
"That would be me. I'm Nathaniel. And you must be Lucia."
"Yes."
He cleared his throat and gestured for her to hand over the folder of papers she had. Once he had them he quickly sifted through them. He occasionally wrote his signature.
"Well you're basically okay… But you're missing some things. You still need the form with your Guardians signature and a photo id."
"Are you sure? I checked it all over myself." Lucia crossed her arms.
He cleared his throat again. He had a habit of that. "Just to be sure I'll check again. Come back later and we'll see if it's all settled."
"Alright I'll go get an id. Any idea where I get that?"
"Try the dollar store. It's not far from school. Just make a right and follow it straight down."
"Mm Thanks!" She winked at him before she darted from the room.
And who would be in the hall but the three plastics?
She smiled pleasantly and walked past them. This time they didn't hassle her.
She went back to the courtyard. She didn't really feel like the walk to the dollar store. It wasn't like it was a pressing issue. She wouldn't be attending classes today anyway. And she was getting tired.
She found the same tree she had been staring at earlier. Nobody was around. She reached out and grasped a branch and easily pulled herself up. Once she had pulled herself high enough to not be easily seen she settled herself. Her back pressed against the trunk and she let one leg dangle from her thick branch. The other lay against the branch easily.
A cool breeze caressed her cheek and made her close her eyes. It was so peaceful. She felt safer then she had recently. It was an odd feeling.
She was running through a mountain path surrounded by trees. Her legs were burning and her heart pounded. Blood covered her. She could feel it running down her arm and congealing onto her fingers. She was leaving a trail of it but that didn't matter. Where she was they could never follow.
She had to make sure… Of what? It was so important! She had to know. All she knew was they had to be lying.
The scene changed and she was standing outside a building. Fury and a bloodlust burned in her core. They would pay.
"Hey little girl!"
The voice burst across the dream and made her arch up. The action made her slip slightly. She quickly straddled the branch with her thighs and clenched onto the rough bark to hold her steady. Her heart pounded.
A dream… A dream interrupted by Castiel. His eyes were narrowed and he was braced as though to catch her. He relaxed after a second when he noticed she wasn't going to fall.
He was looking at her legs again. When she was asleep he had stumbled on her by accident. Something had told him to look up. She had been reclining so peacefully. The cloth of her skirt had slipped away to leave her whole thigh bare to him. Her porcelain skin looked as smooth as cream.
She shifted so she could dangle both her legs over and crossed one over the other.
"What are you doing?"
"Well I just got here and their already pestering me about paperwork."
Castiel smirked and relaxed his crossed arms. "Yeah I know what you mean. Good luck with that idiot president."
His tone was so familiar. She could feel the current of it and smirked. He sounded very amused with the idea of her being stuck with Nathaniel.
"You have a problem with him I take it." She commented dryly. She reclined back against the tree.
"Yeah I've never seen anyone so uptight in my life." His demeanor relaxed some more but his face tightened slightly. It obviously wasn't the whole story but it was part of it.
Lucia thought about the serious student she left in the council room. Despite the fact it was public school he wore a uniform. And the pens lining his pocket were all straight. She bet they all had black ink and were ball point.
"Hmm. I bet you're right about that." She said thoughtfully.
His attitude shifted more and he relaxed. His lips turned up in a small smirk that made him seem more approachable. It was a nice change from the defensive arm cross and glare he'd been sporting with her. She smiled with him and it was a small moment. A small shift somewhere in the air. It was a moment of perfect accord between them.
"Well you'd better go get it done. Otherwise they'll never leave you alone." He smirked.
Lucia frowned. She really didn't feel like the walk…. But she supposed if she didn't they'd call Auntie in. And she didn't want to see Auntie angry on her first day. If the fairy wearing adult could get angry that is. She seemed to float between a cheerfulness that dripped honey to a concern that screamed "Let me help!"
"This is annoying." She muttered.
She leaped from the tree without thought. Castiel hadn't expected her action and he gasped slightly. But he caught himself and managed to grab her before she hit the ground. She hadn't expected his move and therefore she reached out on instinct when he pulled her to him.
As he took her weight he stumbled back a step but kept his feet. He noted her hands clenched in his jackets material and her wide eyes. Her face was slightly red… It was the first time he'd seen her without a partially dreamy face.
"What the hell were you thinking?! What would you have done if I hadn't been here to catch you?" He snapped irritably.
She blushed worse and he couldn't help but feel a bit manlier for some reason.
"I would have landed on my feet, duh." She muttered.
"You aren't a cat." He retorted.
Lucia sighed. "Look won't you… Please get your hands off before you continue your rant? I don't even know you so…"
Castiel finally realized where his hands had settled in his heroic act. He had his hands on either side of her, the palms of his hands caressing her breasts as his fingers dug into her back.
"Ah… Yeah." He mumbled and released her.
Lucia jerked away. Her heart was pounding. Heat had pooled into her cheeks. That moment of peace had shattered to be filled with awkwardness she wasn't sure she wanted to breach. She didn't like the way his touch had affected her. His hands there had felt nice. It had created a wave through her body she couldn't remember if she'd ever felt before.
Now she could vaguely understand how Ken had felt earlier. It was a similar situation. Only it was reverse. She was the one without words while Castiel was the one staring at her calmly.
"I have to go." She muttered and pushed him aside to leave the school grounds.
Castiel watched her go. He couldn't help but notice the catlike grace in her walk. It was fluid and unhurried. But he had the distinct impression she could go from a relaxed to action in a millisecond.
And his original thought had been right… Her skin was soft.
'What girl's skin isn't soft?" He muttered to himself. "God I must need to get laid bad."
Yeah, that was it.
Lucia twisted the sapphire between her fingers as she walked. The town really was small. Abnormally so.
She pushed open the door to the dollar store and glanced around. A photo booth was in the corner. Lucia gazed around the store until she saw what had to be the clerk.
"Scuse me?" He turned to her. "Um, how do you use this thing?"
He had a pleasant enough face. Even if his clothes were too bright. He came around the counter and showed her where to insert her bills. Ten dollars was a lot she thought. It was supposed to be a dollar store. Throwing a zero after the one didn't sound like a dollar to her.
She thanked him anyway and went back along her way. She got back to school and went to the council room. Nathaniel looked up when she cam in.
"Ah you're back finally." Was his voice a tad accusing? "I found your paperwork. Now all I need is the entrance fee and a student id copy."
She handed it all over. He glanced at her picture and put it into a manila folder. Along with her other paperwork. The money went in a locked file cabinet. Finally he grabbed the folder and turned to look at her.
"Well in any case welcome to Sweet Amoris High." He smiled a bit.
The smile relaxed his face and made him more approachable. Why she was noticing things like that were beyond her. But all day she had been observing the other students body postures and expressions.
"Hmm. I didn't get a chance to show you around earlier. Would you like me to now?"
"No thanks. I think I've ran around this school enough for a day." She smiled.
"I can imagine. Then I'll see you tomorrow."
She left him then and was going to walk home. Before she could though a familiar red head popped into her vision.
"Yo Lucia! You heading home?"
"Yeah I'm more than ready to go curl up under my covers." She winked. "Wanna join?"
"Ha in dreams little girl." He smirked.
"Yours naturally."
"Yeah right." He returned.
"You know your shirt…"
He gave her a look. "What? Does it remind you of some little cartoon you watch?"
She shoved him a bit. "Oh shush. Its some rock band isn't it?"
Castiel gaped at her a moment before he recovered. His trademark smirk graced his features as he put a hand on his hip. "Oh so the little new girl knows about the Winged Skull band?"
"I listen to rock every now and again… It's not the worst thing out there."
"Huh, I don't know many girls who listen to them…" He seemed to study her again. Then he grinned. It wasn't his usual smirk. "Hey wanna see something cool?"
"… Sure I guess."
He led her through several floors. She didn't think the school was so large. He told her he had stolen the keys from the teachers lounge. She shook her head and smiled at how pleased he sounded.
When he opened the door and she stepped out onto the school roof however she could see why. It was an awesome view. If she looked she could see her apartment complex. And also the few stores scattered here and there.
"Wow." She murmured.
Suddenly something clicked in her.
"We have to have a good balance. You're useless if you can't." A cold voice sneered.
"I'm not useless!" She snapped.
"Lucia!" Another voice shouted as she tumbled from her moment of broken concentration.
It was gone too.
When Castiel turned from making sure the door wouldn't slam shut he received a shock.
"What the hell Lucia?!"
End chapter one
Author note: Well here it is. So what did you all think? Don't worry they aren't in love yet. And they may never be. You won't know until I write that chapter. I really want some opinions.
How was Lucia?
Does Castiel seem ooc?
Did you see any mistakes that need to be edited out?
I'd greatly appreciate any feedback you'd be willing to give.