I don't own SWAC but I do own the plot line of this story :) Enjoy

Tell me if I'm crazy obsessed...or insane. Tell me if there is something wrong with me. I need to know. I already know that I'm not normal, I never was. My mind doesn't...work the same as everybody else's. I'm different. But how does that explain the way I feel? Whenever I see his picture my heart beats like a jackrabbit, when I see him acting I can't help smiling. How can this happen with someone I've never met? Someone that I've never seen in person? Is it some kind of love? Fate? A soulmate principle? Or is it just lust? Fantasy? An obsession? A dream that can never be real? How do I know? Who can tell me?

Chad Dylan Cooper is one of the sole obsessions for a girl's crush. Other girls research him and find out everything they can. They are obsessed with things about him that are not merely important. Everything they talk about has to do with Chad. They tack his last name onto their names and they try to visualize a life with him. I know this because some of my friends do it, and I'm not so different, am I?

I do try to find out what I can, sometimes, but it's not a 24/7 thing, and I think if I were to actually meet him I would love to find out more, directly from him. I talk about him, but I can control it, I don't need to talk about him every second. I am obsessed, but not with stupid things like the way he flips his hair like my friends are because if we were to meet him what would they do just keep asking him to flip his hair, that would be awkward and weird. No, I'm obsessed with his eyes and his smile. Like every other girl with a crush I couldn't help tacking his last name onto mine. I have never tried to visualize, but I have seen more like dreamed (literally it was a dream), a life with him. With the other girls it keeps changing and they want it to be perfect, so nothing is certain. But what I saw...it was a quick glimpse, but I was certain that it was a permanent scene. Nothing changes when I think about it. The number of kids, their names, their faces and personalities. I saw it and knew it all. It doesn't change.

I wonder if he thinks about it too. Finding the perfect person, his soulmate. Wondering if she's out there thinking about him. I wonder if he thinks about her, her personality, quirks, characteristics, habits, hobbies, likes and dislikes. I wonder if he thinks about me, without the knowledge of me. Without knowing the girl who may possibly be his soulmate.

I probably am insane...talking like this. It doesn't make sense, it may nevermakesense! Sometimes I cry myself to sleep with the sheer insanity of it, because I have to be fooling myself... fooling and hurting myself.

Tell me if I'm crazy obsessed or insane. Tell me if there is something wrong with me. Tell me if...

I closed my diary and got off of my bed. I stuck the book in the drawer of my desk. I went out into the living room and turned on my CD player and blasted one of my demo CDs. My mom hated when I played my music so loud, but whatever. She wasn't home and I hate when the house is completely quiet. I went in the kitchen to wash the dishes. It didn't take as long as I thought it would so I decided to clean the rest of the kitchen while I was in there. Then I went to go and get ready to go out with Tawni, Addison and Kayla - my other C.D.C obsessed friends. I must have a problem, I thought, There has to be something wrong with me. There is no other explanation to why I can't get him out of my head. I put on my black sparkly ruffled skirt and yellow one shoulder top. No matter what I do he's always on my mind. I turned off my music. No matter how hard I try to keep him out of my head, he always finds a way back in. There was a knock on the door and I got up to open it. No matter... I couldn't finish the thought because I had just opened the door to find Chad Dylan Cooper standing on my front steps. Oh. My. God! "Are you Allison Munroe?" he asked me.

I couldn't speak, I could barely move, but somehow I managed to nod my head. "Congradulations Allison, you are going to be in the sixth season of Mackenzie Falls," he told me and smiled. Oh my god that smile!

"Oh my gosh. Really, I won the contest," I said and he nodded and smiled again.

Tell me if I'm dreaming. Tell me if the power of soulmates is so strong that it could bring us together like this. Tell me IF...

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:P Nessie :P