Gertie
She's beautiful. Her eyes are brown and her skin is so pale and she's crying and she's healthy and she's beautiful. She's beautiful. She's only in my arms a moment before the nurses start fussing all of a sudden. They take her and my heart aches. In the background I hear a steady high pitched beep and when I turn, the room is in panic. Bella is so tired. She's resting but the nurses are fussing around her. I tell her to wake up, so she can see our baby, so I can kiss her, so I can tell her how proud I am, so we can be mommy and daddy after waiting so long, so we can be glad at the little life we've created. She won't listen to me.
"Sweetheart, I love you. Wake up. You need to look at her. Look at how beautiful our daughter is. Wake up. You're missing it. Baby. I love you. Wake up. Wake up."
There are arms around me and they're strong. Dragging me backwards. Dragging me away.
"Bella, I love you. Wake up. It's me. She's so beautiful. You need to see her. Baby, wake up."
I'm angry. Why won't she wake up? I'm dragged further away and her face slips out of my sight. What are they doing to her? Why won't they tell me what's going on? Why won't she wake up? I'm shoved into the hallway and I don't know how to be thinking.
I pace. Why won't they let me see her? I want to see my wife. I want to see my daughter. The nurse is walking toward me and I yell at her when she tells me to calm down. Of course I'm calm. I'm just desperate to see my family. Why is she keeping them from me?
"What is going on? Why can't I see my baby? Why can't I see my wife? Are they okay? Is the baby okay? Tell me what's going on, goddammit."
"The baby is fine, she's perfectly healthy, I assure you."
"And my wife, is she okay?"
"Your wife had an aneurysm."
"So what does that mean? Is she okay?"
"I'm so sorry, we lost her. The strain from pushing and the contractions must have…"
The floor beneath me shakes and all I can hear is that beeping.
I collapse just as the walls do.
Authors Note:
I just watched Jersey Girl and for some reason, this scene really got to me. I was so attached that I had to write a little something and this is the raw, unedited result. Sorry it's so short and sorry it's so sad.
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