IDENTITY CRISIS
By: WhiteLiar24
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Chapter 1:
NATSUME's POV:
Where should I go? This place isn't familiar to me. What should I do? My stomach is growling, and my feet are aching a lot for the long walk I've been doing for days. Is this my karma?
Maybe you're curious why I'm suffering like this, so let me tell you what happened:
I'm not your ordinary boy next door. I, Natsume Hyuuga, am the successor of a big modeling company and the son of a famous politician. I'm the messy raven haired guy with the very rare crimson orbs, the soon to be 'first son'. Yeah, you read it right. My half Japanese, half American father was the leading candidate for Presidency of U.S.A...
Being a public figure isn't a good idea for me. It sucks when my every action are measured, my private life are published, and my deepest secrets are revealed to the public. I badly wanted my life to be one with no regrets, freely lived, and full of contentment. But now, I suppose it's just impossible for someone like me... A life like that only exists in my wildest dreams...
It doesn't really bother me when Dad came to serve for the Government. When he became a Senator, it's just fine, I had no problems with that, since, and he's just a senator then... But not now... He's going to be the President... The President. Aye, the most powerful man in the world will be my Dad...
I should be happy for him, since he's the one who brought me up and taught me good manners, but, he's also the one who manipulated me like a puppet. I did everything he wanted. All my actions were based on his standards and all my decisions were concerned about him. I'm still searching for that particular thing that's meant for me, one thing that'll make me and my life complete... Because it seems all I do should be perfectly done. I want to break something, like a rule, or I want to have mistakes too.
I'm sick and tired with this boring life of mine; I want to be happy... That's all. Because... For the past years of my life, I never had... Fun.
So I did exactly what my heart urges me to do... A month before the elections, I set an appointment for us.
"Dad- I mean, Mr. Hyuuga," I said forgetting that he told me to stop calling him Dad.
"Tell me what you have to say quickly, I have loads of work to do." he responded, not even raising his head to look at me.
"Will you-" I started but he cut me out...
"Stop that, Natsume. I told you not to play with your fingers while you're talking." my father commanded like a general in an army.
"Will you drop your candidacy?" I said, still having my facade as the cold blooded Natsume Hyuuga.
"Are you out of your mind? Why would I? I'll be winning with all these supporters, what's the point of backing out?" he told me straightly without any hesitations in his voice.
"I have my reasons... Seriously, I want privacy... And that would not be accomplished when you take the role as the president." I also answered without hesitations. I never knew I can be this brave.
"And that's all?" he said to me like I just said something not enough for a reasoning.
"Yeah." I honestly retorted, feeling a bit nervous.
"You may get out." he ordered. I froze on that spot for about a minute when he continued, "You're being greedy and selfish. I did not teach you to be like that. Now, get out of my sight." he told me, I clenched my fist hearing those words, gathering all my guts.
"If you can't do that for me, then, I think it's better for me not to be your son from now on." I courageously stated, as he now looked at me in the eye.
"So that's what you're waiting for? Alright, I disown you as my child. So, now, get lost!" he replied with his emotionless face, and I walked straight to the door with the same poker face my father has. I packed my things, and get all my cash from the bank. I bought a ticket for Japan, my Mom's hometown. My flight was that same evening, and after many hours, I arrive in Japan and spent my money luxuriously with no idea that I'll be suffering in this state.
I've been wandering for hours here in Tokyo. My head is filled with thoughts roaming all over my mind. What will I gonna do next? My future's something unplanned, unlike before, everything is scheduled, organized, everything is fine... But ...I'm not really so much regretful about what I did. It's just that, I didn't think about it carefully. Or, should I say, I let my carelessness drive me insane. But I won't lose hope. Natsume Hyuuga never does...
I'm still ambling here in the streets, thinking about my one and only living relative here in Japan. He's my uncle, the only grandson of my mother's father's father... Or to be exact, my Mom's sibling. His name is Narumi. Uncle Narumi. So that's it... I need to find him... And seek some help... Anyway, I guess a job would do...
I called him, Thank God, I contacted his old number, and still it is active... Kring... Kring... Kring... Kring... Impossible. He would not pick up. Kring... If you want to leave a message, please speak after the beat. Tooot... Uncle Narumi, this is Natsume, the son of your only sister. Surprisingly, I'm here in Japan, exploring new environment... Doing things I've never done before... Searching for my new self... But anyways, can you please see me. I'm kinda not alright now... For I have no money left... And no shelter as well... I just hope you can help me find a job... Anything will do. I badly need it... So I won't go choosy over matters. What's important is that I can eat and sleep decently... Then, I hang up.
I want to be successful with this one for Dad disowned me, to prove that I can do anything with me and myself only... That I don't need him in any decisions I would make... That his standards are not basically my goal to live a great life... To avenge myself for everything I never experience because of him...
I'm grateful that I had such a wonderful family as that... But in Dad's case, he's not really the worst... But he controlled me for a lot of years... Planning for my future.
My, my, I got a text... It says here: "Natie-kun! It's nice to know that you're here in Tokyo. It's been a long time then. I'm busy right now, but if you're free this evening, I'll invite you for dinner to talk over matters." Natie-kun? Uh-...oh, kinda lame... But, Alright! He recieved my message! C'mon, I'm not gonna sleep here in streets! But my stomach can't wait for tonight... I guess I should have a noodle with these coins of mine.
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I changed my clothes into something formal. I usually wear this polo, necktie, and vest, together with the black blazer... and the slacks and black shoes. I felt like I'll be in a dinner meeting with some businessman...
When I arrived there, the striking long blonde hair of my uncle was the only way to recognize him... I searched... and there... My uncle is there sitting beside a copy of the painting Mona Lisa... but... Unexpectedly, he doesn't bring anyone... from a company... Is my attire not suitable for this kind of meeting? Anyway, I can handle myself...
And there... I raised my hand and Uncle noticed me. He urgently called me to sit in front of him, and I did exactly... I saw it in my own eyes; he's holding a contract... Curiosity looms all over my heart... I'm excited to know what will be my first and new job... as the disowned Natsume Hyuuga.
I'm surprised... He told me that... I'll be... a... Servant? Wait. Did I hear it right? For goodness sake... The son of the soon to be president will be a... Slave? but... Again, I'm disowned... He doesn't care anymore about me... And this is the only job available because according to Uncle, there is an economic crisis here in Japan... Unemployment is the main problem they're suffering now... I should be thankful about this... For it's a high paying job... and... most important of all... Free lodging. But... My pride is getting on the way... The ever bossy Natsume Hyuuga, will be a manservant? It sucks... For real! But... I made up my mind. I decided to sign the contract.
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NORMAL POV:
Narumi offered Natsume to stay in his place for this time. His job will start tomorrow and he should get ready for that kinda gross work for him...
Natsume is a heavy sleeper... And when he's exploring the dreamland, Narumi whispered in his ears... "I forgot to tell you... She's a man-hater. In that case, as you signed in the contract, you allowed everything that's required to get the job. Right? And now... I'll be doing this for your own good... So... Please forgive me." he injected some tranquilizer in his left shoulder and started the make over.
One morning, Natsume woke up in a very unfamiliar place, until he remembered that he'd gone to sleep in his Uncle's house. He felt quite weird about his hair... It became waist length... And his clothes were not the ones he wore last night... His wearing what you call... A dress? Wait. He's dreaming, right? This can't be... He consulted the nearest mirror... And found out... That... He now looks like a girl! He smirked. "What a funny dream. Ridiculous." he laughed and laughed and laughed at the sight of himself as a lady.
He's wearing a dress that's black, with snow white sleeves, frills hanging on the chest, with white vest, and pleated black skirt. His whole body's mini hairs were waxed, his hair was now waist length, his eyebrows were shaved, his eyelashes were extended and curled, his eyelids were black with eye liner, his lips were pink, as well as his cheeks, and as the base, his face was surrounded by natural colored foundation.
He just laughed at the sight... Until it reached the point of stomach aching. Wait, stomach aching? No, in a dream, you'll not have any stomach ache... That's not possible, you know. But... He's feeling not quite well about this, for the pain still lingers inside him... He laid down the bed... And closed his eyes... He knocked him self, reassuring that he's now awake... And when he opened his eyes, he ran to the mirror and... There. He looks pretty lovely...
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Narumi was almost meeting Death when Natsume stopped.
"So how would you explain this?" the raven haired asked glaring daggers at him.
"Oh- you're pretty strong! How'd you possibly lift me up just with the collar?" Narumi queried, avoiding the topic.
"Well... I'm good in martial arts," Natsume boasted with his expressionless face, "But you still didn't answer my question! What is this all about?" he continued as he pointed his own body.
-FLASHBACK-
Natsume saw his reflection with the use of a mirror. He believed he was dreaming then but when his stomach ached due to laughing, he found out that he already looked like a cute tall girl.
"I guess, I could be a model someday. With all these long legs and slender figure, I do have a future." Natsume said, trying to make a pose.
A while later, Natsume's eyes widened and his jaw dropped. It took a long time for the fact to sink in his mind. He touched the tips of his waist length hair, felt his flawless-newly shaven skin, and caressed his soft and smooth under made up face.
"Why the freakin' hell do I look like a lady?" Natsume exclaimed, crying his heart out.
Natsume was now out of control. His coolness were nowhere to be found. He never uncovered his facade for a whole lifetime, until this day came.
Natsume panicked not knowing how to get outside the small room since the only door was locked. He forcibly knocked repeatedly on it.
"Uncle! Uncle Narumi! Open this! Get me out of here!" Natsume called out loud. He continued knocking until he heard foot steps approaching the door. A key was inserted inside the hole, and click! It opened, revealing the blonde headed guy.
Natsume bursted when he now glared at the perpetrator of his insane look and outfit. He unexpectedly grabbed his collar, pushing him into the wall.
"What's this all about, Uncle?" Natsume calmly questioned Narumi.
"What are you talking about?" the Uncle answered, feigning innocent.
Natsume pulled Narumi up by his collar, almost choking him.
"Hmmm. Na-Natie-kun..." Narumi stammered.
"What a lame nickname," Natsume cut him off, "Stop calling me like that." he continued.
-END OF FLASHBACK-
"My beloved nephew, don't be too harsh towards your Uncle..." Narumi stated discreetly. Natsume replied with a punch, targeting the spot on the wall beside his face.
"Take it seriously." The raven haired stared at the blonde's orbs, grasping his wrist.
Narumi's cold sweat dropped. He could see Natsume's fierce eyes fixed into his. His heart skipped a beat for a second... Not knowing how to explain everything.
"The truth is, I'm not to blame! It's you who read the contents, agreed to the consequences, and signed the contract." Narumi reasoned out.
"I don't get it. Make it clear." Natsume commanded, bewildered at what he stated.
"I just did my best for you to qualify for the job." Narumi straightly told him.
"Is this what you're saying," he entreated, "are you kiddin' me?"
"No, I'm not."-Narumi
"Then, why didn't you tell me why?"-Natsume
"I'll be lying if I said I forgot to remind you... It's just that,"-Narumi
"Well?"-Natsume
"A man-hater." phrased Narumi.
"Come again?" Natsume didn't hear.
"She's a man-hater."-Narumi
"S-she? A man what? H-hater? Did I hear it right?" Natsume stuttered with a weird expression on his face.
"Yeah. You'll be serving a grown up wench about your age. And due to unknown circumstances, she's a man-hater." Narumi further explained, escaping his grasp.
"Why didn't you immediately tell me?"-Natsume
"I'm afraid you'll not be taking the it."-Narumi
"Of course! Who the heck will take this abnormal job?" Natsume yelled with fury.
"The desperate ones," he retorted and continued, "including you... Well, accept the fact that you badly need it."
"So, you're saying that..." Natsume replied waiting for him to continue the statement.
"For the mean time, you should stick to that disguise... until I found a work that's suitable for you." Narumi said, giving him a hint of hope.
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NATSUME's POV:
I shrink in fear with the thought of acting... that's not my forte, though I always wear my facade. But this is a different thing... Pretending as a girl? That would be crazy! I'll go nuts! Being a manservant is someth...ing that swallowed my pride. What more with being a MAID?
To accept the fact that the son of the soon-to-be-president will face such catastrophe as this one, that would be improbable. Not in my creepiest nightmares would I be in much worse situation.
Did I make a wrong decision? To think, I shouldn't be that greedy. Privacy is not really a big deal if your father will be the President of U.S.A. It's a big blessing, once in a lifetime chance. So? This is the result of my impulsive actions.
Of all people, why me? Why I should be so? I'm a little hopeless... But not too desperate! I didn't visualize that this will be happening to me!
Damn it. I excruciatingly realize now what I did. If I contemplated about this before hand, I would not be experiencing this torment. But...
I should face it. That's the best thing I can do. This is just a test that comes into my life once, twice, thrice, or many times possible. I know I'll be able to bear with it. This time, I'll stand by myself, not depending on anyone, but me only.
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Uncle Narumi is out, buying some food in the grocery. He heard my stomach growl so he decided to prepare a breakfast for us two. I descend down to the living room. Leaning to the sofa, I noticed a picture behind me. It was of a kid of about eight to ten years old.
I doubt she was that faggot's daughter. Her hair isn't blonde, instead, it was auburn. Her eyes were hazel colored, and she has light, almost fair complexion. She's short and chubby. Incredibly cute! But Aoi won't lose... How I miss my dearest sister! I wonder what she's doing now... Maybe her antics brought some severe headache in the family... Well, that's something forgivable... Unlike mine.
I threw aside the photograph. I headed to the bathroom, almost shocked with the mien and atmosphere. Well, it's my favorite color! How'd he know that I love pink?
Just being sarcastic! Of course, who the hell among the guys would love pink...? Uncle Narumi is really weird. Hmmm. What took him so long? It's been an hour since then... Uh. I'm starving...
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"You mean TODAY?" I snapped, causing the blondie to cringe.
"Y-yeah. After lunch, to be exact..." he muttered, taking a bite from the ginger bread.
"How would I-? Darn!" I slammed my utensils with angst, "Come on. This is not a cool joke... When will I, for god's sake, really start?"
"Honest to Goodness, it's t-today Natsume..." he slumped, bowing his head.
My world broke into pieces when I heard that. It's... Not awesome. I thought, this gayish relative of mine will train me... But no! What will I gonna do now? I guess I'll be having this job.
"Natsume, this is not to threat you... But..." Uncle cut in.
"What is it?" I asked with my voice full of curiousity.
"You'll be jailed-"-Narumi
"WHAT! Why will I? What law did I break? Is there something wrong?" I was trully threatened with the words.
"Wait. I'm not finished talking... You cut me off..." he continued, "You'll be jailed when you backed out."
"Huh?" I pardoned.
"In case you run away... I just assured everything... Dare defy the contract, and you'll know the consequences."
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I was walking through the street... Passing every house that failed his description. I'm surprised he didn't bring me there... Wherever it was.
Ambling, I stared at the sky... Until I stepped on something fleshy and juicy... I almost squeezed it until the pulp and it's juice ran out off the citrus fruit It's a tangerine. Well, where this fruit originally came from? I slowly looked back... when my face encountered a big shot from a foot sole.
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