Suicide

By: Amy Yuy

Disclaimers: I do not own Naruto.

Warnings: Possible deathfic, angst, yaoi, a little limey in the sex department.....

Amy: Hi, y'all! I have been batting this idea around in my head for about a month now. And I now have a little time with all the snow......

Sasu: What is with your hair?

Amy: Do not start with me Sasu-chan. The plot bunny might turn on you!

Sasu: What's the worst you could do to me!? Make me kiss Sakura? *laughing*

Naru: Sasu please do not make her angry! I don't want to spend another night in that room with the video camera!

Amy: I can do much worse, but for now on with the fic. And I apologize for the angst.....

Naruto woke up to the sun shining in his face. He tried to bury himself into the warm body next to him but he could not get away from the sunlight. So instead he looked at the dark haired boy who was sleeping next to him. Last night had been amazing, Naruto finally confessed to Sasuke. Now Naruto understood what it meant to be happy and to have someone who loved him.

Naruto brushed some bangs out of Sasuke's face, he looked so innocent and peaceful. Naruto could not resist kissing the soft, perfect lips of the boy next to him. Sasuke was slightly surprised that Naruto was kissing him but then he remembered what had happened last night.

"Good morning, love." Naruto whispered as he pulled back to look into Sasuke's eyes.

"Good morning, Naruto" Sasuke whispered back leering at Naruto.

Naruto giggled and kissed Sasuke again. "I love you, Sasuke!"

Sasuke looked a bit uneasy, "Me too." He mumbled back.

"What do you love about me, Sasuke?" Naruto asked with his wide blue eyes staring straight into Sasuke's black eyes.

"Naruto, I don't want to talk about this. It's girly to talk about our feelings. If you want to talk about your feelings maybe you should go find Sakura!" Sasuke squirmed a bit trying to not look at Naruto when he said this. "I need a shower." Sasuke got up and walked out of the room before Naruto could respond. Naruto was completely shocked into silence.

................................ Later that day

In an alley out of the veiw of nosey strangers Sasuke and Naruto are sharing a very heated kiss. Sasuke moved down to Naruto's neck, and Naruto let out a small whinper. "I love you!"

Sasuke let out a low growl "I want to fuck you right here and right now!"

"Don't you mean make love?" Naruto asked a little shocked to hear Sasuke say something so vulgar.

"Shut up and turn around!" Sasuke said as he pulled Naruto's pants down. Naruto did as he was told, but he did not like how Sasuke was talking to him.

.............................. The next day

"Naruto! Why are you two so late?" Sakura demanded as the two boys slowly walked up.

"I over sleep, and Sasuke was hogging the bathroom this morning" Naruto replied while yawning.

"And why was Sasuke at your apartment?" Sakura demanded.

"Because my apartment is having some work done on it." Sasuke answered smoothly before Naruto could blurt out anything.

"Well you can always come and stay with me Sasuke!" Sakura said batting her eye lashes. "Naruto, what's wrong?" She asked while since Naruto looked upset about something.

"Oh, it's nothing." Naruto turned his fake smile on Sakura.

...........................That night

"Why did you lie to Sakura? Are you ashamed of what we have?" Naruto asked while they cuddled in his bed.

"Stop asking these stupid questions! I am going home!" Sasuke quickly dressed and left the apartment.

Naruto laid in bed crying, not understanding what had happened. He loved Sasuke and he thought Sasuke loved him but there was something wrong. For right now he was just going to let it go and stop pressuring Sasuke. Maybe things would work themselves out on their own.

.....................A month later

'Well at least he stayed tonight. But my bed still feels empty.' Naruto thought while he watched Sasuke sleep. 'I can pretend that he loves me. But I am just fooling myself.' Naruto cuddled up into Sasuke's arms but it just felt wrong and empty. 'Nobody knows that we are involved like this. I am Sasuke's secret lover. I can't stand it when he flirts with those girls, but if I say something Sasuke gets angry and threatens to leave. And Sasuke's eyes look so hallow after sex, it's not love making as much as I want to pretend it is.' Naruto sighs. 'It is slowly killing me from the inside out. I can't even fake my smiles any more. I think people are noticing.' Naruto was too drained to continue thinking about all of this so he passed out.

.........................Two weeks later

'Well it is official it is killing me from the inside out.' Naruto thought while he was sitting in the grass on the top of a cliff looking over Konoha. He coughed up some blood into his hand, looking at it like it was nothing. 'Sasuke's love is like a poison to me. Every kiss, every caress I can feel a little more of me breaking inside.' Naruto wipes his hand in the grass but it does not do any good because more is just going to come up again. 'I wonder if Sasuke knows that he is hurting me or if he just doesn't care.'

Naruto gets up and walks to the edge of the cliff. Looking down he sees people he knows, like Neji walking Hinata back from the market. 'I wonder if Sasuke will miss me. Will he care that it was all his fault? Does it really matter? Will he just find a replacement for me once I am gone? Do I really care? I just want this to end. I just want to step over the edge.' Naruto takes his last step. "Goodbye, Sasuke-koi!"

Okay so this was going to be a one shot but I am feeling evil and I am going to draw it out. And the plot bunny took a left turn towards the end so this is different from what I had planned. In the next chapter we are going to look a little more at Sasuke.

Sasu: Why are you being so evil to us?!

Amy: It's not my fault! You angered the plot bunny.....But I really do love you guys!

Naru: *tears* You killed me! How could you do that! I thought you loved us!

Amy: -_- Sasu-chan go comfort your boyfriend! I don't have time to deal with his melt down!