Confused Moments
1 The Touch
DISCLAIMERS: I do not own ken. wish I did. =( but I also don't own TK and the other characters in the story. Just wanted to say that.
" Ok..this is my first time I wrote a fanfic. So like uhm..it may not be well done I guess but you can go ahead and read it and tell me what you think. "
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Ken sat down on his chair and looked out the window. He felt depressed and hurt all over since the day his brother died. Today was really a bright sunny day. Everyone is playing b- ball or shopping at the mall. He looked around outside, watching kids having fun. Until he saw these two boys who seem to be brothers, playing basketball. They were both laughing and showing each other new move's they have learned.
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" Come on Jim, show me your new move! " his older brother yelled.
" I'm not sure but i'll try.. "
The little boy was dribbling the ball and then was trying to throw the ball under him and catch it from the other side. But instead he missed and fell to the ground. The older brother laughed and helped him up.
" I guess I should have practiced more, huh Li? "
" Here, let me help you out."
His brother slowly showed each step and Jim watched him carefully. In no time he Jim knew how to do it too. Jim ran to Li and hugged him.
" Li, you're really a great brother. If it weren't for you, I would never had learn how to do it like you."
Li smiles and hugged him back.
" And if it weren't for you, Jim, I would have been bored with my life and wouldn't have anyone to hang with. "
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Ken watched them as they hug and then looked away, as tears started forming in his eyes. Looking down, what he was holding. A picture frame, with Sam picture inside, looking at him, and smiling.
I miss you , Sam.............I'm so sorry about everything....the pain I have caused.......................
He then got out a bottle, which is full with drug pills and opened the cap.
~*~
Davis came home after his basketball practice with TK. They both went inside Davis house sweating. As soon the got in, Davis ran to the refrigerator and opened it.
" Hey, TM are you hungry? " he said as he was grabbing for some ice cream .
" Its TK, idiot and no thanks. I got to get going. "
" Hey! wait a minute " Davis went up to TK and grabbed on hold of him. " Is it true that you and Kari are going out?"
" What??!!!"
" You and Kari!"
" Oh..not really. We both decided its better off to be just friends. Since we feel like we are brother and sisters in a way. I mean .. I dont really like her in that way."
" OH Really! Great!"
" Can I go now?"
" Yeah, you can go. See you tomorrow! "
Ha. What a joke. Davis thinks that he could get Kari to go out with him now, since she and I aren't together anymore. To bad he doesn't know the other half of the story, that she is secretly going out with Willis. Oh well, he'll find out soon.
TK grabbed his basketball and left.
Hm.I wonder how Ken is doing. Maybe I should give him a call. I mean he needs someone to talk after all those things he has been through.
TK went home and had a little snack. As soon he was finished, he took a quick shower and got dressed. As he finally finished he looked at the clock.
Great, it's only 4:56 p.m. , I guess I call Ken.
" Hello, this is Ichijouji resident "
" Uh...uhm.. Hi. This is TK, is Ken there? "
" Are you one of his friends? I'm so happy that he finally made friends.( hear a little crying in the background) Uhm... hold on please"
TK heard his mother calling for Ken in the background.
"Ken! Ken..honey..! Ken??!!??!! "
( hear a door open)
( screams)
" Hello? Hello? Is something-wrong Mrs. Ichijouji? Hello? " TK stood there holding on to the phone for 2 minutes longer but then decided to hang up.
I wonder what's wrong...There was a scream..Ken..Ken! Ken must be hurt or something.. I gotta go to his house to make sure he is alright.
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Huh? Ugh.....Where am I? Why am I in the hospital? Oh yeah. Damn, why didn't I die. Ugh..
He tries to move but couldn't. So he decided to turn his head instead. He saw his parents in the same room with him crying. He was shocked as he watched them weep.
Why are they crying..? I thought they never would even care if I ever disappeared. All they care about is me being a genius. If they are crying..they must do care. .....NO! they dont love me! They don't understand me! They dont even care about me.
" Ken..Ken? Honey are you ok? Are you alright? " His mother came over to him and start weeping on him, which made him more surprised." Ken..im so sorry for being a terrible parent. Please forgive me. Give me another chance. "
Should I ? Should I give her another chance? I think I should. It does really seem they do care. I guess I made them worried about me a lot.
Ken looked down with his hair covering his eyes. .... Covering his tears.
" I..i'm .. sorry ..too. IM SORRY. I forgive you mom. please dont cry. I know I must have made you worried sick about me but please dont cry. Please...." even though his hand were weak, he slowly lifted it up and put it on his mother hands.
" Ken..(smiles) I'm so happy you're all right. I thought I was gonna lose you like I loosed Sam, your brother." she lifted up her other hand and wiped her tears.
" Honey, there is also someone here to see you. I think your dad and me will leave so you both can talk. " She then gave a quick kiss on top of Ken's head and left with Mr. Ichijouji.
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TK was outside where Ken hospital room was.
..I can't believe Ken would do such a thing. I just can't believe it. Hope he is doing well in there...but why am I so worried about Ken. I mean really...worried..Maybe it because..
Suddenly , Ken's hospital room doors open interrupting his thoughts. Mr. Ichijouji and Mrs. Ichijouji came out.
" He's awake honey. Go on in and see him. (smiles) hopefully you might make him laugh "
TK smiled and went in.
"Ken..?"
" Who is it? "
" Uhm.. its TK. "
" Oh. its you. "
TK walked in and sat down on a chair that was next to him.
" Are you alright? "
" Yeah, just a little dizzy. (Pauses) Hey, why are you here? "
" Uhm.. uh.. I called you today but it seemed you weren't able to come to the phone. So I came to your house and saw your mom. She told me you were sent to the hospital and I wanted to follow along to make sure you will be alright. "
Ken turns over to the other side of the wall, staring into the ceiling. Looking through it, as if nothing was there.
" But why? But. ..why did you call me? "
" To talk and hang out..."
" Oh really, that's it , Huh? "
" No. Ken.. I uh.. " TK lifted his hand and put it on top of Ken's right hand. Suddenly he started to tremble his hand. Ken turned over to look at him. Wondering.
" I ........"
What the hell I'm doing? What am I doing? Am I..............gay? I can't be. I can't be in love with Ken. But why is my hand is shaking as I put my hands on to his. No.. this isn't right! I can't deal with this right now!
TK suddenly lifted up his hand back up and stood up.
" I'm sorry. I'm really sorry. I know I shouldn't be here....hope you feel better! " TK grabbed his hat and ran off.
Ken watched him as he runs off . He lifted his head back to the wall and wondered what just happened.
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1 The Touch
DISCLAIMERS: I do not own ken. wish I did. =( but I also don't own TK and the other characters in the story. Just wanted to say that.
" Ok..this is my first time I wrote a fanfic. So like uhm..it may not be well done I guess but you can go ahead and read it and tell me what you think. "
___________________________________________________________
Ken sat down on his chair and looked out the window. He felt depressed and hurt all over since the day his brother died. Today was really a bright sunny day. Everyone is playing b- ball or shopping at the mall. He looked around outside, watching kids having fun. Until he saw these two boys who seem to be brothers, playing basketball. They were both laughing and showing each other new move's they have learned.
____
" Come on Jim, show me your new move! " his older brother yelled.
" I'm not sure but i'll try.. "
The little boy was dribbling the ball and then was trying to throw the ball under him and catch it from the other side. But instead he missed and fell to the ground. The older brother laughed and helped him up.
" I guess I should have practiced more, huh Li? "
" Here, let me help you out."
His brother slowly showed each step and Jim watched him carefully. In no time he Jim knew how to do it too. Jim ran to Li and hugged him.
" Li, you're really a great brother. If it weren't for you, I would never had learn how to do it like you."
Li smiles and hugged him back.
" And if it weren't for you, Jim, I would have been bored with my life and wouldn't have anyone to hang with. "
____
Ken watched them as they hug and then looked away, as tears started forming in his eyes. Looking down, what he was holding. A picture frame, with Sam picture inside, looking at him, and smiling.
I miss you , Sam.............I'm so sorry about everything....the pain I have caused.......................
He then got out a bottle, which is full with drug pills and opened the cap.
~*~
Davis came home after his basketball practice with TK. They both went inside Davis house sweating. As soon the got in, Davis ran to the refrigerator and opened it.
" Hey, TM are you hungry? " he said as he was grabbing for some ice cream .
" Its TK, idiot and no thanks. I got to get going. "
" Hey! wait a minute " Davis went up to TK and grabbed on hold of him. " Is it true that you and Kari are going out?"
" What??!!!"
" You and Kari!"
" Oh..not really. We both decided its better off to be just friends. Since we feel like we are brother and sisters in a way. I mean .. I dont really like her in that way."
" OH Really! Great!"
" Can I go now?"
" Yeah, you can go. See you tomorrow! "
Ha. What a joke. Davis thinks that he could get Kari to go out with him now, since she and I aren't together anymore. To bad he doesn't know the other half of the story, that she is secretly going out with Willis. Oh well, he'll find out soon.
TK grabbed his basketball and left.
Hm.I wonder how Ken is doing. Maybe I should give him a call. I mean he needs someone to talk after all those things he has been through.
TK went home and had a little snack. As soon he was finished, he took a quick shower and got dressed. As he finally finished he looked at the clock.
Great, it's only 4:56 p.m. , I guess I call Ken.
" Hello, this is Ichijouji resident "
" Uh...uhm.. Hi. This is TK, is Ken there? "
" Are you one of his friends? I'm so happy that he finally made friends.( hear a little crying in the background) Uhm... hold on please"
TK heard his mother calling for Ken in the background.
"Ken! Ken..honey..! Ken??!!??!! "
( hear a door open)
( screams)
" Hello? Hello? Is something-wrong Mrs. Ichijouji? Hello? " TK stood there holding on to the phone for 2 minutes longer but then decided to hang up.
I wonder what's wrong...There was a scream..Ken..Ken! Ken must be hurt or something.. I gotta go to his house to make sure he is alright.
~*~
Huh? Ugh.....Where am I? Why am I in the hospital? Oh yeah. Damn, why didn't I die. Ugh..
He tries to move but couldn't. So he decided to turn his head instead. He saw his parents in the same room with him crying. He was shocked as he watched them weep.
Why are they crying..? I thought they never would even care if I ever disappeared. All they care about is me being a genius. If they are crying..they must do care. .....NO! they dont love me! They don't understand me! They dont even care about me.
" Ken..Ken? Honey are you ok? Are you alright? " His mother came over to him and start weeping on him, which made him more surprised." Ken..im so sorry for being a terrible parent. Please forgive me. Give me another chance. "
Should I ? Should I give her another chance? I think I should. It does really seem they do care. I guess I made them worried about me a lot.
Ken looked down with his hair covering his eyes. .... Covering his tears.
" I..i'm .. sorry ..too. IM SORRY. I forgive you mom. please dont cry. I know I must have made you worried sick about me but please dont cry. Please...." even though his hand were weak, he slowly lifted it up and put it on his mother hands.
" Ken..(smiles) I'm so happy you're all right. I thought I was gonna lose you like I loosed Sam, your brother." she lifted up her other hand and wiped her tears.
" Honey, there is also someone here to see you. I think your dad and me will leave so you both can talk. " She then gave a quick kiss on top of Ken's head and left with Mr. Ichijouji.
~*~
TK was outside where Ken hospital room was.
..I can't believe Ken would do such a thing. I just can't believe it. Hope he is doing well in there...but why am I so worried about Ken. I mean really...worried..Maybe it because..
Suddenly , Ken's hospital room doors open interrupting his thoughts. Mr. Ichijouji and Mrs. Ichijouji came out.
" He's awake honey. Go on in and see him. (smiles) hopefully you might make him laugh "
TK smiled and went in.
"Ken..?"
" Who is it? "
" Uhm.. its TK. "
" Oh. its you. "
TK walked in and sat down on a chair that was next to him.
" Are you alright? "
" Yeah, just a little dizzy. (Pauses) Hey, why are you here? "
" Uhm.. uh.. I called you today but it seemed you weren't able to come to the phone. So I came to your house and saw your mom. She told me you were sent to the hospital and I wanted to follow along to make sure you will be alright. "
Ken turns over to the other side of the wall, staring into the ceiling. Looking through it, as if nothing was there.
" But why? But. ..why did you call me? "
" To talk and hang out..."
" Oh really, that's it , Huh? "
" No. Ken.. I uh.. " TK lifted his hand and put it on top of Ken's right hand. Suddenly he started to tremble his hand. Ken turned over to look at him. Wondering.
" I ........"
What the hell I'm doing? What am I doing? Am I..............gay? I can't be. I can't be in love with Ken. But why is my hand is shaking as I put my hands on to his. No.. this isn't right! I can't deal with this right now!
TK suddenly lifted up his hand back up and stood up.
" I'm sorry. I'm really sorry. I know I shouldn't be here....hope you feel better! " TK grabbed his hat and ran off.
Ken watched him as he runs off . He lifted his head back to the wall and wondered what just happened.
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