Chapter 1: Hated
"Bella?" Charlie asked when we sat in the kitchen eating dinner. Had he bean talking to me? I hadn't even noticed.
"Hm?" He looked weird, nervous or something. Wonder what it was?
"Bella, how are you? You never speak, you almost never eat, only enough for staying alive and you never meet any of your friends anymore…" He trailed of. By the way, what friends? They are never even trying to speak to me. But I wasn't going to tell Charlie that, he would call their parents and make a scene, and then every one would hate me more. Charlie continued. "There is thin bonfire down at La Push tomorrow that Billy invited us to, you should go. It's for hole La Push plus friends how are invited, like you and me. You could make some friends." I didn't want to go to La Push; I wanted to sit up in my room doing nothing.
"Mm…" Was all he got for answer. Charlie looked frustrated. It seemed like I had to go anyway. "Are you going?" I asked.
"If I make you go, I have to go myself, right?" He answered and seemed happy for the fact that I had asked him something. I tried to smile but I'm pretty sure I failed. The rest of the dinner we spend in silence. When we were done, I washed the plates and put them to dry.
Charlie went to the living room to watch baseball and I went to my room to do some homework. When I was done with everything except the math, the phone rang.
"Bella!" Charlie shouted from the living room, "The phone!" I sighed and got up from my chair where I had bean sitting.
"Hello?" I asked when I picked up the phone.
"Oh, hi Bella" I heard Billy's voice in the other end. "Is Charlie available?" He asked.
"Sure, wait a minute" I took the phone with me down the old stairs and into the living room. Charlie looked up. "It's Billy" I said, "He wants to talk to you". I handled Charlie the phone while he mumbled something that sounded like 'thank you'. He put the phone to his ear and I turned around and began to walk up the stairs back to my room. I heard him say hi to Billy before I got into my room again.
The next morning I woke up one and a half hour early but Charlie had already got to work anyway. I got up and grabbed my bathroom purse (A/N: I have no idea if that's what it's called) and went to the bathroom. I watched myself in the mirror. I could understand a part of why Ed- he left me, I wasn't even a little pretty. My skin was white as snow, and I never got tan in the summer, not even burned like some people. My hair never looked natural. It looked eider like a birdhouse or fake. I striped my clothes of and let my hair out to lie on my shoulders. I got into the shower and let the hot water warm me up. When I was done in the shower, I brushed my teeth, got dressed and put on some mascara. I went downstairs and into the kitchen and took out the milk, a cereal box and a bowl. While I sat there, in the kitchen, eating, I thought about the bonfire tomorrow. I wonder if Jacob was going to be there, he, Billy, Rachelle and Rebecca was the only ones I knew from La Push. But of course, I knew that Rachelle and Rebecca didn't lives in La Push anymore. One of them moved to Hawaii or something and the other somewhere closer, I didn't remember exactly where. I didn't know who it was that lived on Hawaii eider. When I was done, I dished all the dishes by hand to have something to do. This didn't worked as long as I had hoped. Everything I had done this morning, shower, brush my teeth, get dressed, eat breakfast and do the dishes, had only taken about an hour. There was one and a half hour left until it was time to go to school. What should I do now?
I decided to check my e-mails so I went upstairs to turn my computer on. The computer was so slow that it had taken one more half hour when I had opened my e-mail. One new, from Rene. Of course.
Hi Bella,
How are you? I haven't heard from you since Wednesday. Me and Phil are doing great! Tomorrow I'm goi-
The computer went black.
"What the!? What happened!?" I screamed to myself, "Crap. Damn, old computer!" I punched the computer, but since I didn't wanted it to break down totally, I punched it carefully. When I saw the clock, I almost panicked. I should have left five minutes ago! I rushed down the stairs, grabbed my bag while I was running and out the door. I looked it as fast as I was able to with my clumsiness and hurried to the truck.
I was lucky. Normally, I got to school about 15 minutes before my first lesson started. So now, I came to school ten minutes before the first lesson instead. On my way to my looker, I passed Jessica and Lauren. I heard Jessica whisper something in Lauren's ear. It sounded like 'Naw, where is Bella's Prince Charming now?' She obviously wanted me to hear her. They laughed at me while I continued going, pretending I didn't heard them.
My first lesson was biology. Oh no. I'm always having a hard time going through those lessons. That's where I first talked to him. As I walked towards the classroom I passed Lauren again. She just glared at me this time and I sighed. This was going to be a long day.
When I got to the classroom I, as usual, needed to hold myself together by hard hugging my torso. I sat down at my desk and sighed. Why couldn't I just be home schooled? It would so much easier.
Normally, I would get happy – wait, not happy. That's the wrong word but relieved – when it was lunch. I couldn't help but glance over to the table where the Cull-they always sat. I bought an apple and water and walked over to the table where I always sat, all alone. I looked over to the table where everybody that was my friends sat – Eric, Tyler, Lauren, Jessica and Mike, Angela and Ben, I couldn't understand how the two last ones could do this to me – just to see Jessica and Mike kissing. Ugh. Guess they're back together again, then. It didn't looked romantic at all. I ate my apple and got up from my seat and went back to my locker to get my books for the next lesson.