We had been apart for so long, I almost forgot how enthralling Tegan could be. We had been months into planning our new record and recently released Tegan's song Closer as the single.
Closer meant a lot to me. Before we agreed to create Heartthrob, Tegan had to beg to even speak of making a new record, I admittedly had self doubt. I felt like the next record with a pop spin would be a flop... Tegan wrote Closer for me and then we made adjustments together; I added the line "Let's make things physical". We never went into in depth conversation about who closer was really about, not all fans would be okay with it. Fans would jump to the conclusion that Tegan wrote Closer about me but we would not deflect that view; because it was indisputably correct.
Tegan and I found it hard working on albums together from two distant states so we spent a lot of our time going from hotels and back home again every now and then. I felt jealous every time Tegan and I would separate because I was visiting Mum or Stacy, who was kind of dating me exclusively but I couldn't say I truly loved her. It was more of a convenience thing. Tegan had Lindsey, We hung out with Jack and Rachel a lot, which Rachel just happened to be best friends with Stacy. She had come out with us quite a bit and everything fell into place in a matter of suitability. But I knew while I was away from Tegan, She would have been cuddled up on the couch with Lindsey in her arms. My relationship with Stacy was cute, friendly and conversational whereas Tegan and Lindsey were sexual more than anything. I knew Tegan loved me, but she will always love Lindsey too. That always upset me.
Tegan had booked for our next 3 nights in a hotel which were to commence not that afternoon but the afternoon of what was tomorrow. I called Tegan with the heat of excitement asking her what I need to pack besides the basics for when we meet tomorrow.
"Maybe some CD's for inspiration, I think that's all"
"Okay done. What about clothes? Do I need anything special?" I asked
"Oh no, heh. You definitely don't need to bring those!" Tegan chuckled "Knowing you, you wont be wearing them around the hotel much anyway Sar"
"TEGAN! Oh god." I sighed with a giggle. She was kind of right, although it was always her who took them off. "Really though, I have no idea what to bring"
"Just pack something special, we might go out one night. Gotta go, LB just got in, see you tomorrow. Love you, goodbye."
"Love you too Tegan. Bye." Unlike Tegan, I'm the type who cant help but get oh so critical. I felt like I wanted to hate Lindsey for always taking my Tegan away from me, but I didn't. Lindsey was a great girl, she would do anything for both Tegan and I. She was also incredibly naive on what was going on between us. Stacy was still in the study working away. I decided to go to sleep early so that I was well rested and ready for tomorrow.