John Paul opened the door to Kieron's apartment and felt a great loss. Just minutes before he had been with Craig and had taken joy in reliving his past. But when he saw Kieron lying on the floor, he realized this was his present and he hoped his future.
"Kieron. Kieron, sweetheart, what have you done?"
John Paul called emergency services, hoping it was not too late. He thought of how he had recently been pushing Kieron away. It had all been happening too fast. He had proposed to Kieron on impulse. At the time, Kieron had seemed like he needed reassurance that John Paul still loved him. Kieron was so excited to be engaged to John Paul. John Paul was happy at first also but lately it had seemed that he had lost control. He wanted to be out with his friends having fun not hanging around Niall's apartment doing laundry. He began to resent Kieron and had finally blurted out that he didn't want to marry him.
But now, cradling Kieron in his arms, John Paul realized how much that man meant to him. Kieron was the most caring and selfless man he had ever known. What was broken in John Paul that caused him to push Kieron away and with it the most loving relationship he had known? And for what? Craig? John Paul realized that his feelings for Craig were for the boy that he knew a year ago. But who was the Craig of today? Actually maybe John Paul did know the current Craig. He was just as selfish and immature and had caused John Paul to hurt the man that he truly loved.
But had John Paul hurt Kieron enough that he wanted to kill himself? That didn't make sense.
As the doctors told John Paul that they weren't sure if Kieron would survive, John Paul promised that if given another chance he would be honest with Kieron and ask for his forgiveness. Kieron was an expert at forgiving people. He would give John Paul another chance, wouldn't he?